Superman, or Clark Kent

I have found my inner superman. I spend all day at work as boring Kris, not the Kris everyone knows and loves, that Kris is long gone at work. I realized today that I use to play pranks on my bosses, joke around and having a good time. Its who I am, and really its my personality. But for some reason I have slipped into a blend within the company, but that all changes when I come home.

I didn't get home from work tonight till almost 9:30, tired, ready to go to bed, sit down on my computer and feel that something is missing. Oh yes, I know what it is, It is the big S on my chest. Okay Okay Okay, I don't have an S on my chest, but I got up put on my necklace and I feel like me again. Even though I am not going anywhere tonight and not going out, I just feel right with this necklace on. I wear it all the time now, it used to be a weekend thing but now it is a nightly thing. I where it everywhere I go when I am not at work.

I was at work, feeling like boring Clark Kent, reached up the scratch my neck, thought about my necklace and it brought a big smile to my face.

Well that is my inner superman story,
Does anyone else have an inner superman, something that reminds them to let go of your inhibitions and enjoy your life?

Well I hope you enjoyed, Leave some feedback let me know about your inner superman.

Kris

Interesting Day

Wow, today I was put in a really interesting position. Our hotel that we are staying at is right across the street from a titty bar. My room mate wanted to take me over to it. I told him that I have never been to one before and am not interested in going. Well the subject was not really dropped all day, and the subject on the boat got to dealing with sex, pussy, and boobs. I like normal was real quiet why the others went back in forth sharing stories and stuff. After a while T. as we will call him in this story to protect the straight, lol. He mentioned that I was being really quiet and asked me if I liked pussy. After a moment of silence and anxiety from them awaiting my answer, I looked at T and told him that I have had enough experience to form my own opinion. He asked what my opinion was. I responded EWWWWWWW. For the most part they just laughed it off, but suddenly the subject went to talking about gays. I just sat backed and listened to the conversation, just as quiet as before about the subject. Eventually conversation got back to normal and the rest of the day went on without any problems.

After work tonight, again the titty bar issue came up. We got out of work early so I went and did a couple of geocaches, my room mate B. decided to go with me. He kept going on about the titty bar, and about sex, and when the last time I had sex was, and do I know what this position or style is. Finally I told him that I am happy with the way I am.

That was the last that was said.

I am so wanting to tell him the truth, and maybe even T. I know though that if I tell T. it will get back to the owner of the company and it might cause some other issues with peoples comfort level with me being around them on the boat and sharing a hotel room and stuff. So I think for now, I will try and avoid the subject as much as possible with work people. I just can't afford right now to have issues like this at work.

As always I am looking forward to comments, feedback, and advice. Please take the time to let me know that you have read my blog.

Kris

Okay one step closer.

Well, I new my brother was going to tell his wife, and I waited impatiently for her to get onto Facebook to discuss it with her. She pretty much took it the same way my brother did. She wasn't surprised, and said it was cool.

I am happy she took it that well, I almost had to tell her the other day before I said anything to my brother because she was trying to set me up with one of the girls at her work. Luckily she didn't push it that hard, and I was able to skate around it until I was ready to tell her the truth.

Now that she knows I am sure she is going to try and set me up again, but with men now. I think she has pretty good taste, so you never know.

All is still well, nothing bad yet has come of my coming out experience.

Kris

I told my older brother

Well I was talking to my brother on the phone today, he was driving through the mountains in Wyoming so he was in and out of signal. I lost his signal for a moment and so out of fun I shouted out, "I am gay". My cousin looked at me and we started laughing. He didn't hear me, but while I was waiting for him to call me back I was talking to my cousin. Turns out he already voiced his theory with my cousin long before I told my cousin. So when he called me back I told him.

He was cool with it, I am glad. I am glad that I am starting to come out to family, however he warned me that if I let my younger brother and his wife know, it will most certainly get back to my parents. I think the correct order in this case is to tell my parents first, then tell my younger brother. I think he already knows, but has not ever said anything due to lack of confirmation.

Well all is well, another person on my checklist of people to tell, and still no negative experience. Tomorrow my brother is going to tell his wife, so I am sure that I am going to get a call or a text tomorrow.

Kris

Why don't they just ask?

You know, I work with a bunch of guys at work, and almost every one of them makes jokes and comments all the time about me being gay. That is great, for the most part I really enjoy it. What i don't know, is what they are talking about behind my back. For those of you that don't work in a semi-tight nit work environment, the gossip is horrible.

I know that most of the people at my company think I am gay. But does anyone know how many of them have actually came up to me and asked? That's right, NONE. None, not a single person. I don't pretend to act any different then I normally am, but some times I think I work for a bunch of chickens, that are so affraid of knowing the truth that they mask it with jokes and gossip.

Okay I am laying this out there to anyone who runs across this post. From the mind of a gay guy. If you suspect that a co-worker is gay, and you are really interested in knowing, ASK! Ask me, I will tell you. If you don't ask me you won't know for sure.

I have made it a personal policy this year, kind of a New Years resolution if you will, that if someone in a semi private setting came up to me and asked, I would tell them the truth.

I will leave you all at that, and remember if you have a question ask. It is stupid and reckless to assume.

Kris

Big Day Yesterday

Yesterday was one of the hardest persons to come out to so far. Not only because he is also one of my good friends, but also because I work with him. In the business I am in, I don't know how far being gay will take me.

So the other day at work he pretty much came up to me and told me it would be okay with him if I told him I was gay. So the next day I did. It went really well. I have not had a bad experience telling anyone so far, and hope it continues. I seem to only get myself involved with fairly open minded people, which really is a blessing.

I want to send a thanks out to my friend for understanding so well, may things not change between us. I don't think anything will change considering before he suspected I was Gay and now it is just confirmed.

I hope to be telling my family in the near future. Stay tuned to how that is going to go.

Kris

My friends wife knows

Well, I went to lunch with my friend B. we were talking, during lunch. He was telling me that his wife thinks I am queer. I laughed, and asked why that was. He said his wife heard the message I left him on my birthday to invite him to dinner. The message went as follows; "B I would like to cor-dually invite you to dinner at Tumbleweeds tonight." I guess the way I said it it was really soft spoken. She asked B who it was and he told her it was the guy you met at McDonalds the other day. She said, "you mean the one that was so soft spoken" He said yes, and he likes wine. I guess she said something like he must be queer. B was doing his best to defend me by saying something about having all these women falling all over me. LOL.

After he told me this I looked at him and said, its not the first time someone has called me queer and it won't be the last time. That was that, I think he was uncomfortable talking about it, and changed the subject. I think he is going to be the next person I tell, if for no other reason then to make his wife appear right. LOL.

Well that is it for today, I will keep up on this blog as more adventures unfold with one foot out of the closet.

First Blog

Hello Bloggers,

As my first blog, I just wanted to introduce myself. I am a 33 year old Commercial Diver, living in a small town in Western Kentucky. I am into scuba diving, geocaching, bowling, disc golf, golf, and a whole lot more.

This blog is going to be dedicated to my adventures and journey as I start to come out of the closet. So far so good. Everyone I have told have been real supportive of me, and my relationships with those people have only gotten better.

I don't want people I tell to say okay, good for you, and kind of skate around it and never talk about it. I love who I am and I have no problems talking to anyone about myself.

Well there it is my first blog. Hope you enjoyed, and I hope you will come back and continue to share my adventure with me.