Its almost Christmas. The skies have opened up, rain is coming down, lightning is flashing, and I can't even say its because I live in Florida. At least I am blessed so far with a mild winter in the mid south. It is getting closer and closer to my trip to MI for the winter shutdown at work and the Christmas holiday. I am so excited. I got a lot of great gifts for people this year, and I can't wait to see their faces when they open them up.
As for me, If you would of talked to me yesterday, I would of brought you down into a pit of depression, but its amazing what a difference a day can make. Don't get me wrong, I am still depressed a little, but I had a really good conversation with a cute friend in VA last night. We have been talking for many many years now, and he helped to cheer me up. I smiled every time I thought about him today. Thanks T. you are the light in my darkness.
Well the rest of this week is probably going to fly by. I have to do some water quality stuff on thursday, and a lot of reports to do by the end of the week, but if i get done early enough on friday, I can leave early to go to MI.
Well I am going to sign off for now, T. Just signed in, so I want to talk with him for a little while.
Night.
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Saturday, December 10, 2011
Vacation Plans
I know it has been a while since I posted to my blog. For that I am sorry. I have been crazy busy with work for the last month or so and haven't had any time to think about myself or my needs. While I am still busy, I realized I haven't blogged in a while.
I made it home for a short weekend over Thanksgiving, which was nice cause I got to see my whole family. Seamed like everyone was able to make it home for Thanksgiving this year. We had something like 14 people over for dinner. It was so nice to be able to spend it with a family of that size. I am looking forward to Christmas, where I hope to be able to spend some more time with the family. I requested a few days off, so hopefully I get it.
Soon after Christmas things at work should start to slow down, and I can figure out what I want to do for vacation this year. I am thinking of a couple of things, but I want them to be adventurous and fun, but also maybe stay in one of the fabulous gay resorts around this great country of ours. There is one in palm springs Florida (clothing optional), and another great one in Key West, Florida (also clothing optional). Now I know to some that may not sound all that great, but I think it will be a good time, maybe by that time I go on Vacation next time I will have a handsome travel companion.
There is another place I have been considering going, but it will be kind of cold during the winter slow down. A little place called Saugatuck, MI, it is the gay capital of the north. I guess it is one of the gay friendlies towns in Michigan, full of theater and art, and cute Michigan guys.
Where ever I got, I am looking forward to having a good time. Anyone want to go with me.
well that is all I have to say for now, I am tired, had a wheel job today, still on call so I might have a couple more before the weekends out.
I hope you all enjoyed my blog.
Kris
I made it home for a short weekend over Thanksgiving, which was nice cause I got to see my whole family. Seamed like everyone was able to make it home for Thanksgiving this year. We had something like 14 people over for dinner. It was so nice to be able to spend it with a family of that size. I am looking forward to Christmas, where I hope to be able to spend some more time with the family. I requested a few days off, so hopefully I get it.
Soon after Christmas things at work should start to slow down, and I can figure out what I want to do for vacation this year. I am thinking of a couple of things, but I want them to be adventurous and fun, but also maybe stay in one of the fabulous gay resorts around this great country of ours. There is one in palm springs Florida (clothing optional), and another great one in Key West, Florida (also clothing optional). Now I know to some that may not sound all that great, but I think it will be a good time, maybe by that time I go on Vacation next time I will have a handsome travel companion.
There is another place I have been considering going, but it will be kind of cold during the winter slow down. A little place called Saugatuck, MI, it is the gay capital of the north. I guess it is one of the gay friendlies towns in Michigan, full of theater and art, and cute Michigan guys.
Where ever I got, I am looking forward to having a good time. Anyone want to go with me.
well that is all I have to say for now, I am tired, had a wheel job today, still on call so I might have a couple more before the weekends out.
I hope you all enjoyed my blog.
Kris
Friday, November 11, 2011
J Edgar
So tonight I decided to go watch a movie. I was reading Queerty.com and they suggested seeing J Edgar, so blindly I did. LOL. But really it was a good movie. It went through his whole life from the point just before he became the director of the FBI to his death. I must admit he was a complex man.
As some of you may know, he never married. At one point when the FBI was expanding he met this guy, which became his right hand man. The portrayed him clearly as a gay man, but what was interesting as the hinted through the whole movie J Edgar Hoover was in love with his assistant.
If that was true, I can totally understand that in that era he would need to keep something like that quiet, especially building the FBI up. He made it clear from the beginning that the FBI agents had to meet certain protocols, on and off work. In the end he died, along with his secrets. The end of the movie dictated that the movie was based on rumors and non concrete evidence. Weather it is true or not it does make a great movie.
In this day and age, i would like to believe that if the current director of the FBI came out of the closet (not saying anything about the current director) that the U.S. public would not think any differently of him. Back then it would have been considered Un-American, now days it is common place to have a gay public official.
The movie was good. I do have to admit though when I walked into the movie and looked around, there was only about 5 people younger than me, the rest were I would guess 50 plus. Imagine how funny it was for someone like me, knowing that there is certain gay ideas, when the old people gasped at what they just saw. LOL
Well I would recommend the movie to anyone. It puts an interesting perspective on J. Edgar Hoovers life, and you can learn a lot about how the FBI came into existence.
Enjoy
Kris
As some of you may know, he never married. At one point when the FBI was expanding he met this guy, which became his right hand man. The portrayed him clearly as a gay man, but what was interesting as the hinted through the whole movie J Edgar Hoover was in love with his assistant.
If that was true, I can totally understand that in that era he would need to keep something like that quiet, especially building the FBI up. He made it clear from the beginning that the FBI agents had to meet certain protocols, on and off work. In the end he died, along with his secrets. The end of the movie dictated that the movie was based on rumors and non concrete evidence. Weather it is true or not it does make a great movie.
In this day and age, i would like to believe that if the current director of the FBI came out of the closet (not saying anything about the current director) that the U.S. public would not think any differently of him. Back then it would have been considered Un-American, now days it is common place to have a gay public official.
The movie was good. I do have to admit though when I walked into the movie and looked around, there was only about 5 people younger than me, the rest were I would guess 50 plus. Imagine how funny it was for someone like me, knowing that there is certain gay ideas, when the old people gasped at what they just saw. LOL
Well I would recommend the movie to anyone. It puts an interesting perspective on J. Edgar Hoovers life, and you can learn a lot about how the FBI came into existence.
Enjoy
Kris
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Its been a while
So I know its been a long while since I blogged, for that I am sorry. I have been working extremely long hours at work the last few weeks, and have barely had time to do anything but come home, or back to the hotel and sleep.
Last night was the first evening in a long time that I actually had time off. We were working at a casino in Tunica, MS. After we got done with the job and got something to eat, i decided to try my luck at the casino. I sat down at one blackjack table and stayed there for 3 hours playing. I was up, then down, then up, then I was down to my last bet, I made it back up again toward the end of the night and walked out of there $2.50 ahead. I was satisfied that I got 3hrs of entertainment and made money in the process. The group of people at the table was just a hoot from the get go. This guy sitting next to me dropped nearly 1000 dollars while at my table. through and through there was only one other person that stuck around as long as I did, but everyone was cheering everyone else on. It was a lot of fun.
Well today I finally got home (back to Murray) early, so I decided to go bowling tonight. I was tired so I only managed to bowl 7 games before I was wore out. On the way home I decided to stop at the gas station to cash in a winning lotto ticket and get some more while I was there. I squatted down at the lotto machine, getting my tickets, which happen to be on the bottom row of the machine. I was bent over, minding my own business getting my tickets. I stood up, turned around, and there was this really hot mussel guy standing about 10 feet back, looking right at me. As soon as I looked at him, he turned and walked up to the register, but I know he was checking me out, and of course I was doing the same. You could tell he just got done working out at the gym right behind the gas station, cause he had the workout shorts on, which by the way was showing his perfectly sculpted A**.
I should of said something to him. Hi or something like that, but no, I just admired him from a far.
Oh well, that's the best part of working in a college town, plenty of eye candy.
Well I am going to sign off know, I hope you enjoyed my blog. If you did, feel free to leave a comment on facebook.
Kris
Last night was the first evening in a long time that I actually had time off. We were working at a casino in Tunica, MS. After we got done with the job and got something to eat, i decided to try my luck at the casino. I sat down at one blackjack table and stayed there for 3 hours playing. I was up, then down, then up, then I was down to my last bet, I made it back up again toward the end of the night and walked out of there $2.50 ahead. I was satisfied that I got 3hrs of entertainment and made money in the process. The group of people at the table was just a hoot from the get go. This guy sitting next to me dropped nearly 1000 dollars while at my table. through and through there was only one other person that stuck around as long as I did, but everyone was cheering everyone else on. It was a lot of fun.
Well today I finally got home (back to Murray) early, so I decided to go bowling tonight. I was tired so I only managed to bowl 7 games before I was wore out. On the way home I decided to stop at the gas station to cash in a winning lotto ticket and get some more while I was there. I squatted down at the lotto machine, getting my tickets, which happen to be on the bottom row of the machine. I was bent over, minding my own business getting my tickets. I stood up, turned around, and there was this really hot mussel guy standing about 10 feet back, looking right at me. As soon as I looked at him, he turned and walked up to the register, but I know he was checking me out, and of course I was doing the same. You could tell he just got done working out at the gym right behind the gas station, cause he had the workout shorts on, which by the way was showing his perfectly sculpted A**.
I should of said something to him. Hi or something like that, but no, I just admired him from a far.
Oh well, that's the best part of working in a college town, plenty of eye candy.
Well I am going to sign off know, I hope you enjoyed my blog. If you did, feel free to leave a comment on facebook.
Kris
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Quicky
I just wanted to let everyone know. My anti stress, better calm down now! password is no longer Cookies, it has been changed recently. Now if you sense me getting angry for no reason, or for a reason, or stressed out beyond control, my new password is unicorn or rainbow.
Thanks for reading.
Kris
Thanks for reading.
Kris
Rage!!!
So the last couple of weeks have been extremely busy for me. I have been all over this area of the country doing mussel surveys and other projects. I think it is finally wearing on me. From the very moment I got up this morning till the time I pulled up into my driveway, I have been really irritable, and argumentative. Well of all days, I was catching a lot of extra shit from the crew I was working with. It just seamed like I was the main target for all the blame of anything that happened today, and to top it off, the supervisor kept rolling the Gay jokes. It seamed like it was one after another after another. Anyone who knows me knows that that kind of stuff just rolls off me, but it didn't today. It kept building and building, and I could feel the pressures of repression in my body. I needed a release, and I needed on bad.
I got back to the shop after that job, having to get ready for the next job. I was going over what we needed and found out that the other flow meter that was on another job two hours away was the one that we really needed for this job, so I did not hesitate to volunteer to drive up there to get it. It was just the release I was looking for. Jamming to my RuPaul the whole way up put me in a better mood. Thank you mother of all drag queens you are the inspiration I need to get through the day.
Well needless to say the trip did me good. I still feel some built up tension in my body. Hopefully it will be gone by tomorrow.
Well I will end this blog for now, I will try and post a more positive blog as soon as I can.
Kris
I got back to the shop after that job, having to get ready for the next job. I was going over what we needed and found out that the other flow meter that was on another job two hours away was the one that we really needed for this job, so I did not hesitate to volunteer to drive up there to get it. It was just the release I was looking for. Jamming to my RuPaul the whole way up put me in a better mood. Thank you mother of all drag queens you are the inspiration I need to get through the day.
Well needless to say the trip did me good. I still feel some built up tension in my body. Hopefully it will be gone by tomorrow.
Well I will end this blog for now, I will try and post a more positive blog as soon as I can.
Kris
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
National Coming Out Day
Well today is the day for all the gay men and women out there to reminisce on their stories of coming out of the closet. For me, it happened just about a year ago, or at least that's when I told my family. Most of you know the story, so I won't get into to much details. I was up with my family for the Thanksgiving holiday, I went through the entire weekend stewing over how I was going to tell them, but I was ready to tell them. Over a series of the few days I was there, I decided I wasn't going to leave back home without telling my parents. I had two agendas for my timing on it. The first was I wanted to tell them before the Christmas Season, Christmas is very important to our family, and I didn't want that to ruin the holiday if for some reason my parents had a hard time dealing with it. The second was I was just about to leave to go home, and I had to tell them. My dad was at work, so I couldn't tell him face to face like I really wanted to, but I told my mom. After some tears and a long couple of weeks she seamed to have a hard time with it. Mostly about her concerns for my safety. My parents are the best and my worst fears of how they would react did not even come close to coming true. They couldn't have taken the shocking news any better. No my relationship with my parents is as strong as ever.
So today, I posted a note on my facebook page wishing everyone a happy coming out day. I have been posting notes and other random post that were gay related. So essentially, now is my coming out on facebook.
One of my good friends at work asked me today why October 11th. For that I didn't have an answer, but I did find an article when I got home from work tonight. http://www.huffingtonpost.com/jordan-roth/national-coming-out-day-2011_b_1003951.html It is a good article basically explaining that national coming out day is not for all of those that have yet to come out, but it is for all of those that have already come out. It is for sharing stories, and putting yourself out there so other closeted people know who you are, and that they can come to you with issues, questions, or concerns. I think that's a great way to treat this holiday.
Although as of yet, I am not sure of why the date is today, but what I am sure of is; If anyone reading my blog needs to talk about anything, I am here for you. Just E-mail me at kfrogger1@yahoo.com.
Kris
So today, I posted a note on my facebook page wishing everyone a happy coming out day. I have been posting notes and other random post that were gay related. So essentially, now is my coming out on facebook.
One of my good friends at work asked me today why October 11th. For that I didn't have an answer, but I did find an article when I got home from work tonight. http://www.huffingtonpost.com/jordan-roth/national-coming-out-day-2011_b_1003951.html It is a good article basically explaining that national coming out day is not for all of those that have yet to come out, but it is for all of those that have already come out. It is for sharing stories, and putting yourself out there so other closeted people know who you are, and that they can come to you with issues, questions, or concerns. I think that's a great way to treat this holiday.
Although as of yet, I am not sure of why the date is today, but what I am sure of is; If anyone reading my blog needs to talk about anything, I am here for you. Just E-mail me at kfrogger1@yahoo.com.
Kris
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Nooner
Hello Everyone.
This is going to be a quick blog cause I am on my lunch hour, and have about 9 minutes until I have to head back to work.
Couple of good things going on right now. One my Sister in law is having a baby today. I am so excited to go up and see my new nephew and niece. Work is really busy right now, so I am not sure exactly when that will be. I hope it is soon.
There has been some concern about me signing up for the new app for my phone. So to set you all at ease, I am going to quite use of that application and cancel my account. I will just stick with the couple of dating websites I am already a member of, but I need to get myself out into the world a little more, and a little less on the net, and see what I can find out there.
Well that is about it for now. I will blog again soon.
Kris
This is going to be a quick blog cause I am on my lunch hour, and have about 9 minutes until I have to head back to work.
Couple of good things going on right now. One my Sister in law is having a baby today. I am so excited to go up and see my new nephew and niece. Work is really busy right now, so I am not sure exactly when that will be. I hope it is soon.
There has been some concern about me signing up for the new app for my phone. So to set you all at ease, I am going to quite use of that application and cancel my account. I will just stick with the couple of dating websites I am already a member of, but I need to get myself out into the world a little more, and a little less on the net, and see what I can find out there.
Well that is about it for now. I will blog again soon.
Kris
Sunday, October 2, 2011
I love October
So the start of the best month out of the year started with cooler weather, no more air conditioning and a wonderfully relaxing weekend. I really need it too. I was on vacation and then as soon as I got back I had to travel some more, so any opportunity I have to just relax and not do much for a day I am happy to take.
So I found this new app for my phone this weekend. It is called Guy Spy. It is a good idea, it will show you what guys are online, and where they are at via a map of the area. So I decided to sign up and see what it was all about. Well from day one I got a chat invite from some guy in my area. He seams like a pretty nice guy, but there is only one issue I am having, and it is the same issue I had with my last boyfriend, he is way too young. Now don't get me wrong, young guys are great on the eyes and great on the spirit, but I have a hard time bridging the generation gap. Superheros, and wrestling is okay, but not really my interest. Give me a guy that has been around for a little while, has some life experiences outside of the State of Kentucky and is in a place of stability. K if you are reading this I am not ruling you out, I still think at very least we can have a friendship.
I watched a movie this morning that was interesting to say the least, and I won't get into all the details of the movie, but I was watching that and realized the one thing I am truly missing is the love of a relationship. Now I just have to get to that point. Don't take this the wrong way, I am still happy, I just think there is more to me than I am currently showing.
Wow now I am getting all sappy and stuff. You all know me, I am not a sappy person. But I really need to find someone that is closer to my age that can understand me a little, and is still willing to get silly every once and a while. I am like peter pan I will never grow up, and I want someone that will never grow up with me.
Well that is all I have to say for now, I am sitting at the coffee shop sipping on some hot apple cider and eating a pumpkin cup muffin, what can be more perfect on a beautiful October day. Oh wait Candy Corn Thats what I need, I will have to indulge on that when I get home.
Have a happy October everyone, be sure to enjoy every minute of it that you can. Get outside, go to a haunted house, chase someone with a chainsaw, or at least jump out of a dark room (closet) at someone. Tis the season to be scared, so do it. Also remember that October 11th is National Coming Out Day so if you are gay and you haven't told someone you know, that is the day to do it, you will have the support of the whole LGBT community.
Love you all
Kris
So I found this new app for my phone this weekend. It is called Guy Spy. It is a good idea, it will show you what guys are online, and where they are at via a map of the area. So I decided to sign up and see what it was all about. Well from day one I got a chat invite from some guy in my area. He seams like a pretty nice guy, but there is only one issue I am having, and it is the same issue I had with my last boyfriend, he is way too young. Now don't get me wrong, young guys are great on the eyes and great on the spirit, but I have a hard time bridging the generation gap. Superheros, and wrestling is okay, but not really my interest. Give me a guy that has been around for a little while, has some life experiences outside of the State of Kentucky and is in a place of stability. K if you are reading this I am not ruling you out, I still think at very least we can have a friendship.
I watched a movie this morning that was interesting to say the least, and I won't get into all the details of the movie, but I was watching that and realized the one thing I am truly missing is the love of a relationship. Now I just have to get to that point. Don't take this the wrong way, I am still happy, I just think there is more to me than I am currently showing.
Wow now I am getting all sappy and stuff. You all know me, I am not a sappy person. But I really need to find someone that is closer to my age that can understand me a little, and is still willing to get silly every once and a while. I am like peter pan I will never grow up, and I want someone that will never grow up with me.
Well that is all I have to say for now, I am sitting at the coffee shop sipping on some hot apple cider and eating a pumpkin cup muffin, what can be more perfect on a beautiful October day. Oh wait Candy Corn Thats what I need, I will have to indulge on that when I get home.
Have a happy October everyone, be sure to enjoy every minute of it that you can. Get outside, go to a haunted house, chase someone with a chainsaw, or at least jump out of a dark room (closet) at someone. Tis the season to be scared, so do it. Also remember that October 11th is National Coming Out Day so if you are gay and you haven't told someone you know, that is the day to do it, you will have the support of the whole LGBT community.
Love you all
Kris
Monday, September 26, 2011
Been A while
I know its been a while since I last blogged. For that I am sorry. So over the last couple of weeks my vacation was approved at work, I left last week for Atlanta and then for Florida.
Atlanta was awesome. I went to six flags for an event with a roller coaster review club, It was great. We got an hour and a half of ride time before the park opened, and 2 hours after the park closed. I must admit, there were a lot of cute guys in the roller coaster club. I had a really good time, rode Goliath 4 times in a row.
After Atlanta I flew to Fort Lauderdale for the day, and then on to Orlando to go to my Aunt and Uncles House. I really appreciate their hospitality. Although I love staying with my aunt and uncle, the I candy is not that great. After all 80 and 90 year old people aren't that appealing to a 34 year old man. I will admit though that I love the atmosphere and how happy the old people are down there. It makes me look forward to becoming the appropriate age to live down there.
When I got back yesterday from my trip I had to go to Mississippi for an inspection tomorrow on the Mississippi River. We got down here and their happened to be a casino right across the street. I decided to and play for a little while. I hopped on the shuttle over to the casino and played for a little while. started out with slots, not so good, then I moved to blackjack. Normally i do pretty good at it, but tonight I lost a little bit of money. The highlight though of the night was the guys sitting across from me at the table. They were pretty cute, probably in their mid 20's. The cutest one looked to be Pacific Islander in harritage or Asian in some way, not really sure. His friend was pretty cute too, getting funnier the more he drank. When i first sat down at the table I wasn't sure how fun the table was going to be. Everyone was really stiff and quiet. After a while everyone started to relax and we all had a pretty good time. The guys were from New Orleans and I had a good time with them sitting across the table.
Well that is the update for today, I hope you enjoyed.
Kris
Atlanta was awesome. I went to six flags for an event with a roller coaster review club, It was great. We got an hour and a half of ride time before the park opened, and 2 hours after the park closed. I must admit, there were a lot of cute guys in the roller coaster club. I had a really good time, rode Goliath 4 times in a row.
After Atlanta I flew to Fort Lauderdale for the day, and then on to Orlando to go to my Aunt and Uncles House. I really appreciate their hospitality. Although I love staying with my aunt and uncle, the I candy is not that great. After all 80 and 90 year old people aren't that appealing to a 34 year old man. I will admit though that I love the atmosphere and how happy the old people are down there. It makes me look forward to becoming the appropriate age to live down there.
When I got back yesterday from my trip I had to go to Mississippi for an inspection tomorrow on the Mississippi River. We got down here and their happened to be a casino right across the street. I decided to and play for a little while. I hopped on the shuttle over to the casino and played for a little while. started out with slots, not so good, then I moved to blackjack. Normally i do pretty good at it, but tonight I lost a little bit of money. The highlight though of the night was the guys sitting across from me at the table. They were pretty cute, probably in their mid 20's. The cutest one looked to be Pacific Islander in harritage or Asian in some way, not really sure. His friend was pretty cute too, getting funnier the more he drank. When i first sat down at the table I wasn't sure how fun the table was going to be. Everyone was really stiff and quiet. After a while everyone started to relax and we all had a pretty good time. The guys were from New Orleans and I had a good time with them sitting across the table.
Well that is the update for today, I hope you enjoyed.
Kris
Saturday, September 10, 2011
Weddings
Well today was one of my friends weddings. I am so happy for him. Its kind of funny, I like hanging out with mike for all the guy things, like geocaching, UFC, Hanging out and having a beer, and just plane good conversation most of the time. The person he married is just as sweet and nice as anyone I have ever known. I like hanging out with her cause of all the non guy things. We talk about project runway, chick flicks, she likes board games. So the match is just perfect. I know this is going to sound a little greedy but they are the perfect couple for me to be a third wheel. I get great conversations from both end of the spectrum and we generally have a good time ever time we hang out. Congratulations you two, I hope you guys are happy together forever.
Now comes the typical social phobia type stuff. I was asked to help out in the wedding, which I was more than happy to do for them. After the rehearsal we went to the restaurant for dinner. After dinner mike and his buddies and most of his family decided to go to the bar and have some drinks. I didn't really know anyone and I didnt want to just hang around my friend all night cause I know he would want to talk with family and friends. So I opted out, I was almost begged to join by many of his friends and family, but I really am not one for just going to a bar and drinking. Instead I decided to go to the church and help his wife to be finish decorating the church. I had a good time doing that. Today after the wedding and the reception it was the same thing. They decided to go out to drink tonight, and I couldn't say no, I didn't want to ditch them two days in a row. Well as luck would have it I had a migraine tonight and it has been hurting me really bad. After the reception I drove home, took my meds for it and laid down for 20 min. before heading to the bar. The meds were working and I was having a good time, but the headache was still pounding. Finally I ducked out.
I had a really good time and kind of wish i didn't have a headache so I could of done some drinking. Most of his friends are great, and a lot of fun to hang out with. I also got an opportunity to meet his family, they are really great by the way, especially his grandma.
So what I am saying is, like always when I step out of my box, I have a good time. So M. and S. if you are reading this, I owe you a weekend with your friends and me at the apple for a night of drinking and letting my self go completely.
Kris
Now comes the typical social phobia type stuff. I was asked to help out in the wedding, which I was more than happy to do for them. After the rehearsal we went to the restaurant for dinner. After dinner mike and his buddies and most of his family decided to go to the bar and have some drinks. I didn't really know anyone and I didnt want to just hang around my friend all night cause I know he would want to talk with family and friends. So I opted out, I was almost begged to join by many of his friends and family, but I really am not one for just going to a bar and drinking. Instead I decided to go to the church and help his wife to be finish decorating the church. I had a good time doing that. Today after the wedding and the reception it was the same thing. They decided to go out to drink tonight, and I couldn't say no, I didn't want to ditch them two days in a row. Well as luck would have it I had a migraine tonight and it has been hurting me really bad. After the reception I drove home, took my meds for it and laid down for 20 min. before heading to the bar. The meds were working and I was having a good time, but the headache was still pounding. Finally I ducked out.
I had a really good time and kind of wish i didn't have a headache so I could of done some drinking. Most of his friends are great, and a lot of fun to hang out with. I also got an opportunity to meet his family, they are really great by the way, especially his grandma.
So what I am saying is, like always when I step out of my box, I have a good time. So M. and S. if you are reading this, I owe you a weekend with your friends and me at the apple for a night of drinking and letting my self go completely.
Kris
Thursday, September 1, 2011
A boat full of Hunks
I was out on the river today. We were on our way back down the Green River after just finishing up our job. I was putting away the GPS system when I heard some obscure comment coming from one of my colleagues driving the boat. "Did you see that boat, not a single women on board" Just then I looked up to see what they were talking about. It was a boat full of hot ass built guys, about six of them just riding down the river. My coworker made a comment that they were saying something as I was driving buy. I said "Ya, it was probably cause I was bent over putting the GPS away with my ass straight up in the air." Then I said, "Turn around I want to hang out with them tonight. LOL
Well that is all I got for now.
Kris
Well that is all I got for now.
Kris
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Got to love my mom
This is a very special dedication to my Mom. I was talking to her tonight. She was describing to me about the earthquake, which despite all the people that told me about it yesterday, it still didn't register. So in case you didn't hear about it, it is bad, I won't bore you with details, you can look it up for yourself. It is obvious that you have the internet.
But back to my mom. I was telling her oh, ya, I have a friend in the navy, I think he is Norfolk, VA. He posted something along the lines of "It's just an earthquake folks, nothing was damaged." But I think the only thing my mom heard was "I have a friend in the Navy" cause the response I got from her was. "Ohh so where did you meet this guy." I laughed and said, "I used to work with him."
Well what I got out of this, is when I tell her one day the I do have a boyfriend, I think she is going to accept the idea 100%. I can't wait for the day that I get to tell my parents that I have found that someone special.
Even if my mom doesn't read my post, which I am pretty sure she doesn't. Its a computer thing, if you knew my mom you would understand. I just wanted to say thank you.
You can dry your tears now, cause I know there are some of my readers that are only slightly more emotional than I am.
Where ever you are my "TED" show yourself. I will make every effort in the world to be close to you.
Kris
But back to my mom. I was telling her oh, ya, I have a friend in the navy, I think he is Norfolk, VA. He posted something along the lines of "It's just an earthquake folks, nothing was damaged." But I think the only thing my mom heard was "I have a friend in the Navy" cause the response I got from her was. "Ohh so where did you meet this guy." I laughed and said, "I used to work with him."
Well what I got out of this, is when I tell her one day the I do have a boyfriend, I think she is going to accept the idea 100%. I can't wait for the day that I get to tell my parents that I have found that someone special.
Even if my mom doesn't read my post, which I am pretty sure she doesn't. Its a computer thing, if you knew my mom you would understand. I just wanted to say thank you.
You can dry your tears now, cause I know there are some of my readers that are only slightly more emotional than I am.
Where ever you are my "TED" show yourself. I will make every effort in the world to be close to you.
Kris
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
New Season
I am so excited that the new season of project runway has started up. I am even more excited that I can watch it on my BoxeeBox.
It has been a rough week already as far as work goes, but I don't really want to bore all of you with the woes and details of my job.
I have decided that I need to make more of an initiative to find someone special. I have been scouring the internet looking for a local hunk to take me out and get me drunk. Okay not really (well the drunk part anyway). I am spending all this time looking for someone special online, yet I sit in my tiny ass apartment and only dream. Get your self out there Kris I scream to myself on the inside. However, there is this one guy I have been talking to on the internet for a couple of years now. I think I am going to make a point to head to that side of the state and meet him in person. So if you are reading the T. expect the doorbell to ring sometime soon.
So other then that, I am just about living a ho hum boring life. Time to change it up. If for some reason I go quiet on facebook, my blog, text messaging, don't worry about me, I have initiated an escape plan to the south. If in case of an emergency you will have to meet me in paradise, sucking down a margarita. yumm. Oh wait this isn't Red Robin.
Peace everyone, see you in paradise.
Kris
It has been a rough week already as far as work goes, but I don't really want to bore all of you with the woes and details of my job.
I have decided that I need to make more of an initiative to find someone special. I have been scouring the internet looking for a local hunk to take me out and get me drunk. Okay not really (well the drunk part anyway). I am spending all this time looking for someone special online, yet I sit in my tiny ass apartment and only dream. Get your self out there Kris I scream to myself on the inside. However, there is this one guy I have been talking to on the internet for a couple of years now. I think I am going to make a point to head to that side of the state and meet him in person. So if you are reading the T. expect the doorbell to ring sometime soon.
So other then that, I am just about living a ho hum boring life. Time to change it up. If for some reason I go quiet on facebook, my blog, text messaging, don't worry about me, I have initiated an escape plan to the south. If in case of an emergency you will have to meet me in paradise, sucking down a margarita. yumm. Oh wait this isn't Red Robin.
Peace everyone, see you in paradise.
Kris
Monday, August 8, 2011
Slow down
Many times before I have posted on my blog about taking the time to see what is beyond your typical perception. This blog posting is no exception. I read an article today about a man who played a violin in a subway station for an hour. http://www.omgsoysauce.com/15230/slow-down-read-this-through/ After about 45 minutes many people stopped for mere moments to listen to him play, and hurried on their way to catch back up to their ever pressing schedule. Most people did not even stop for a moment, just kept walking. Mind you that in this hour time period in New York City subway thousands of people walked by the man playing a violin. The man was a famous violin player. His last concert brought in $100 per seat. and he was playing one of the best pieces of music ever written, yet it seamed that no one took time out of there busy schedule to listen. After 45 min. he made 32 dollars. After an hour passed buy he stopped playing. No one applaud, didn't seam as if anyone even noticed him playing.
The interesting thing about the article that was touched on, but not elaborated on was the kids. Many young children wanted to stop and listen to the music, all the while being pushed to hurry up by their mother or father. The kids would lock their attention to the beauty and although they were being pushed they kept their heads turned toward the musician. Looks to me as if the children are still so young and innocent, and don't really have any concept of keeping a busy schedule.
I challenge you, my faithful readers to take more time to enjoy the world around you. An easy way would be to leave for work 1/2 hour early, giving yourself time to pull off into a park and take a stroll. If you see a vendor performing in the street, take a minute to focus all your attention on that person and what he/she is doing. After doing that, don't panic and run off, as if what you just did made you late. If you are late, look your boss in the eye, and apologize for taking time out of your busy schedule to appreciate the things that are truly important in your life. Okay don't do that, you might get fired, that's why I said to leave a half hour early.
I will try and follow my own advice, and if you feel like it, post on my facebook page or on the blog to let me know how you took a couple of moments out of your busy day. Oh wait you did, you are reading my blog. Thanks so much.
Kris
The interesting thing about the article that was touched on, but not elaborated on was the kids. Many young children wanted to stop and listen to the music, all the while being pushed to hurry up by their mother or father. The kids would lock their attention to the beauty and although they were being pushed they kept their heads turned toward the musician. Looks to me as if the children are still so young and innocent, and don't really have any concept of keeping a busy schedule.
I challenge you, my faithful readers to take more time to enjoy the world around you. An easy way would be to leave for work 1/2 hour early, giving yourself time to pull off into a park and take a stroll. If you see a vendor performing in the street, take a minute to focus all your attention on that person and what he/she is doing. After doing that, don't panic and run off, as if what you just did made you late. If you are late, look your boss in the eye, and apologize for taking time out of your busy schedule to appreciate the things that are truly important in your life. Okay don't do that, you might get fired, that's why I said to leave a half hour early.
I will try and follow my own advice, and if you feel like it, post on my facebook page or on the blog to let me know how you took a couple of moments out of your busy day. Oh wait you did, you are reading my blog. Thanks so much.
Kris
Saturday, August 6, 2011
Smurf
Well today all and all was a really good day. I woke up without the alarm ringing in my ear, saying wake up, you are going to be late for work. I got up just in time to listen to a wonderful thunderstorm. After just laying there in bed for a couple hours vegetating I decided to get up and do something. I went to the bank, cashed my check, went to breakfast. I decided that I didn't want to just go home and do nothing why I was waiting for the rain to clear, so I decided to go to the antique mall.
I found this most perfect, awesome, decorative ball. I don't know what it was about it, but I just had to have it. It only had a 2.00 price tag on it. So that gave me an idea. I am going to decorate part of my apartment, using the ball as my inspiration. Well I got to the check out, and because I was juggling it around in my hand, I wore the ink off of the price tag, so they wouldn't sell it. That kind of ruined the mood. So instead of going home I spent the rest of the morning at the antique malls in the town south of here.
I finally got home, the rain stopped, spent the rest of the day putting my car back together. Finished that, and it still almost drives straight. I then decided to go see the smurf movie. It was smurftastic. There was a huge cast, and probably half of them were gay. LOL. How great is that. Got Neal Patrick Harris, and that guy from Project Runway. The movie was a little "The Devil Wears Prada" which is fine with me, cause I love that movie.
Now I am home relaxing and waiting on my pizza to be delivered. Logged onto google. I guess Lucille Ball would have been 100 today. Happy Birthday to her. if you click on the google icon the first thing that comes up is how she was a Gay rights activist. How cool is that.
Well that is all I got for now. It was a great day.
Kris
I found this most perfect, awesome, decorative ball. I don't know what it was about it, but I just had to have it. It only had a 2.00 price tag on it. So that gave me an idea. I am going to decorate part of my apartment, using the ball as my inspiration. Well I got to the check out, and because I was juggling it around in my hand, I wore the ink off of the price tag, so they wouldn't sell it. That kind of ruined the mood. So instead of going home I spent the rest of the morning at the antique malls in the town south of here.
I finally got home, the rain stopped, spent the rest of the day putting my car back together. Finished that, and it still almost drives straight. I then decided to go see the smurf movie. It was smurftastic. There was a huge cast, and probably half of them were gay. LOL. How great is that. Got Neal Patrick Harris, and that guy from Project Runway. The movie was a little "The Devil Wears Prada" which is fine with me, cause I love that movie.
Now I am home relaxing and waiting on my pizza to be delivered. Logged onto google. I guess Lucille Ball would have been 100 today. Happy Birthday to her. if you click on the google icon the first thing that comes up is how she was a Gay rights activist. How cool is that.
Well that is all I got for now. It was a great day.
Kris
Thursday, July 28, 2011
What do you think of the new title.
So, I have changed the title of my blog. I had one response to the name change of the title and it was the one I would have picked also. So it is official It is now changed.
So for all of you that are reading this for the first time, welcome to my blog. For the rest of you sit back and enjoy.
This week has been totally crazy. I have hardly had more than a few hours to myself, working over 80 hours a week. I am totally exhausted. Well, finally tonight (Thursday) I only worked a 12 hour day, so I managed to get out of work at a decent hour and still make it to the last night of my bowling league. After my league I had to run to Walmart and get some shampoo, soap, and a clean towel. Work has kept me so busy that I haven't had a chance to do laundry, and I started running out of other supplies. So after a long soaking bath and a shave I feel like a brand new man.
When you are spending hours on end in a truck, bouncing from job to job, you have a lot of time to think. So a few things have come to mind while thinking.
I am thinking I want a family, you know the two and a half kids (not sure if I want the bottom or top half), a hansom husband, and a beautiful five car garage with a white picket fence keeping the flamingos in the yard. Now I guess I have to work on this. I was thinking back to all the wonderful times we had as a kid, going to Florida, Up north, Machinac Island, and how I wanted to share those wonderful experiences with someone and see the awe and wonder in their eyes.
I also got to thinking more about my facebook campaign to become the first, youngest, gay president of the united states. So as part of my campaign I am going to cut our deficit by reducing the size of the United States Government. Not just a little, but a lot, I am talking cutting the Senate in Half. We don't need that many people on payroll speaking for our country. The country is so small now, due to technology, that the representatives for each state can handle twice the area. Another thing I would do is to reduce the retirement pay system for the senate. We shouldn't be paying the senators for the rest of their lives, even if they only work for the country for 8 years. We need to either cut that in half, or reduce the number of years one can collect after retirement. Same goes for the President. Yes Me, even if I do get the job. I know this is a small part of reducing the problems faced by our government, but it is a start. Once I am in place and have a chance to really see the problems our country is facing I will be able to make it better for all.
So here is the deal. I can't afford to pay for campaign, I am not Republican or Democratic, but I will be old enough as of Feb. 2012. So Vote for me on your next ballot. My name will have to be written on the ticket.
Okay well I am going to go for now. I am tired, I have had a long night and it is time to finish watching my movie and go to bed.
Kris
P.S. I am in the mood for a chick flick. Any suggestions?
So for all of you that are reading this for the first time, welcome to my blog. For the rest of you sit back and enjoy.
This week has been totally crazy. I have hardly had more than a few hours to myself, working over 80 hours a week. I am totally exhausted. Well, finally tonight (Thursday) I only worked a 12 hour day, so I managed to get out of work at a decent hour and still make it to the last night of my bowling league. After my league I had to run to Walmart and get some shampoo, soap, and a clean towel. Work has kept me so busy that I haven't had a chance to do laundry, and I started running out of other supplies. So after a long soaking bath and a shave I feel like a brand new man.
When you are spending hours on end in a truck, bouncing from job to job, you have a lot of time to think. So a few things have come to mind while thinking.
I am thinking I want a family, you know the two and a half kids (not sure if I want the bottom or top half), a hansom husband, and a beautiful five car garage with a white picket fence keeping the flamingos in the yard. Now I guess I have to work on this. I was thinking back to all the wonderful times we had as a kid, going to Florida, Up north, Machinac Island, and how I wanted to share those wonderful experiences with someone and see the awe and wonder in their eyes.
I also got to thinking more about my facebook campaign to become the first, youngest, gay president of the united states. So as part of my campaign I am going to cut our deficit by reducing the size of the United States Government. Not just a little, but a lot, I am talking cutting the Senate in Half. We don't need that many people on payroll speaking for our country. The country is so small now, due to technology, that the representatives for each state can handle twice the area. Another thing I would do is to reduce the retirement pay system for the senate. We shouldn't be paying the senators for the rest of their lives, even if they only work for the country for 8 years. We need to either cut that in half, or reduce the number of years one can collect after retirement. Same goes for the President. Yes Me, even if I do get the job. I know this is a small part of reducing the problems faced by our government, but it is a start. Once I am in place and have a chance to really see the problems our country is facing I will be able to make it better for all.
So here is the deal. I can't afford to pay for campaign, I am not Republican or Democratic, but I will be old enough as of Feb. 2012. So Vote for me on your next ballot. My name will have to be written on the ticket.
Okay well I am going to go for now. I am tired, I have had a long night and it is time to finish watching my movie and go to bed.
Kris
P.S. I am in the mood for a chick flick. Any suggestions?
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Name Change, Cast Your Vote
Today, I think I am just going to rant again. It is going to be another experiment in free writing, and we will see what happens.
I have been doing pretty good, I know that most everyone at work already knows about me. I am pretty sure that everyone at work now knows that I am gay, and I think everyone is cool with it. Like I said before the boss knows, but he can't really say anything about it. I think it is in fear of some kind of discrimination or something. Oh well, I don't think I am going to really bring up the subject though. It has been rough this week at work for me, I am taking on a 12 hour shift at the casino boat, working from 530pm to 8am every day this week. On top of that I have been working on reports, and proposals. I have kind of been doing two jobs at the same time, which I guess is typical when we are doing the casino project. I will usually get about 4 to 6 hours of sleep, but my little car, which needs work, is just going to have to wait for the weekends I guess.
Speaking of my little car. As most of you know, I took it to its first race a couple of weeks ago, and had a really good time. I was cleaning the trunk out, getting the spare tire and anything loose out of there so I could pass tech. I pulled the tire out of the car and to my surprise I found a bank deposit bag in the trunk. Feeling the bag I could tell there was something in it. So out of curiosity of course I opened it. Looking inside, I did not find any money, in fact it was a bag full of unused condoms. I showed my cousin and we both had a good laugh. I then pulled the carpet out of the back, and in the bottom of the trunk well was more unused condoms. Although I couldn't figure out how a Miata can be used as a shaggin waggin, unless they were really small people, I decided it was for the best to dispose of the seat covers.
Now comes the participation part. I need to rename my blog. Post your answer in the form of A. B. C. on facebook to let me know what you think.
A. Finally Out, What took so long.
B. Closet? What Closet?
C. Closets are for Wardrobes.
I have been doing pretty good, I know that most everyone at work already knows about me. I am pretty sure that everyone at work now knows that I am gay, and I think everyone is cool with it. Like I said before the boss knows, but he can't really say anything about it. I think it is in fear of some kind of discrimination or something. Oh well, I don't think I am going to really bring up the subject though. It has been rough this week at work for me, I am taking on a 12 hour shift at the casino boat, working from 530pm to 8am every day this week. On top of that I have been working on reports, and proposals. I have kind of been doing two jobs at the same time, which I guess is typical when we are doing the casino project. I will usually get about 4 to 6 hours of sleep, but my little car, which needs work, is just going to have to wait for the weekends I guess.
Speaking of my little car. As most of you know, I took it to its first race a couple of weeks ago, and had a really good time. I was cleaning the trunk out, getting the spare tire and anything loose out of there so I could pass tech. I pulled the tire out of the car and to my surprise I found a bank deposit bag in the trunk. Feeling the bag I could tell there was something in it. So out of curiosity of course I opened it. Looking inside, I did not find any money, in fact it was a bag full of unused condoms. I showed my cousin and we both had a good laugh. I then pulled the carpet out of the back, and in the bottom of the trunk well was more unused condoms. Although I couldn't figure out how a Miata can be used as a shaggin waggin, unless they were really small people, I decided it was for the best to dispose of the seat covers.
Now comes the participation part. I need to rename my blog. Post your answer in the form of A. B. C. on facebook to let me know what you think.
A. Finally Out, What took so long.
B. Closet? What Closet?
C. Closets are for Wardrobes.
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
need to rename the blog
This posting is not posted live. I am at the coffee shop writing this, and it won't connect to the internet here. Tell me what is the point of having an Internet cafe and not being able to connect to the interenet. O well.
It really makes a person feel good, when I haven't posted a blog in a while and I start getting messages that people are waiting for my blog. I love you people. So without any other delay, other than the fact that I can't get on the interenet, ladies and gentlemen, my blog.
So this last couple of weeks have been a crazy week. As most of you remember from my last blog, it was time to start coming out at work. It was about time anyway, but it was given a shove that direction, and I decided to use that momentum and go with it.
I showed up last week for work and nothing was really said until after work. C and I had a talk about how he was feeling about the whole thing. He was feeling a slight bit guilty about teasing me in the past, and doesn't think it is appropriate to shoot gay jokes at me anymore. I told him that it was okay, he didn't know, and I find them amusing.
Well the rest of that week went buy with nothing more said. Had a text message conversation with T. the supervisor that found out first. He is cool with everything, and said that nothing will change.
Yesterday, I drove my car form my cousins house to the job site, since we were working in Nashville anyway that morning, I was early as expected, and C. showed up slightly after I got there. He wanted to let me know that him and T. had a conversation with the Big C. about me. I understand why they did that, but Big C. hasn't said anything to me yet about it, and I am not sure that he ever will. He did tell C. and T. that if someone starts in on me, and maliciously starts harassing me, then I need to tell T or C so that way they can mitigate the problem. I personally am not too worried about it, I can take any teasing the guys through my way. Its not my fault they are ignorant assholes.
Now it is time for some good conversation. I was driving down the road Saturday on the way to my cousins house, with the top of my new convertible down, first mistake there. Second mistake I had a tank top on. Third mistake I didn't put any sun screen on. And the forth mistake, I was wearing my seat belt. Put all of that together, it leads to an pretty funny looking sunburn on the upper half of my body. I have burnt arms, a burnt chest, burnt neck, burnt face, and a stripe across the center of my chest that is ghost white. Thank god for UV blocking seat belts, LOL. O well at least with a shirt on I don't have that bad of a farmers tan anymore.
Sunday I got to race the Miata for the first time. OMG it was so much fun. This car handles far better than anything else I have ever driven on the autocross. The only problem I ran into Sunday was the tires. They are really old, starting to dry rot on the sides, and the tread is really really hard. All that put together means hella drifting opportunity on the track. While the drifting was a ton of fun to do, it is very very slow. I was five seconds behind the main pack of cars, and nine seconds behind the leader. I was so close to the leader I could taste it. So the objective of this month, before the next autocross is to get to get the rack and pinion in replaced, the rear brake pads replaced, and hopefully a new set of rubber. I wan't to get some real race treads, and see what I can do with that.
Well I will let you all go, thanks for reading my blog, and thanks for letting me know that you want more.
Kris
P.S. You know the phrase “take the time to smell the roses”? Well I got one sort of like that. While driving down the highway, instead of drifting your mind into oblivion, which I know you all do, and I know you are not going to pay 100% attention to the road, take some time to look through the first layer of trees on the side of the highway. You will start to appreciate how beautiful the woods are.
Kris
It really makes a person feel good, when I haven't posted a blog in a while and I start getting messages that people are waiting for my blog. I love you people. So without any other delay, other than the fact that I can't get on the interenet, ladies and gentlemen, my blog.
So this last couple of weeks have been a crazy week. As most of you remember from my last blog, it was time to start coming out at work. It was about time anyway, but it was given a shove that direction, and I decided to use that momentum and go with it.
I showed up last week for work and nothing was really said until after work. C and I had a talk about how he was feeling about the whole thing. He was feeling a slight bit guilty about teasing me in the past, and doesn't think it is appropriate to shoot gay jokes at me anymore. I told him that it was okay, he didn't know, and I find them amusing.
Well the rest of that week went buy with nothing more said. Had a text message conversation with T. the supervisor that found out first. He is cool with everything, and said that nothing will change.
Yesterday, I drove my car form my cousins house to the job site, since we were working in Nashville anyway that morning, I was early as expected, and C. showed up slightly after I got there. He wanted to let me know that him and T. had a conversation with the Big C. about me. I understand why they did that, but Big C. hasn't said anything to me yet about it, and I am not sure that he ever will. He did tell C. and T. that if someone starts in on me, and maliciously starts harassing me, then I need to tell T or C so that way they can mitigate the problem. I personally am not too worried about it, I can take any teasing the guys through my way. Its not my fault they are ignorant assholes.
Now it is time for some good conversation. I was driving down the road Saturday on the way to my cousins house, with the top of my new convertible down, first mistake there. Second mistake I had a tank top on. Third mistake I didn't put any sun screen on. And the forth mistake, I was wearing my seat belt. Put all of that together, it leads to an pretty funny looking sunburn on the upper half of my body. I have burnt arms, a burnt chest, burnt neck, burnt face, and a stripe across the center of my chest that is ghost white. Thank god for UV blocking seat belts, LOL. O well at least with a shirt on I don't have that bad of a farmers tan anymore.
Sunday I got to race the Miata for the first time. OMG it was so much fun. This car handles far better than anything else I have ever driven on the autocross. The only problem I ran into Sunday was the tires. They are really old, starting to dry rot on the sides, and the tread is really really hard. All that put together means hella drifting opportunity on the track. While the drifting was a ton of fun to do, it is very very slow. I was five seconds behind the main pack of cars, and nine seconds behind the leader. I was so close to the leader I could taste it. So the objective of this month, before the next autocross is to get to get the rack and pinion in replaced, the rear brake pads replaced, and hopefully a new set of rubber. I wan't to get some real race treads, and see what I can do with that.
Well I will let you all go, thanks for reading my blog, and thanks for letting me know that you want more.
Kris
P.S. You know the phrase “take the time to smell the roses”? Well I got one sort of like that. While driving down the highway, instead of drifting your mind into oblivion, which I know you all do, and I know you are not going to pay 100% attention to the road, take some time to look through the first layer of trees on the side of the highway. You will start to appreciate how beautiful the woods are.
Kris
Sunday, June 26, 2011
I think I am out at work
So A friend of mine was on call this weekend at work. He had not been with the company for quite a while. He was riding back from the job and of course in typical company fashion everyone talks about everyone that isn't there. So I guess I was the topic of the conversation today. T. looked over at M. my friend and said, "Did you know Kris is gay?". M didn't want to let on that he knew, but then T. said "He came out to us a couple of weeks ago". M. not wanting to be left out of the conversation said that I came out to him a few months back. T. looked over at him and said, "Really, I was just joking around with you.". So I asked him who else was in the truck. He said B. I thought oh my gosh of all the people that had to get confirmation that I was gay, it had to be B. He has giving me crap since I first met him, but lately things have been going okay, now who knows whats going to happen.
So out of respect, I talked to one of my supervisors, that I consider more than just a supervisor. He was okay with it, told me it didn't matter to him. As for the rest of the company, we shall see tomorrow.
Kris
So out of respect, I talked to one of my supervisors, that I consider more than just a supervisor. He was okay with it, told me it didn't matter to him. As for the rest of the company, we shall see tomorrow.
Kris
Saturday, June 25, 2011
What a dream.
So, I am sitting here on a Saturday morning bored out of my skull. I ordered parts for my car last night, went and picked them up this morning so I can start the tuneup on my new car. Now it is thunder storming really really bad, so I can't do anything about it anyway. Oh Well maybe it will pass over soon and I can get to work on it. I can't work on it to late today cause I have a ham radio thing tonight. It is field day, so we are doing a 24 hour drill to practice emergency communications, but it might not be a drill if this storm persist.
So, since I was bored, I decided to check out my facebook page. Like I need an excuse like boredom to check facebook, but on of my friends posted a comment about New York passing the same sex marriage bill. Go NY.
My point with that statement is it reminded me of a dream I had last night. It was about my own wedding. Let me tell you it was a total event. **Now just a warning some of this dream which will be in bold may produce visual images you may not of wanted in your head** So it all started with a very techno themed music, I think it was Cannon in D. It started out slow and I remember coming around the corning and looking down this really long red carpet. I looked around and the wedding was in a stadium. The red carpet went down the stadium to the center of the ground level. I started off walking and began running down the hill as the music got faster. I was not wearing the typical black tux. I was in a tight pair of psychedelic rainbow spandex shorts and that was it, and I must say I was in good shape. Must have buffed up for the wedding. As I was running down the red carpet, the full stadium was cheering. I got up to the alter and was just standing there waiting in anticipation. At this point in my dream I had not seen the person I was suppose to marry. The music changes to some weird circusy music. I looked up and see a drag queen in a wavy red dress running down the isle. I thought oh, is this him. She/He got down to the alter turned around, took a bow, and took off her wig. I then saw another drag queen running down the isle, this time in a blue wavy dress. She got down to the alter and took off her wig. I then realized I wasn't going to merry them, they were the groomsmen/bridesmaids. The spot light shined to the top of the red carpet and around the corner came a clown (sorry cuz) He stood there in a blue suit with white polka-dots. He then tore off the blue suit and reviled another clown in a red polka-dot suit with white fringes. I was confused but caught up in the event. Then the clown tore off that suit and reviled a duck suit. (Hold on, got to stop laughing.) He looked like Howard the duck. He started running down the red carpet, as he got closer I noticed that most of the duck costume was gone, and all he had on was a white basketball uniform, white shorts and tank-top, but he still had a duck mask on. He got up to me and faced me at the alter. I reached down, grabbed his mask to lift it off his head.... Boom a crash of thunder from the reality world and I woke up. Now I guess I will never know what my future husband will look like.
Thanks for reading, If I have a continuation I will post it.
See u all, I hope you enjoyed.
Kris
So, since I was bored, I decided to check out my facebook page. Like I need an excuse like boredom to check facebook, but on of my friends posted a comment about New York passing the same sex marriage bill. Go NY.
My point with that statement is it reminded me of a dream I had last night. It was about my own wedding. Let me tell you it was a total event. **Now just a warning some of this dream which will be in bold may produce visual images you may not of wanted in your head** So it all started with a very techno themed music, I think it was Cannon in D. It started out slow and I remember coming around the corning and looking down this really long red carpet. I looked around and the wedding was in a stadium. The red carpet went down the stadium to the center of the ground level. I started off walking and began running down the hill as the music got faster. I was not wearing the typical black tux. I was in a tight pair of psychedelic rainbow spandex shorts and that was it, and I must say I was in good shape. Must have buffed up for the wedding. As I was running down the red carpet, the full stadium was cheering. I got up to the alter and was just standing there waiting in anticipation. At this point in my dream I had not seen the person I was suppose to marry. The music changes to some weird circusy music. I looked up and see a drag queen in a wavy red dress running down the isle. I thought oh, is this him. She/He got down to the alter turned around, took a bow, and took off her wig. I then saw another drag queen running down the isle, this time in a blue wavy dress. She got down to the alter and took off her wig. I then realized I wasn't going to merry them, they were the groomsmen/bridesmaids. The spot light shined to the top of the red carpet and around the corner came a clown (sorry cuz) He stood there in a blue suit with white polka-dots. He then tore off the blue suit and reviled another clown in a red polka-dot suit with white fringes. I was confused but caught up in the event. Then the clown tore off that suit and reviled a duck suit. (Hold on, got to stop laughing.) He looked like Howard the duck. He started running down the red carpet, as he got closer I noticed that most of the duck costume was gone, and all he had on was a white basketball uniform, white shorts and tank-top, but he still had a duck mask on. He got up to me and faced me at the alter. I reached down, grabbed his mask to lift it off his head.... Boom a crash of thunder from the reality world and I woke up. Now I guess I will never know what my future husband will look like.
Thanks for reading, If I have a continuation I will post it.
See u all, I hope you enjoyed.
Kris
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Inanimate object?
So as most of you know, I purchased a 1990 Mazda Miata last week. Let me tell you, I am 100 percent totally in love with the car. I mean so in love that I want to spend every minute looking at the car, sitting in the car, jumping in the car without opening the door. The car is pretty much awesome.
Now it is time for the dilemma. I found myself driving it to and from work every day this week. I know it is only Tuesday, but I really wouldn't have any issues driving it all week. The only problem with that is I feel as if I am neglecting my other car (Aveo). I love that car too, but it is really my daily driver, and I am not using it for daily driving.
Does anyone else feel that a car has a sole, and is it wrong to ignore it for a week or so and expect the car to be good to you. I know the car is sound and in great shape. I take care of it, but I am afraid that my car will get upset with me and start giving me problems.
What do you all think?
Let me know by posting to my facebook page in response to my blog announcement.
Thanks,
Kris
Now it is time for the dilemma. I found myself driving it to and from work every day this week. I know it is only Tuesday, but I really wouldn't have any issues driving it all week. The only problem with that is I feel as if I am neglecting my other car (Aveo). I love that car too, but it is really my daily driver, and I am not using it for daily driving.
Does anyone else feel that a car has a sole, and is it wrong to ignore it for a week or so and expect the car to be good to you. I know the car is sound and in great shape. I take care of it, but I am afraid that my car will get upset with me and start giving me problems.
What do you all think?
Let me know by posting to my facebook page in response to my blog announcement.
Thanks,
Kris
Sunday, June 19, 2011
I have had enough of being a closet employee
I am still so far in the closet at work, as time goes on, it gets harder and harder to try and hide it. Maybe its about time I stop. I don't know though. I wish I could just be confident that I will not have any major issues being out at work. Given the chance to start again I would do it from the beginning. Of course when I started at work I wasn't even close to being out of the closet.
This weekend my original plan was to head to pride this weekend. I got down here late Friday night after going through the loops of buying a new car, and trying to get caught up with work. I didn't get down here till about 11, by then I was totally exhausted. It was pretty late in the morning when I got up on Saturday. Looked at the radar and nothing but storms rolling through the rest of the day. So I am going to have to try and find another pride event to go to this year.
So I am going to take a vote from my bloggers. Please either respond yes or no to my facebook page on my invite to the blog, or post a comment on this blog.
Should I come out at work or not. Y/N
I don't know what else to say today. I have tried starting to work out, and I guess it is going okay, but I need to get a little more serious. The last week I have been out on the boat every day, so when I get home I am pretty exhausted. A friend of mine wanted to start working out with me, and maybe join a gym. I am thinking about getting back with the cardio kick boxing.
Another exciting event this week. I paid off one of my cars, the Little Red Aveo, and bought a Mazda Miata. I can't wait till this week when I get it registered. You will see me cruising town in a white convertible. I am so excited.
Well I got to go, hope you enjoyed my rant, don't forget to vote.
Kris
This weekend my original plan was to head to pride this weekend. I got down here late Friday night after going through the loops of buying a new car, and trying to get caught up with work. I didn't get down here till about 11, by then I was totally exhausted. It was pretty late in the morning when I got up on Saturday. Looked at the radar and nothing but storms rolling through the rest of the day. So I am going to have to try and find another pride event to go to this year.
So I am going to take a vote from my bloggers. Please either respond yes or no to my facebook page on my invite to the blog, or post a comment on this blog.
Should I come out at work or not. Y/N
I don't know what else to say today. I have tried starting to work out, and I guess it is going okay, but I need to get a little more serious. The last week I have been out on the boat every day, so when I get home I am pretty exhausted. A friend of mine wanted to start working out with me, and maybe join a gym. I am thinking about getting back with the cardio kick boxing.
Another exciting event this week. I paid off one of my cars, the Little Red Aveo, and bought a Mazda Miata. I can't wait till this week when I get it registered. You will see me cruising town in a white convertible. I am so excited.
Well I got to go, hope you enjoyed my rant, don't forget to vote.
Kris
Saturday, June 11, 2011
Pride is Coming Up
Just a quick post.
This next weekend is pride weekend in Nashville. If all goes well with my work schedule I will be there bright and early on Saturday morning, ready to catch a rainbow, or ride a unicorn.
It should be a lot of fun, and I am looking forward to my first pride event.
Hope to see some of you there.
Kris
This next weekend is pride weekend in Nashville. If all goes well with my work schedule I will be there bright and early on Saturday morning, ready to catch a rainbow, or ride a unicorn.
It should be a lot of fun, and I am looking forward to my first pride event.
Hope to see some of you there.
Kris
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Workout
Its that time of year again when I decided to get off my lazy ass and start doing something about the size of it. My cousin and I pledged to each other to lose 40 lbs each. For me that will be just about right, I think. Another 40 lbs and I will be under 200 lbs.
Today I started on my wii, using the wii active. It is a fun game, and although some of you may laugh, it can be intense too. I did some inline skating, lunges, squats, curls, shoulder presses, Cardio kick boxing (my favorite), tennis and volleyball. It was pretty fun, and all was said and done I burned 250 calories. That doesn't sound like much, but it is most of a carton of french fries. That is something else I need to change.
Oh well, I guess with the help of my cousin and the support of my friends I should be able to lose this unwanted weight. One of the rules of racing is, less weight more speed. This can only be good for my performance on the track. If I lost 40 and my cuz lost 40 that would be 80 lbs less that my low horsepower race car would have to carry. If you think turning the AC on while driving drains horsepower. you should see what 80 lbs does.
Off the track the weight loss will be better for me. I will feel more comfortable in my swim suite, so I can lay out in the yard and let everyone enjoy the view of my sexy bod. Okay maybe not the yard, but how about the beaches in Florida.
Wow now I am only dreaming.
Kris
P.S. I heard of a bumper sticker the other day "I am so gay that I can't even drive straight." LOL
Night all.
Today I started on my wii, using the wii active. It is a fun game, and although some of you may laugh, it can be intense too. I did some inline skating, lunges, squats, curls, shoulder presses, Cardio kick boxing (my favorite), tennis and volleyball. It was pretty fun, and all was said and done I burned 250 calories. That doesn't sound like much, but it is most of a carton of french fries. That is something else I need to change.
Oh well, I guess with the help of my cousin and the support of my friends I should be able to lose this unwanted weight. One of the rules of racing is, less weight more speed. This can only be good for my performance on the track. If I lost 40 and my cuz lost 40 that would be 80 lbs less that my low horsepower race car would have to carry. If you think turning the AC on while driving drains horsepower. you should see what 80 lbs does.
Off the track the weight loss will be better for me. I will feel more comfortable in my swim suite, so I can lay out in the yard and let everyone enjoy the view of my sexy bod. Okay maybe not the yard, but how about the beaches in Florida.
Wow now I am only dreaming.
Kris
P.S. I heard of a bumper sticker the other day "I am so gay that I can't even drive straight." LOL
Night all.
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Hi
I didn't have a better title than that. This blog doesn't have a theme, I am just going to talk, and what ever comes out comes out. So how is everyone else doing?
This year was suppose to be an epic year for me, errr, I was going to do something epic anyway. The year is 1/2 over and I still am epicless. What is epic anyway? It seams that epic is the word of the decade.... Sorry had to get up and take care of some business, lol too much coffee.... After having a little time to contemplate what I just wrote, I still don't know what I am going to do that is epic this year. I am sure I will do something I am sure.
Has anyone ever gotten an urge to do something that will change the way the world does something? I used to get that feeling all the time. I lost it for a while, but I think it is starting to come back. Now I have to decided what I am going to do. I have plenty of ideas, I am eligible to run for president next year. HMMM lets think about that. I will have to follow one of the greatest presidents of all times, not so sure I can step into those shoes. Oh and I wasn't talking Obama.... come on, you all know me better than that. There has been a lot of great presidents in the past. But seriously, I could run, people want change right, after all Obama is president. I could be the first openly gay president, and if I were hooked up with someone, they would be the first First Man in the White House. That would be epic right, and quite possible change the way the world does things. Okay, well if that is what you want, just write me in on the next election.
Well other than my imagination being active, there isn't very much more going on in my life right now.
I was going to race last weekend, but there was a series of unfortunate events, followed by an almost flaming Fiero, ha I just said flaming on my blog. The front wheel bearing seized up and got extremely hot, welding the outer bearing to the spindle. So needless to say I spent Sunday in my cousins pickup running all over Nashville to find the parts to get my Fiero back on the road. I did, about 10pm and made it back to Murray safely.
Well I think I have said enough for now, probably more to be said, but then you wouldn't have anything to read on my next blog.
Kris
P.S. Your life is yours and yours alone. Don't fuck it up.
This year was suppose to be an epic year for me, errr, I was going to do something epic anyway. The year is 1/2 over and I still am epicless. What is epic anyway? It seams that epic is the word of the decade.... Sorry had to get up and take care of some business, lol too much coffee.... After having a little time to contemplate what I just wrote, I still don't know what I am going to do that is epic this year. I am sure I will do something I am sure.
Has anyone ever gotten an urge to do something that will change the way the world does something? I used to get that feeling all the time. I lost it for a while, but I think it is starting to come back. Now I have to decided what I am going to do. I have plenty of ideas, I am eligible to run for president next year. HMMM lets think about that. I will have to follow one of the greatest presidents of all times, not so sure I can step into those shoes. Oh and I wasn't talking Obama.... come on, you all know me better than that. There has been a lot of great presidents in the past. But seriously, I could run, people want change right, after all Obama is president. I could be the first openly gay president, and if I were hooked up with someone, they would be the first First Man in the White House. That would be epic right, and quite possible change the way the world does things. Okay, well if that is what you want, just write me in on the next election.
Well other than my imagination being active, there isn't very much more going on in my life right now.
I was going to race last weekend, but there was a series of unfortunate events, followed by an almost flaming Fiero, ha I just said flaming on my blog. The front wheel bearing seized up and got extremely hot, welding the outer bearing to the spindle. So needless to say I spent Sunday in my cousins pickup running all over Nashville to find the parts to get my Fiero back on the road. I did, about 10pm and made it back to Murray safely.
Well I think I have said enough for now, probably more to be said, but then you wouldn't have anything to read on my next blog.
Kris
P.S. Your life is yours and yours alone. Don't fuck it up.
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Warning Going to be a Negative Blog!!!
Sorry for the negative post, I am retracting the last blog post. To all of those that read the blog, and possibly got hurt by my last blog, I am truly sorry. It was not my intention to target anyone in particular, and as a result I hurt some of my friends and Family.
Sorry
Kris
P.S. in the words of RuPaul. "If you can't love yourself, How the hell are you going to love anyone else."
Sorry
Kris
P.S. in the words of RuPaul. "If you can't love yourself, How the hell are you going to love anyone else."
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Wedding
Tonight was a good night. My friend got married today, so I went to his wedding and reception. I have always dreaded the wedding reception. Why you may ask, well it is just a group of people, most of which I don't know, except the bride or groom, so I don't have anyone to hang out with or talk to, forcing me to meet and associate myself with new people. So I worked my way into conversations around the table, and dreaded being dragged up to the dance floor to dance with my friend.
Well finally towards the end of the night I got sick of it all, went to the front and danced my ass off for the rest of the night. No I didn't dance well, but I was up there looking goofy with the other 20 or so people on the dance floor. I must say thought I got a good charlston in.
The other one M. he is totally crush worthy. He was on the bowling league with me. He has a build kind of like mine,, a little extra meat, but not quite as much. he wears it well. He has a lot of energy, and has a great personality. I don't know his story, but I tried to hang around him as much as possible when we were between frames, talking and trying to get to know him. Well bowling league is over, hopefully he will be there next season.
Well I have just about talked myself to death, and probably you all are tired of reading this post. One other not, I planned on going bungee jumping this weekend, but I could not find anywhere to do it near Cincinnati. I decided that I am not going to leave this size of a city without doing something, so tomorrow I am going to try and go see the Cleopatra exhibit at one of the local museums.
Enjoy,
Kris
Well finally towards the end of the night I got sick of it all, went to the front and danced my ass off for the rest of the night. No I didn't dance well, but I was up there looking goofy with the other 20 or so people on the dance floor. I must say thought I got a good charlston in.
The other one M. he is totally crush worthy. He was on the bowling league with me. He has a build kind of like mine,, a little extra meat, but not quite as much. he wears it well. He has a lot of energy, and has a great personality. I don't know his story, but I tried to hang around him as much as possible when we were between frames, talking and trying to get to know him. Well bowling league is over, hopefully he will be there next season.
Well I have just about talked myself to death, and probably you all are tired of reading this post. One other not, I planned on going bungee jumping this weekend, but I could not find anywhere to do it near Cincinnati. I decided that I am not going to leave this size of a city without doing something, so tomorrow I am going to try and go see the Cleopatra exhibit at one of the local museums.
Enjoy,
Kris
Monday, April 25, 2011
last couple of weeks
The last couple of weeks have been kind of interesting for me so I thought I would write about it. We got a couple of new guys at work, which is nothing new, we are getting geared up for the busy season. Well they were in the front of the shop waiting for the seceratary when I came in. I shook their hands and introduced myself. It stopped and said HI to the marketing person, then went back into my office. I put my hands on the keyboard to log into my computer and realized that I still had my pride bracelet on. My first though was, OOOOOOOOHHHH SHIT. What did I just do? I just had to laugh about it. The new guys don't know anything about me, except for the fact that I am gay. Thats all I could think about anyway, but then thought well what if they didn't see it, or didn't realize it. I figured if I am outed, i guess that is something I will have to deal with, not like I think it would be a big surprise anyone. but I also thought if I try to run interference with the new guys, I would only bring attention to the face, and if they didn't see it, then they would know about it when I was done trying to head it off. So far, I haven't heard of anything.
The only other thing on my mind right now is that I really want to find someone I can think about settling down with. I would love to come home to someone at night, cuddle in front of the TV, and a person I can wake up next to in the morning. So I am going to try and be a little more outgoing and try and go on more dates in the very near future. After I establish a steady relationship maybe we can start talking about kids. I don't know why all of a sudden, but I am feeling the desire for one.
Well I am going to shut the computer down, there is a severe thunderstorm about to go through.
Have a good night all, and I hope you enjoy the blog. oh and if you know any cute guys that I can carry on a good conversation, what are you waiting for hook me up. wink wink
Kris
The only other thing on my mind right now is that I really want to find someone I can think about settling down with. I would love to come home to someone at night, cuddle in front of the TV, and a person I can wake up next to in the morning. So I am going to try and be a little more outgoing and try and go on more dates in the very near future. After I establish a steady relationship maybe we can start talking about kids. I don't know why all of a sudden, but I am feeling the desire for one.
Well I am going to shut the computer down, there is a severe thunderstorm about to go through.
Have a good night all, and I hope you enjoy the blog. oh and if you know any cute guys that I can carry on a good conversation, what are you waiting for hook me up. wink wink
Kris
Monday, April 11, 2011
Crush
Well, this week was the last week of my bowling league. I must admit that I am sad to see it go. I finally started to get out of my social isolation and got out there and started enjoying being around people. Its been great. Well there is this one guy on the league I have been crushing on, especially for the last couple of weeks. I am pretty sure he is straight, but heck why not enjoy his company anyway. I will call him M. my way of protecting the straight. LOL. but anyway for the last couple of weeks I have been hanging out around him between the frames and talking with him. He seams like a really nice person, and oh, he is cute to boot. I don't know what else to say about it.
Tonight was a good night bowling though. I shot a 247 as a high game, with a series of 649.
Another thing I have been doing at work was to keep myself in a better mood. I have started to put my pride bracelet in my pocket. Every time I reached in to grab my keys or my phone, or just put my hands in my pocket, I would grab the bracelet and smile.
I don't know if anyone has noticed or not, but I have started posting on my facebook page that my blog is ready. Its great cause I only have to tell one media. The people that know I have a blog can see that it is ready, and the people that don't know I have a blog ignore it. I like it that way, and if they really wanted to know what the blog comment is about, they can ask me.
Well that is all I have to say for now. I know there was something else, but it slipped my mind. I will post again when I think of it.
Night all.
Kris
Tonight was a good night bowling though. I shot a 247 as a high game, with a series of 649.
Another thing I have been doing at work was to keep myself in a better mood. I have started to put my pride bracelet in my pocket. Every time I reached in to grab my keys or my phone, or just put my hands in my pocket, I would grab the bracelet and smile.
I don't know if anyone has noticed or not, but I have started posting on my facebook page that my blog is ready. Its great cause I only have to tell one media. The people that know I have a blog can see that it is ready, and the people that don't know I have a blog ignore it. I like it that way, and if they really wanted to know what the blog comment is about, they can ask me.
Well that is all I have to say for now. I know there was something else, but it slipped my mind. I will post again when I think of it.
Night all.
Kris
Friday, March 25, 2011
Two same themed blogs in a row.
Got to love the Boxee box. For all of those that don't know what it is. It is the most awesome media player in the world. It will pull streaming video off line and play it on your TV. over 9000 movies and 1000 tv shows to choose from.
Well I was flicking through my list of favorites, and came across the new History Channel Series "Only in America". I thought I would check that out and see what it is all about. well the first thing on the list was "Pray the Gay Way". I thought that was weird, but I wanted to check it out. Turns out the Boxee box put it in the wrong category and I was really watching an O W N network show. I had seen the commercial for it a few days back and wanted to watch it.
They had many different types of people there. Ones that are self proclaimed X-Gay. They claimed by prayer and believing in god that they have become X-Gay. They also had people that were in the process of becoming x-gay. I really felt bad for this kid. He acted so repressed with his feelings. He did use to drag, drink, do drugs, and have random sex with guys, but now that He has found god, and is trying to become x-gay, he doesn't do that anymore. So I will admit that some good has come out of that mentality, as far as the crazy destructive life style is concerned. But you could tell that this kid was so bottled up.
But then they had a segment on this other group of kids. They had this summer camp where Gay kids can go to and learn about god and be in a place that was accepting of their sexuality.
It was a really good show, and Opera gets two thumbs up for airing it. All is said and done, one of the ministers of the group that wanted to change gays to straight came out and said "Weather your gay or straight you will be beside me in heaven as long as you believe in Jesus as our savior.
With that I am done talking tonight. I feel a little more at ease now that I watched the show and saw other gay peoples perspectives on being Christan.
Kris
Well I was flicking through my list of favorites, and came across the new History Channel Series "Only in America". I thought I would check that out and see what it is all about. well the first thing on the list was "Pray the Gay Way". I thought that was weird, but I wanted to check it out. Turns out the Boxee box put it in the wrong category and I was really watching an O W N network show. I had seen the commercial for it a few days back and wanted to watch it.
They had many different types of people there. Ones that are self proclaimed X-Gay. They claimed by prayer and believing in god that they have become X-Gay. They also had people that were in the process of becoming x-gay. I really felt bad for this kid. He acted so repressed with his feelings. He did use to drag, drink, do drugs, and have random sex with guys, but now that He has found god, and is trying to become x-gay, he doesn't do that anymore. So I will admit that some good has come out of that mentality, as far as the crazy destructive life style is concerned. But you could tell that this kid was so bottled up.
But then they had a segment on this other group of kids. They had this summer camp where Gay kids can go to and learn about god and be in a place that was accepting of their sexuality.
It was a really good show, and Opera gets two thumbs up for airing it. All is said and done, one of the ministers of the group that wanted to change gays to straight came out and said "Weather your gay or straight you will be beside me in heaven as long as you believe in Jesus as our savior.
With that I am done talking tonight. I feel a little more at ease now that I watched the show and saw other gay peoples perspectives on being Christan.
Kris
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Need to find me
Hi everyone, Well the two or three of you guys that read my blog.
Okay, I have said what I needed to say. The above text has been deleted, what I said was stuff I needed to say for the betterment of myself.
Now stuff that I want to say to everyone.
I am dealing with a lot of emotional things right now. Not sure where I fit in, Not sure where the future is going to take me, not sure of much right now. I feel as if I have been a drift on the sea of life for a while now, not really focused, just going where the current takes me. The problem is, I am stuck in an eddy. At times it looks like I am on the move, but wait a little while longer and I will be riding the current back to where I was. I need a sudden burst of wind to break me free of this eddy.
Wow, now I am getting really philosophical. Well hold on to your seats, its not over yet.
The other thing I am dealing with is God and Religion. Even though I always listen and love to listen to my Christan radio station. (WAY FM) little plug for them, they rock. I feel lost in my religion. I was brought up as a Presbyterian and still feel as if that is my denomination of choice. What I have a hard time with is, figure out where I fit in within a church setting. I really miss the fellowship of the church. I don't want to walk into a church "Hi its me aren't I fabulous", I don't think I need to disrupt things like that, but on the other hand I don't want keep myself closeted either. It is going to come out, I would rather people know from the start and get to know me for me, not for the guy that just came out. I know there are churches that present themselves as gay churches, but that is not what I really want. I don't want the focus on homosexuality, or even around it, but what I want is acceptance for the way I am, and given the right to worship the lord along side everyone else. After all we are all sinners in this world in one way or the other. (I know what I want to say in this space here, but I can't figure out how to put it into words right now. The rest of this thought is up to you guys.)
Well with all that being said, I will sign off.
Please post comments or thoughts about this posting.
Kris
P.S. I know there are a couple of my close family that read this blog, and are worried about me, please know that I will be okay. I just need to climb my way out of this valley, or blow my self out of this eddy. (anyone got a speed boat, that would help) I will be okay you guys.
Okay, I have said what I needed to say. The above text has been deleted, what I said was stuff I needed to say for the betterment of myself.
Now stuff that I want to say to everyone.
I am dealing with a lot of emotional things right now. Not sure where I fit in, Not sure where the future is going to take me, not sure of much right now. I feel as if I have been a drift on the sea of life for a while now, not really focused, just going where the current takes me. The problem is, I am stuck in an eddy. At times it looks like I am on the move, but wait a little while longer and I will be riding the current back to where I was. I need a sudden burst of wind to break me free of this eddy.
Wow, now I am getting really philosophical. Well hold on to your seats, its not over yet.
The other thing I am dealing with is God and Religion. Even though I always listen and love to listen to my Christan radio station. (WAY FM) little plug for them, they rock. I feel lost in my religion. I was brought up as a Presbyterian and still feel as if that is my denomination of choice. What I have a hard time with is, figure out where I fit in within a church setting. I really miss the fellowship of the church. I don't want to walk into a church "Hi its me aren't I fabulous", I don't think I need to disrupt things like that, but on the other hand I don't want keep myself closeted either. It is going to come out, I would rather people know from the start and get to know me for me, not for the guy that just came out. I know there are churches that present themselves as gay churches, but that is not what I really want. I don't want the focus on homosexuality, or even around it, but what I want is acceptance for the way I am, and given the right to worship the lord along side everyone else. After all we are all sinners in this world in one way or the other. (I know what I want to say in this space here, but I can't figure out how to put it into words right now. The rest of this thought is up to you guys.)
Well with all that being said, I will sign off.
Please post comments or thoughts about this posting.
Kris
P.S. I know there are a couple of my close family that read this blog, and are worried about me, please know that I will be okay. I just need to climb my way out of this valley, or blow my self out of this eddy. (anyone got a speed boat, that would help) I will be okay you guys.
Thursday, February 24, 2011
I am not sure I fit in anymore
I am not sure I fit in at work anymore. It has been a rather rough week for me this week dealing with people. On of the guys I work with he has had a bad attitude towards me since the first day he started working there. I never knew why until this week. He is scared of me I think. He calls me gay all the time and I never deny it. So he doesn't like me because I don't deny it. Will I guess our differences will never be worked out, cause weather he thinks I am gay, or I come out and tell him I am gay, his attitude is going to be the same. So be it. So B. The only thing I have to you is FU. Thats it.
Now comes the other part of the week. One of the office ladies came in to my coworkers office and mine this morning starting out with, do you know what Obama did? She explained that Obama won't defend the marriage law or something like that she started going on about gay this and gay that, and how she thought there is no way that people were born gay, it is against the bible. That is where I almost stopped her. I wanted to ask here when she knew she was straight.
Well anyway I have pretty much figured out that there is no way I can even entertain the notion of coming out at work, already knowing how people act about homosexuality even when they don't know how close it is to them.
Anyway enough of this negative blog. I don't like them myself but some times things just need to be said.
Kris
Now comes the other part of the week. One of the office ladies came in to my coworkers office and mine this morning starting out with, do you know what Obama did? She explained that Obama won't defend the marriage law or something like that she started going on about gay this and gay that, and how she thought there is no way that people were born gay, it is against the bible. That is where I almost stopped her. I wanted to ask here when she knew she was straight.
Well anyway I have pretty much figured out that there is no way I can even entertain the notion of coming out at work, already knowing how people act about homosexuality even when they don't know how close it is to them.
Anyway enough of this negative blog. I don't like them myself but some times things just need to be said.
Kris
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Vacation
Well as some of you know, and some of you don't I spent last week in sunny Florida, getting a taste of what its like down where people are happy to be where they are at. I must say I had a good time down in the Villages. Yes I know I said Villages, a retirement community. But really I was down there to visit my uncle which I have not been to his place since he moved in, and to play as much golf as I could squeeze in while I was down there.
The Villages is a really nice community, and there is a good chance that when it comes to me retiring, that is where I am going to end up. The older people in this area is like no other. They are the biggest group of people that have decided that when they are old, they are not going to stay inside the house all day and let death happen. The are taking advantage of everything this wonderful community has to offer.
For me, on the days that I didn't go golfing I went geocaching with my aunt. She was great to drive me all over the villages in her awesome electric golf cart. I had a blast, and found around 14 geocaches. There were a couple of great puzzle caches that ended up being a ton of fun.
When all was said and done, it was time to go home. I didn't really like the idea, but I knew I still had a job waiting for me when I got home. So I boarded the airplane and the first thing I saw was a cute flight attendant, can't for the life of me remember his name, but I was happy to see a male attendant. I got settled in my seat and it was time for the pre-flight announcements. This is when it got fun.
The flight attendant started the announcements, talking about turning off all electronic devices such as cell phones, computers, children. That got everyone that was paying the littlest of attention laughing. Then he continues talking about the drinks, coke, diet coke, water, alcohol, and energy drinks for your children. Again the plane was practically rolling on the floor. So towards the end of the safety portion of the speech he was talking about the oxygen mask. He said "even though the bag may not be inflated the alcohol is still flowing". Isn't that great. Oh and one other thing, he was talking about the vest. he said to put the toilet cover over you head and pull the handle when you get out of the plane. "for the over achiever you can inflate the vest manually using the tube".
So anyway enough about that. So the plane takes off, and what do you know, there are three male flight attendants and only one female flight attendants. and to top it off they are all pretty cute.
Well on the assent into the air we hear an announcement. "Please direct your attention to the center Isle, your in flight snack is being delivered". I was thinking what is going on. Then I hear "you better catch them, the drinks are next". All of a sudden peanuts go flying down the center isle, they were putting them on the floor and letting them slide towards the back due to our assent angle. It was so fun.
Well that was the highlight of my trip home.
Hope you enjoyed the story.
Kris
The Villages is a really nice community, and there is a good chance that when it comes to me retiring, that is where I am going to end up. The older people in this area is like no other. They are the biggest group of people that have decided that when they are old, they are not going to stay inside the house all day and let death happen. The are taking advantage of everything this wonderful community has to offer.
For me, on the days that I didn't go golfing I went geocaching with my aunt. She was great to drive me all over the villages in her awesome electric golf cart. I had a blast, and found around 14 geocaches. There were a couple of great puzzle caches that ended up being a ton of fun.
When all was said and done, it was time to go home. I didn't really like the idea, but I knew I still had a job waiting for me when I got home. So I boarded the airplane and the first thing I saw was a cute flight attendant, can't for the life of me remember his name, but I was happy to see a male attendant. I got settled in my seat and it was time for the pre-flight announcements. This is when it got fun.
The flight attendant started the announcements, talking about turning off all electronic devices such as cell phones, computers, children. That got everyone that was paying the littlest of attention laughing. Then he continues talking about the drinks, coke, diet coke, water, alcohol, and energy drinks for your children. Again the plane was practically rolling on the floor. So towards the end of the safety portion of the speech he was talking about the oxygen mask. He said "even though the bag may not be inflated the alcohol is still flowing". Isn't that great. Oh and one other thing, he was talking about the vest. he said to put the toilet cover over you head and pull the handle when you get out of the plane. "for the over achiever you can inflate the vest manually using the tube".
So anyway enough about that. So the plane takes off, and what do you know, there are three male flight attendants and only one female flight attendants. and to top it off they are all pretty cute.
Well on the assent into the air we hear an announcement. "Please direct your attention to the center Isle, your in flight snack is being delivered". I was thinking what is going on. Then I hear "you better catch them, the drinks are next". All of a sudden peanuts go flying down the center isle, they were putting them on the floor and letting them slide towards the back due to our assent angle. It was so fun.
Well that was the highlight of my trip home.
Hope you enjoyed the story.
Kris
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Random
Okay this is going to be a blog of random thoughts that pop into my head as I type.
So things have been pretty good for me lately. It has been a couple of months since I told my parents. They are starting to become more and more comfortable with it. Today I had a conversation about religion with my mom today, most of this came on because my cousin decided that it was time she let God back into her life. We went to a Church of Christ today, while it is not for me, I will support my cousin with whatever she wants to do. Well I got a little off topic, so my mom and I were talking about religion and she said gay at least three times. I love it that she can talk to me more openly about it.
On the home front end of my life, I have a couple of guys that I am thinking of pursuing and seeing what happens from there. So there is this one guy T. he was telling me that he is starting to have feelings for me, and although he seams to be a good person, and we have some good conversations, he claims to be Bi not Gay, and he lives in North Carolina.
Then there is this guy I just started talking to. There are a couple of really good pluses with him. He lives only 20 min from my house, He is cute as a button, and seams to have a great personality. So far I haven't had any time to find any negatives about him. Maybe I won't that would be great.
Then there is this other guy. He has a great personality and seams to be a very nice guy, we have many things in common such as cars, and he is interested in going geocaching with me. The negatives the big one it seams with most of my potential relationships is that he lives a few hours away.
If anyone has ever had a long distance relationship with someone, they will know how hard it is. When you come to visit a date turns into a weekend event. So it is not typical with the, lets go to dinner sometime attitude. That puts a lot of stress on the relationship right off the bat.
Well those are my thoughts so far. I am getting ready this week to take a well deserved vacation. It has been a long time since I have had an opportunity to get away from work and everyday life and go somewhere for a week to do nothing but enjoy myself. Maybe next time I go on vacation I will have someone to take with me and enjoy their company.
Well I am going to go for now. I hope everyone enjoys my blog, and if it is a while before I blog again, hit me in the head and tell me to write a blog.
Kris
So things have been pretty good for me lately. It has been a couple of months since I told my parents. They are starting to become more and more comfortable with it. Today I had a conversation about religion with my mom today, most of this came on because my cousin decided that it was time she let God back into her life. We went to a Church of Christ today, while it is not for me, I will support my cousin with whatever she wants to do. Well I got a little off topic, so my mom and I were talking about religion and she said gay at least three times. I love it that she can talk to me more openly about it.
On the home front end of my life, I have a couple of guys that I am thinking of pursuing and seeing what happens from there. So there is this one guy T. he was telling me that he is starting to have feelings for me, and although he seams to be a good person, and we have some good conversations, he claims to be Bi not Gay, and he lives in North Carolina.
Then there is this guy I just started talking to. There are a couple of really good pluses with him. He lives only 20 min from my house, He is cute as a button, and seams to have a great personality. So far I haven't had any time to find any negatives about him. Maybe I won't that would be great.
Then there is this other guy. He has a great personality and seams to be a very nice guy, we have many things in common such as cars, and he is interested in going geocaching with me. The negatives the big one it seams with most of my potential relationships is that he lives a few hours away.
If anyone has ever had a long distance relationship with someone, they will know how hard it is. When you come to visit a date turns into a weekend event. So it is not typical with the, lets go to dinner sometime attitude. That puts a lot of stress on the relationship right off the bat.
Well those are my thoughts so far. I am getting ready this week to take a well deserved vacation. It has been a long time since I have had an opportunity to get away from work and everyday life and go somewhere for a week to do nothing but enjoy myself. Maybe next time I go on vacation I will have someone to take with me and enjoy their company.
Well I am going to go for now. I hope everyone enjoys my blog, and if it is a while before I blog again, hit me in the head and tell me to write a blog.
Kris
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Need caching buddy
So I spent Christmas break with my family in Michigan, and I must say that I had a good time, almost makes me homesick. I got to spend a lot of time geocaching with my brother, nephew and niece.
When I returned home and went out geocaching, while it was fun, it just wasn't the same. What I want is someone to share that experience with. My sister called me at an absurd hour for geocaching, but I went to do it anyway. The only thing I was missing was someone I can call on to enjoy the pleasure with.
Here is a call out, I want a geocaching buddy that I can also spend the rest of my life with. Is that really too much to ask.
Kris
When I returned home and went out geocaching, while it was fun, it just wasn't the same. What I want is someone to share that experience with. My sister called me at an absurd hour for geocaching, but I went to do it anyway. The only thing I was missing was someone I can call on to enjoy the pleasure with.
Here is a call out, I want a geocaching buddy that I can also spend the rest of my life with. Is that really too much to ask.
Kris
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