So the last time I posted a blog was just after Thanksgiving when I came out to my parents. Since then things have been up and down, but now after about three weeks or so I can say that it is mostly up. My mom said she was okay with it at first, but it seamed to change after I left. I guess she started crying for a couple of days after. That was one thing I really did not want to do, but sometimes you have to do what you have to do. It wasn't going to be any easier on my mom if I told her last year, or this year, or even next year. I personally am doing well with it now. Now that my mom and dad and sister know, and soon after my mom found out, all of the family everywhere knew, so I don't have to hide any part of myself any more.... at least when it comes to my personal life. Work on the other hand still is for the most part in the dark.
I am actually writing this blog in the work truck on the way to a job. The group of people I am working with this week all pretty much know, and they have expressed that many times. Most in a fun and positive way.
So yesterday I was walking through walmart looking for digital cameras for the family. I was walking by the from registers when I saw the bosses son. Luckily I saw them first and had an opportunity to quickly tuck my necklace under my teeshirt. I don't know why I am so afraid of working finding out, but I fear it will have adverse effects on my career there.
Other then that things have been going good. Still don't have anyone that I can consider a boyfriend, but now that I am out to everyone there is no reason why I can't meet someone and be able to share my experiences with the ones that are closest to me.
Thanks for listening,
Kris
Sunday, December 19, 2010
Sunday, November 28, 2010
The Big Day
Well today was the big day, the day that scares the crap out of most gay people. You know what I am talking about. Today was the day I told my parents. Wow that was hard to get out. I started by talking to my mom this afternoon, about an hour before I had to leave to come back home. I didn't beat around the bush, I just said. MOM I have to tell you something, its probably going to blindside you, I am gay. After the shock wore off, we talked a little more, tears fell, kind of expected that, and we talked some more. I got the typical motherly concern for things, U know safe sex, grandkids, yadi yadi yadi, Not trying to make light of the conversation, cause it really wasn't.
Now as far as my dad was concerned I have not had a whole lot of time to get a feel for what he is feeling. He was at work when I was discussing it with my mom, and I had to leave before he got home from work. I told my mom that I would call him when he got out, but she said that she would talk to him about it. So he called me about an hour before I got home and we talked for a little bit.
I think they are both still in shock from the news. I was thinking that they already had some idea, but I was wrong. Then they brought up a point that I didn't think about at all. Telling my nephews and niece. We are probably going to have some discussions about that over the next couple of weeks, My parents are concerned about the kids using the news to label me, my parents don't want that at all. They are great people, and they are trying to keep the kids as well diverse and politically correct as possible. They are doing a wonderful job with the kids, as they did with us. I love them very much, and I hope they can work through whatever is concerning about me.
Kris
Now as far as my dad was concerned I have not had a whole lot of time to get a feel for what he is feeling. He was at work when I was discussing it with my mom, and I had to leave before he got home from work. I told my mom that I would call him when he got out, but she said that she would talk to him about it. So he called me about an hour before I got home and we talked for a little bit.
I think they are both still in shock from the news. I was thinking that they already had some idea, but I was wrong. Then they brought up a point that I didn't think about at all. Telling my nephews and niece. We are probably going to have some discussions about that over the next couple of weeks, My parents are concerned about the kids using the news to label me, my parents don't want that at all. They are great people, and they are trying to keep the kids as well diverse and politically correct as possible. They are doing a wonderful job with the kids, as they did with us. I love them very much, and I hope they can work through whatever is concerning about me.
Kris
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
I slipped again
Long time no talk. So I was at work the other day and the subject got on ass holes, for some reason or another. I slipped, or more or less couldn't resist. I told him that everyone has an ass hole, but some people use it in different ways. He laughed and said that sounded like an admission to me. I laughed, and so did the other guy I was working with. He was the one that I have already told that I was gay. Although I am pretty sure that the guy i told that to would be okay with me being gay.
Well, That was it, nothing too intense today, or too philosophical.
Kris
Well, That was it, nothing too intense today, or too philosophical.
Kris
Monday, November 15, 2010
In some ways I feel the same way as Hanna Montana, Now when your done laughing..... okay are you done yet....... really i have a point here..... okay, here it is. If anyone saw the last episode and for those of you that haven't I am sorry to spoil it, but Hanna comes out to the world of her true identity. Hanna throughout the entire episode was completely wigging out from the stress of living a duel life. I feel the same way, and completely understand. I myself have noticed a lot of issues that have caused me to think that the stress is getting to me. I have had a headache for a long time now, and just little ticks and annoying stuff. I was so happy for Hanna when she told the world and the stress of the double life was gone. I myself am ready for the stress of the double life to be over.
Here I am world. I am me, and I want to be the best damn me I can be. If you want to label me as gay fine then I am gay. But really, gay is just a part of me. I am a lot more. I am a scuba diver, a great bowler, and a geocacher. Just ask me, I will tell you what you want to know.
Kris
Here I am world. I am me, and I want to be the best damn me I can be. If you want to label me as gay fine then I am gay. But really, gay is just a part of me. I am a lot more. I am a scuba diver, a great bowler, and a geocacher. Just ask me, I will tell you what you want to know.
Kris
Monday, November 1, 2010
Note to Self
It has been a while since I have blogged. It has been a busy couple of weeks at work. There are a few things that I need to straighten around in my life, so things have been slow for any progress.
Don't get me wrong, there really isn't anything major wrong with my life, but I want to make some changes that will help me both in the near future and in the long term future. The kind of thing I had in mind are changes to my relationship status, telling my parents that I am gay (I know that comes up on almost every post), and the biggest one, but that I really can't start until I am fully out of the closet, so it better be soon, is a change in career. Why do I need to be fully out to do this last thing you may ask. Its simple. I really think that some of my biggest hold ups with my job is my fear of being outed. Now I know that sounds like an excuse, but why should I work to progress myself in a company that I am pretty sure will end my career if they new I was gay. So I want to get a fresh start with something new with no secrets, so I can concentrate and put my whole heart into it to make myself the best at whatever it is that I do.
Thanks for reading my blog. This particular blog had only one target audience (me). I think it is something that needed to be said to myself, and I needed to use this blog as a tool to get my thoughts down on something concrete. Something that I can look back on and say, "This is really how I feel". I am going to start looking at schools this week and figure out where I want to go. I think I know what I want to do (IT management).
So of all those that read my blog, who can see me as the best damn gay IT manager there is.
Thanks for reading my blog, I hope that I didn't ramble on too much for you.
Kris
Don't get me wrong, there really isn't anything major wrong with my life, but I want to make some changes that will help me both in the near future and in the long term future. The kind of thing I had in mind are changes to my relationship status, telling my parents that I am gay (I know that comes up on almost every post), and the biggest one, but that I really can't start until I am fully out of the closet, so it better be soon, is a change in career. Why do I need to be fully out to do this last thing you may ask. Its simple. I really think that some of my biggest hold ups with my job is my fear of being outed. Now I know that sounds like an excuse, but why should I work to progress myself in a company that I am pretty sure will end my career if they new I was gay. So I want to get a fresh start with something new with no secrets, so I can concentrate and put my whole heart into it to make myself the best at whatever it is that I do.
Thanks for reading my blog. This particular blog had only one target audience (me). I think it is something that needed to be said to myself, and I needed to use this blog as a tool to get my thoughts down on something concrete. Something that I can look back on and say, "This is really how I feel". I am going to start looking at schools this week and figure out where I want to go. I think I know what I want to do (IT management).
So of all those that read my blog, who can see me as the best damn gay IT manager there is.
Thanks for reading my blog, I hope that I didn't ramble on too much for you.
Kris
Sunday, October 17, 2010
The clothes we wear
So, just a quick little note. I had a conversation with one of the other supervisors on the job we are working on right now. He commented about my pink Coke shirt. I laughed and responded, what you don't like my shirt.
Okay thats it, just a little note. oh and for the record the shirt is not pink, it is faded red. cause that really makes a difference, right... right...?
Okay thats it, just a little note. oh and for the record the shirt is not pink, it is faded red. cause that really makes a difference, right... right...?
Saturday was a big day for me. There were three people I tried to tell on Monday, NCOD. Of those three people only one of them responded to my initial message. So of my friends from college called me on Wednesday to talk about it, but I was out of town on a job so I told him I would call him Saturday. So Saturday came around and we had a chance to talk about it. It took him completely off guard, which I found funny cause one of my other college friend new I was going to have this conversation with him one day. O well, it feels good to finally let the secret out of the bag, and he was cool with it.
Right after I hung up the phone the other friend I tried to tell on Monday text me. He had a feeling I was gay anyway.
I find it really interesting how one person can perceive a person one way and one can perceive them another way.
Kris
Right after I hung up the phone the other friend I tried to tell on Monday text me. He had a feeling I was gay anyway.
I find it really interesting how one person can perceive a person one way and one can perceive them another way.
Kris
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
October 11th
So as most of my readers already know yesterday was October 11th, national coming out day. This last year has been a really big year for me coming out. So to celebrate NCOD I decided to tell some of my other friends that I have not told. Still haven't told my parents, I want to but it is so hard for some reason.
The people I managed to tell on Monday was an old friend from when I went to dive school in Houston, TX. We used to work together at Lowes while I was going to school. She was pretty cool with it.
One of my co-workers asked what October 11th was, but I have not had a chance to talk to him about it. I think I want to tell him, he has become a close friend and think that it is something he should know about me.
I also let a friend from college know, it has been a while since we talked, and although I could not get a hold of him directly, I left him a message. I am hoping he won't have a hard time with it (don't think he will).
Then there was a friend I used to work with. He lives in Washington right now. I tried to tell him, but he has not responded to my text messages, so as soon as he does I am going to tell him.
Well that is my story for October 11th. I hope everyone that took advantage of this day had a good experience, and if you do decided to start coming out of the closet, take it from me, don't wait for the next October 11th. Make every day that special day to someone.
Kris
The people I managed to tell on Monday was an old friend from when I went to dive school in Houston, TX. We used to work together at Lowes while I was going to school. She was pretty cool with it.
One of my co-workers asked what October 11th was, but I have not had a chance to talk to him about it. I think I want to tell him, he has become a close friend and think that it is something he should know about me.
I also let a friend from college know, it has been a while since we talked, and although I could not get a hold of him directly, I left him a message. I am hoping he won't have a hard time with it (don't think he will).
Then there was a friend I used to work with. He lives in Washington right now. I tried to tell him, but he has not responded to my text messages, so as soon as he does I am going to tell him.
Well that is my story for October 11th. I hope everyone that took advantage of this day had a good experience, and if you do decided to start coming out of the closet, take it from me, don't wait for the next October 11th. Make every day that special day to someone.
Kris
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Life isn't better dead!
okay, I don't know how many people are reading my blog, and what age range all my readers are. I would like to think that there are more than just my closest friends reading this, but I don't know.
People please, over the last week, five teenagers have committed suicide due to being relentlessly teased by classmates for being openly gay. There are two problems I see. The first is the teasing. I know it is a fact of life people, I understand that 100%, I myself was teased a lot as a kid. The difference is, it wasn't because of my sexuality, I was not out at all when I was a kid. The biggest thing is that kids don't know when to quit. Look at how this is effecting the teen kid. Parents need to talk to their kids about the consequence of teasing.
The other problem is SUICIDE. Suicide is not the answer at all. Okay lets think about it for a second. How bad is your life, ...not bad enough. I know its rough, but coming from someone that was teased through school, it doesn't matter after high school. I myself wish that I had come out a long time before now. I love being defined as gay, but I am 33 years old and have had a lot of time in my life to figure myself out. Here is my point though. Life is so much better of a choice than death. Think of it this way. Life will never have a chance to get better if you don't give it a chance to. The world outside of school years is so much more accepting of Gay's.
I don't want to see any more stories like these. If you are going to come out of the closet and you are young prepare yourselves it is going to be a rocky road at first. If you let it get to you, then they are going to continue teasing you. If you go along with the teasing and play along with the teasing, it will get old for them and they will move on to someone else.
Don't suppress yourselves because your worried about the ignorance of the teenagers. Let yourself out, and just make yourself as mentally prepared for it as possible.
Please leave your comment,
Kris
People please, over the last week, five teenagers have committed suicide due to being relentlessly teased by classmates for being openly gay. There are two problems I see. The first is the teasing. I know it is a fact of life people, I understand that 100%, I myself was teased a lot as a kid. The difference is, it wasn't because of my sexuality, I was not out at all when I was a kid. The biggest thing is that kids don't know when to quit. Look at how this is effecting the teen kid. Parents need to talk to their kids about the consequence of teasing.
The other problem is SUICIDE. Suicide is not the answer at all. Okay lets think about it for a second. How bad is your life, ...not bad enough. I know its rough, but coming from someone that was teased through school, it doesn't matter after high school. I myself wish that I had come out a long time before now. I love being defined as gay, but I am 33 years old and have had a lot of time in my life to figure myself out. Here is my point though. Life is so much better of a choice than death. Think of it this way. Life will never have a chance to get better if you don't give it a chance to. The world outside of school years is so much more accepting of Gay's.
I don't want to see any more stories like these. If you are going to come out of the closet and you are young prepare yourselves it is going to be a rocky road at first. If you let it get to you, then they are going to continue teasing you. If you go along with the teasing and play along with the teasing, it will get old for them and they will move on to someone else.
Don't suppress yourselves because your worried about the ignorance of the teenagers. Let yourself out, and just make yourself as mentally prepared for it as possible.
Please leave your comment,
Kris
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Well, Last weekend was a nervous but exciting weekend for me. I met this guy through a my cuz, we started talking online a little bit, and a little chatting on the phone. Finally last weekend I got my chance to actually meet him in person, and spend a little time with him.
I wanted to go bowling, which I thought would be a good first date, that way it will allow us to talk why doing something together so we can get to know each other. Well plans changed, and we went back to his place and watched a movie. He seams like a pretty nice guy overall, and I am looking forward to spending more time getting to know him.
Saturday morning the chain on my necklace broke and my pride necklace went bouncing all over the livingroom floor. OOps, I guess I will have to get online and order a new one.
In case you didn't know, there is also National Coming Out day coming up on October 11th. It should be a cool day, I myself plan on hinting to other people the significance of the day, my parents included.
I was going to tell them on my trip to Michigan a couple of weeks ago, but things are kind of crazy up there and my parents weren't together for more than a couple of minutes. I think I am just going to have to send them a letter, and tell them to open it together.
Well I got to go for now, it is getting late, and I have to be to work fairly early tomorrow.
Night all, keep the rainbow flying, and the unicorns dancing.
I wanted to go bowling, which I thought would be a good first date, that way it will allow us to talk why doing something together so we can get to know each other. Well plans changed, and we went back to his place and watched a movie. He seams like a pretty nice guy overall, and I am looking forward to spending more time getting to know him.
Saturday morning the chain on my necklace broke and my pride necklace went bouncing all over the livingroom floor. OOps, I guess I will have to get online and order a new one.
In case you didn't know, there is also National Coming Out day coming up on October 11th. It should be a cool day, I myself plan on hinting to other people the significance of the day, my parents included.
I was going to tell them on my trip to Michigan a couple of weeks ago, but things are kind of crazy up there and my parents weren't together for more than a couple of minutes. I think I am just going to have to send them a letter, and tell them to open it together.
Well I got to go for now, it is getting late, and I have to be to work fairly early tomorrow.
Night all, keep the rainbow flying, and the unicorns dancing.
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Smile the world is only as good as you perceive it
Wow, I know, two post in one day. What is he thinking.
I just wanted to say that I had a great day. I got a report thats been bugging me done at work. I saw this guy running down the street, the smile on his face made me smile, so I had to get online and thank him for that. I smiled when I got finished with the report. Just before I left work today, I got a text message from a cute guys, made me smile some more. So when I got home and changed my oil, the oil plug needed to be replace, instead of being upset, it gave me a great reason to take my other car for a spin. Got home, finished with the oil change, took the car for a drive to make sure there was no leaks, and the car just happened to turn into Culvers, I smiled the whole way home with a double scoop of ice cream in my right hand.
Thanks for listening and to that one special person in my life who knows and loves Culvers, NA na na na boo boo.
Kris
I just wanted to say that I had a great day. I got a report thats been bugging me done at work. I saw this guy running down the street, the smile on his face made me smile, so I had to get online and thank him for that. I smiled when I got finished with the report. Just before I left work today, I got a text message from a cute guys, made me smile some more. So when I got home and changed my oil, the oil plug needed to be replace, instead of being upset, it gave me a great reason to take my other car for a spin. Got home, finished with the oil change, took the car for a drive to make sure there was no leaks, and the car just happened to turn into Culvers, I smiled the whole way home with a double scoop of ice cream in my right hand.
Thanks for listening and to that one special person in my life who knows and loves Culvers, NA na na na boo boo.
Kris
A good week
Well so far I have had a pretty good week. I met someone in person that I have been talking to for a little while on the internet. He is every bit as cute as his pictures online. He seams to be a really nice person, and i think I want to get to know him a little more and maybe develop a good friendship.
On the other end, I am going home to MI this weekend. I think I am going to at least make an attempt to tell my parents this weekend. Wish me luck with that, I think they will be okay with it, but it is always so hard to even think about, but the idea of them knowing and me being able to let my inner frog out completely.
Well I have to go back to work and hide in my close for a few more hours.
Kris
On the other end, I am going home to MI this weekend. I think I am going to at least make an attempt to tell my parents this weekend. Wish me luck with that, I think they will be okay with it, but it is always so hard to even think about, but the idea of them knowing and me being able to let my inner frog out completely.
Well I have to go back to work and hide in my close for a few more hours.
Kris
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
The inner me is knocking hard to come out
AHHHHHHHH! Thats what I hear from my inner self every time I wake up in the morning, crawl out of bed, smile at myself in the mirror, then suppress my gayness for another day at work. I want to do something, or change something in my life that I don't have to wake up and change who I am for the day.
Well I have to get going back to work.
Kris
Well I have to get going back to work.
Kris
Monday, August 16, 2010
So a couple of weeks ago I was working on a mussel relocation, working with a biologist that we have worked with many times before. The last time I worked with him I was just letting any ribbing go about me, but this time I was more absorbed with it, and played with the ribbing a little bit. I have said some things here and there but I didn't think I was being too obvious about. One day after work, one of the other guys grabbed my cell phone and jokingly typed in "I am gay", just before we got to the hotel. I grabbed my phone and typed a message back to him "I do not all the time agree with everything pat says", The biologist got the message while I was standing next to them. "Oh so you don't deny it" he says. I just walked away laughing.
The next day on the boat two divers were in the water, and the other two topside people were swimming cooling down, so it was just him and I. He looked at me and asked me straight out, "so have you told anyone at Mainstream". After I got done choking on my coke, I looked at him and said "no". He thought it would be a good idea to keep it quiet at work.
Well today he spend all day with the boss, and sometimes they get talking and who knows what will bleed out. I don't think he will say anything, but if he does, i think i will be okay with it.
Well hope you enjoyed my blog. I know I do.
Kris
The next day on the boat two divers were in the water, and the other two topside people were swimming cooling down, so it was just him and I. He looked at me and asked me straight out, "so have you told anyone at Mainstream". After I got done choking on my coke, I looked at him and said "no". He thought it would be a good idea to keep it quiet at work.
Well today he spend all day with the boss, and sometimes they get talking and who knows what will bleed out. I don't think he will say anything, but if he does, i think i will be okay with it.
Well hope you enjoyed my blog. I know I do.
Kris
Monday, August 2, 2010
Let people be people
I was going through the drive through the other day, when I noticed the girl in the drive through window. She had a large band-aid on her neck. At first thought, wow that must be some cut, but then I realized that it was to cover a tattoo. Now personally I don't have any tattoos, but I don't mind if someone does. Same thing with ear rings, why should people have to cover up. Our society is still heavily focused on dictating the way a person should act, or a person should look. Weather or not that person has piercings, tattoos, gay, straight, or whatever, we need to be more accepting in this world of a persons individuality, and not suppress it. I know that there are probably good times to have to cover up you uniqueness, but a person running the drive-through at a fast food restaurant should not have to cover up a tattoo, it is more gaudy seeing a band-aid than it is to see the tattoo.
Does anyone else agree.
Kris
Does anyone else agree.
Kris
Friday, July 30, 2010
Its been a while.
I know its been a while since my last post. I have let one other person know, a couple of weeks ago. That was M. He came over to my house the other day to help me get my Fiero ready for racing the following weekend. Finally after wearing my necklace around him for weeks he ask me whats up with the necklace. I replied what do you think is up with the necklace. He looked at me quietly for a few minutes than said: "so you like guys". I told him yes, he said he was having a hard time reading me, and are you straight up with me. I told him I was, and he said, "thats cool, nothing changes between us. We always thought you were gay but never new for sure". Well now he does. He still talks to a couple of people at work, and i didn't tell him that work does not know, so who knows what will come of that.
This last month or so has been really hard for me to be in the closet. I haven't had any me time really. I have been on job after job for weeks now, and my weekends have been jam packed with racing lately. In fact, I am typing this right now in the back seat of the work truck on my way home from a job. I am planning on doing some minor work on the Fiero this weekend, and I have to run into work for a few hours on Sunday, but other than that, I am going to try and have me time this weekend.
Well that is all I have to say this afternoon.
Kris
This last month or so has been really hard for me to be in the closet. I haven't had any me time really. I have been on job after job for weeks now, and my weekends have been jam packed with racing lately. In fact, I am typing this right now in the back seat of the work truck on my way home from a job. I am planning on doing some minor work on the Fiero this weekend, and I have to run into work for a few hours on Sunday, but other than that, I am going to try and have me time this weekend.
Well that is all I have to say this afternoon.
Kris
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Almost cought
Okay,
So at work there are a few people that I am really not sure if I want to know that I am gay. Of those the Ladies in the office are on the top of my list. While I am sure most of them would be cool with it, they are heavy Christians and just might not completely understand. But maybe I am not giving them enough credit. Well, today I was doing my laundry, and decided to go over to the dollar store to get some electrical tape and a water so I can start installing my new radio in my Fiero. I was in the checkout line and I hear this voice from behind me. Hey stranger, I turned to look and it was one of the office ladies. I said, "hi", trying not to turn all the way around, hoping she wouldn't get a glimpse of my necklace. So I probably was acting a little suspicious cause I wouldn't look her in the I. I paid for my stuff said goodbye and walked out of the store. when I got out to the car I looked into the mirror to see that my necklace was perfectly visible, but not sure if it can be seen over my collar from her height and angle.
I wonder though. If I were really that afraid of someone catching me, I wouldn't be wearing this necklace around town now would I.
O well we will see what happens, deep down I want the whole world to know so I can just be me.
Kris
So at work there are a few people that I am really not sure if I want to know that I am gay. Of those the Ladies in the office are on the top of my list. While I am sure most of them would be cool with it, they are heavy Christians and just might not completely understand. But maybe I am not giving them enough credit. Well, today I was doing my laundry, and decided to go over to the dollar store to get some electrical tape and a water so I can start installing my new radio in my Fiero. I was in the checkout line and I hear this voice from behind me. Hey stranger, I turned to look and it was one of the office ladies. I said, "hi", trying not to turn all the way around, hoping she wouldn't get a glimpse of my necklace. So I probably was acting a little suspicious cause I wouldn't look her in the I. I paid for my stuff said goodbye and walked out of the store. when I got out to the car I looked into the mirror to see that my necklace was perfectly visible, but not sure if it can be seen over my collar from her height and angle.
I wonder though. If I were really that afraid of someone catching me, I wouldn't be wearing this necklace around town now would I.
O well we will see what happens, deep down I want the whole world to know so I can just be me.
Kris
Friday, July 16, 2010
So I just had to comment about this morning. We were in the pontoon boat going down the river from the dam to the boat ramp. I was standing on the front of the boat looking in the water to make sure we don't hit any rocks or anything. I looked up to see my shadow in the water. There was a perfect Aura around my head. I was looking at it, and realized the Aura was a rainbow. A rainbow, I couldn't believe it. I just laughed, and pointed out the Aura to one of the guys on the boat, he said, "a perfect rainbow". We just laughed.
Well that is my story. My Aura is a rainbow, who am I to fight it.
Kris
Well that is my story. My Aura is a rainbow, who am I to fight it.
Kris
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Lost Netbook
Hi, its me again. I am still in a hotel in Chattanooga, tn, while I enjoy spending the weeks at a hotel out on a job, I am really looking forward to spending a night in my apartment. Got kind of an exciting weekend planned this weekend. I am hoping to do an autocross in Nashville on Sunday. I haven't done that in a long time, so it should be a lot of fun.
Now for the fun stuff to talk about. So I got an RC helicopter this weekend and we decided to go out and fly it next to the hotel. I was in the middle of working on a report for work, so i just folded up the netbook and went outside to fly it. I set my netbook down by the curb with my wireless keyboard and the papers for the report, and went out and flew my helicopter. The helicopter only has a 10 min battery life, so I wasn't gone very long. When I went to grab my netbook, it was gone. After a brief moment of panic I went to the front desk to see if anyone had turned it in.
Turns out someone found it, turned it in to the front desk, and because I had my company papers with it, they called up to the rooms in which we were registered under. Well they tried mine first, but i wasn't there, of course, i was out in the parking lot looking for my netbook. Then they called the room next to me, M. answered the phone and came on got my computer. So when I went to get it from him, he made a comment that he was checking to see if there was any gay porn on my computer. I responded with; did you find any? They said they didn't which would be accurate, i wouldn't keep porn of any kind on an almost public computer. So when I got back to my room I noticed the last picture they were looking at was one that I took the other day with my necklace on.
O well, I am sure they know I am gay, i just haven't told them yet. I guess if they saw the necklace they know too.
Well I have to go for now, I am getting tired, and I have to be down at the truck at 530 am.
Night Everyone.
Now for the fun stuff to talk about. So I got an RC helicopter this weekend and we decided to go out and fly it next to the hotel. I was in the middle of working on a report for work, so i just folded up the netbook and went outside to fly it. I set my netbook down by the curb with my wireless keyboard and the papers for the report, and went out and flew my helicopter. The helicopter only has a 10 min battery life, so I wasn't gone very long. When I went to grab my netbook, it was gone. After a brief moment of panic I went to the front desk to see if anyone had turned it in.
Turns out someone found it, turned it in to the front desk, and because I had my company papers with it, they called up to the rooms in which we were registered under. Well they tried mine first, but i wasn't there, of course, i was out in the parking lot looking for my netbook. Then they called the room next to me, M. answered the phone and came on got my computer. So when I went to get it from him, he made a comment that he was checking to see if there was any gay porn on my computer. I responded with; did you find any? They said they didn't which would be accurate, i wouldn't keep porn of any kind on an almost public computer. So when I got back to my room I noticed the last picture they were looking at was one that I took the other day with my necklace on.
O well, I am sure they know I am gay, i just haven't told them yet. I guess if they saw the necklace they know too.
Well I have to go for now, I am getting tired, and I have to be down at the truck at 530 am.
Night Everyone.
Thursday, July 1, 2010
So funny!
What a week,
So this week I have been on a mussel survey with 5 other guys from work. As usual the gay jokes get fired off, almost one after another, which I have come to expect and even enjoy. Today I fired one back that was so unexpected that Mountain Dew was being spit across the truck. We were talking about the aftermath of eating a 1 pound cheeseburger at Cheeseburger Cheeseburger tonight. Someone said something about it hurting coming out, then someone said except for Kris, it would just slide out. I laughed, and said I have had bigger. LOL that wasn't the funny part. C. Said that could be taken one of two ways. I said I know thats why I said it. That wasn't the funny part. Then I followed up with "thats why they call it a number two".
Okay if you aren't laughing by now, then you don't have a sense of humor, but if you are laughing by now, thanks, send me a comment about it.
TTFN
Kris
So this week I have been on a mussel survey with 5 other guys from work. As usual the gay jokes get fired off, almost one after another, which I have come to expect and even enjoy. Today I fired one back that was so unexpected that Mountain Dew was being spit across the truck. We were talking about the aftermath of eating a 1 pound cheeseburger at Cheeseburger Cheeseburger tonight. Someone said something about it hurting coming out, then someone said except for Kris, it would just slide out. I laughed, and said I have had bigger. LOL that wasn't the funny part. C. Said that could be taken one of two ways. I said I know thats why I said it. That wasn't the funny part. Then I followed up with "thats why they call it a number two".
Okay if you aren't laughing by now, then you don't have a sense of humor, but if you are laughing by now, thanks, send me a comment about it.
TTFN
Kris
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Play on words
So we were talking in the van on the way home when we heard a commercial on the radio that Dick's sporting goods was going to be coming to the Kentucky Oaks Mall. We started talking about it, like their great variety of disc there for disc golf, golf equipment and stuff like that. Towards the end of my conversation I said, "ya, I love dick's". Everyone in the van bursted out laughing. I made no attempt to try and rebuttal, just let it go.
Kris
Kris
Sunday, June 13, 2010
I think it is all going to come out at work
So I think it finally happened. I think it is all going to come out at work. I was walking through Walmart earlier today when I came across one of the new guys going up the cache register. I was kind of in a hurray, and didn't think about what I was wearing, you see I had my necklace on, and it was hanging wide out in the open. He said Hey main, I replied Hey, and just kept walking, he was on the phone and I was in a hurray. I got up to the register and saw him walk by a couple of times. I think I have been found out by one of the new guys. Instead of running interference and trying to get him to stay quiet I am going to see what happens. Its about time anyway.
Well I am sure I will have some more blogs in the near future, I will let you all know what is going on.
Kris
Well I am sure I will have some more blogs in the near future, I will let you all know what is going on.
Kris
Thursday, June 10, 2010
I found him
Remember back a few blogs ago I was talking about a guy at the gas station. Well turns out he still works there, but works the midnight shift. I started working under the casino boat this week, so on the way home I stopped at the gas station and there he was. I talked with him a little more, mostly about GIS stuff. He is trying to get a job in the same field as me.
Well I just wanted to give you all a quick update. Things are going well, I almost have the courage to send my parents the letter I have prepared to tell them.
Night everyone.
Kris
Well I just wanted to give you all a quick update. Things are going well, I almost have the courage to send my parents the letter I have prepared to tell them.
Night everyone.
Kris
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Long Lost Friends
So I touched base with an old friend today. After a little while of idle conversation I decided to tell him that I was GAY. He was really cool with it, and in fact said that he knew that one time he was going to have that conversation with me. He was right, I just wonder how many people actually knew before I was willing to take that big leap and come out of the closet. And really the next big step is to tell my parents, I really really need to tell them, but it is so hard to, when you don't know their reaction. Sometimes deep down I wish they would just ask me again, so I can be honest with them.
Well Good luck to all my readers, Hope that if any of my readers come out of the closet they can find the courage to tell their parents. And hope I get it myself too.
Kris
Well Good luck to all my readers, Hope that if any of my readers come out of the closet they can find the courage to tell their parents. And hope I get it myself too.
Kris
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Superman, or Clark Kent
I have found my inner superman. I spend all day at work as boring Kris, not the Kris everyone knows and loves, that Kris is long gone at work. I realized today that I use to play pranks on my bosses, joke around and having a good time. Its who I am, and really its my personality. But for some reason I have slipped into a blend within the company, but that all changes when I come home.
I didn't get home from work tonight till almost 9:30, tired, ready to go to bed, sit down on my computer and feel that something is missing. Oh yes, I know what it is, It is the big S on my chest. Okay Okay Okay, I don't have an S on my chest, but I got up put on my necklace and I feel like me again. Even though I am not going anywhere tonight and not going out, I just feel right with this necklace on. I wear it all the time now, it used to be a weekend thing but now it is a nightly thing. I where it everywhere I go when I am not at work.
I was at work, feeling like boring Clark Kent, reached up the scratch my neck, thought about my necklace and it brought a big smile to my face.
Well that is my inner superman story,
Does anyone else have an inner superman, something that reminds them to let go of your inhibitions and enjoy your life?
Well I hope you enjoyed, Leave some feedback let me know about your inner superman.
Kris
I didn't get home from work tonight till almost 9:30, tired, ready to go to bed, sit down on my computer and feel that something is missing. Oh yes, I know what it is, It is the big S on my chest. Okay Okay Okay, I don't have an S on my chest, but I got up put on my necklace and I feel like me again. Even though I am not going anywhere tonight and not going out, I just feel right with this necklace on. I wear it all the time now, it used to be a weekend thing but now it is a nightly thing. I where it everywhere I go when I am not at work.
I was at work, feeling like boring Clark Kent, reached up the scratch my neck, thought about my necklace and it brought a big smile to my face.
Well that is my inner superman story,
Does anyone else have an inner superman, something that reminds them to let go of your inhibitions and enjoy your life?
Well I hope you enjoyed, Leave some feedback let me know about your inner superman.
Kris
Monday, May 24, 2010
Another one on my list down.
Well I told another friend that I used to work with yesterday. He was cool with it, and although he really didn't know for sure, he always suspected. I am so happy to be on the way out, it just makes me feel more liberated and more confident in myself.
There is only one person right now in my life that is destroying my self confidence and I hope someday real soon to take care of that issue.
So today is a hard day for me though, One of my friends J. decided that he has had enough with the company I work for and decided to leave. He let me know of his plans early this morning, so needless to say, it has been a really hard day for me so far. I hate it when I take the time to develop a strong relationship, and they move. Although I don't blame them for moving, and every one of my friends have invited me along on their adventure, I just don't have to balls to do it.
Well I have to get back to work.
I hope the rest of you have a good day.
Kris
There is only one person right now in my life that is destroying my self confidence and I hope someday real soon to take care of that issue.
So today is a hard day for me though, One of my friends J. decided that he has had enough with the company I work for and decided to leave. He let me know of his plans early this morning, so needless to say, it has been a really hard day for me so far. I hate it when I take the time to develop a strong relationship, and they move. Although I don't blame them for moving, and every one of my friends have invited me along on their adventure, I just don't have to balls to do it.
Well I have to get back to work.
I hope the rest of you have a good day.
Kris
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Great Couple of Days
Well Friday night, I went to one of my friends house. Haven't spent a lot of time hanging out with him lately, and it was kind of nice. I wore my beloved pride necklace, which he thought looked good. So I had a good night Friday night and stayed up till about 3 in the morning. After a few hours crashing on the couch, I got up for a day of Geocaching.
I went Geocaching with another friend. M. I told M. that I was bi back a long time ago before I really decided to come out. My biggest contemplation of the morning was to wear the necklace or not. I decided to anyway. I wore a shirt with a fairly tight neck, so my plan was to keep the necklace under the shirt, and if it popped out during the day, well then it does. We got done with 10 long geocaches, and I realized my necklace was on the outside of my shirt. I don't know how long it was out, but M. didn't say anything. I am pretty sure he would have noticed though, so I guess I kind of told him without telling him.
Kris
I went Geocaching with another friend. M. I told M. that I was bi back a long time ago before I really decided to come out. My biggest contemplation of the morning was to wear the necklace or not. I decided to anyway. I wore a shirt with a fairly tight neck, so my plan was to keep the necklace under the shirt, and if it popped out during the day, well then it does. We got done with 10 long geocaches, and I realized my necklace was on the outside of my shirt. I don't know how long it was out, but M. didn't say anything. I am pretty sure he would have noticed though, so I guess I kind of told him without telling him.
Kris
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Update
I know its been a while since my last blog, so its time to update it.
Well since my last post I have started to wear my pride necklace around town, proudly showing it wherever I go. But the one person I wanted to see it, u know the guy I was talking about, all of a sudden isn't working up at the gas station anymore. Have know idea what happened to him. Oh well another cute one gone.
So in case any of you didn't know. There is a little town in Michigan called Saugatuck It is located on the west side of Michigan right on the lake. Well it is one of the top 10 gay tourist spots in the country. I think I am going to take a week vacation this summer and spend it up there and check it out for myself.
Oh, and I don't quite know how to take this, but someone at work said something about how gay I was, and C. one of my supervisors said, "he may be a fruit, but he is a nice guy." I think coming from him that is a compliment. LOL I think every one at works already has an idea, and I am sure everyone talks behind my back, but the funny thing is, between all the guys there, no one has enough balls to come up to me and ask. LOL
O well.
That is my update I hope you enjoy.
Well since my last post I have started to wear my pride necklace around town, proudly showing it wherever I go. But the one person I wanted to see it, u know the guy I was talking about, all of a sudden isn't working up at the gas station anymore. Have know idea what happened to him. Oh well another cute one gone.
So in case any of you didn't know. There is a little town in Michigan called Saugatuck It is located on the west side of Michigan right on the lake. Well it is one of the top 10 gay tourist spots in the country. I think I am going to take a week vacation this summer and spend it up there and check it out for myself.
Oh, and I don't quite know how to take this, but someone at work said something about how gay I was, and C. one of my supervisors said, "he may be a fruit, but he is a nice guy." I think coming from him that is a compliment. LOL I think every one at works already has an idea, and I am sure everyone talks behind my back, but the funny thing is, between all the guys there, no one has enough balls to come up to me and ask. LOL
O well.
That is my update I hope you enjoy.
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Is he gay?
Well there is this guy.
I know now everyone who knows me can stop screeching now, and continue reading.
For the past few months there is this guy that right now works up at the gas station. He is always working every night after I get out of work, so I make it a point to stop buy and buy a couple pops, just so I can see him again. He seams to have a good personality, and through idle conversations over the last few months I found out that he has a degree in geology. So on top of being cute, Oh, i forgot to mention that, he is smart. I get this vibe from him when I ma in there, but I am not 100% sure, and wouldn't want to make a pass on him if he wasn't. I have considered slapping on my pride necklace and seeing what happened.
Anyone know a good way to tell for sure so I don't make a complete fool of myself, and have to switch gas stations.
Kris
I know now everyone who knows me can stop screeching now, and continue reading.
For the past few months there is this guy that right now works up at the gas station. He is always working every night after I get out of work, so I make it a point to stop buy and buy a couple pops, just so I can see him again. He seams to have a good personality, and through idle conversations over the last few months I found out that he has a degree in geology. So on top of being cute, Oh, i forgot to mention that, he is smart. I get this vibe from him when I ma in there, but I am not 100% sure, and wouldn't want to make a pass on him if he wasn't. I have considered slapping on my pride necklace and seeing what happened.
Anyone know a good way to tell for sure so I don't make a complete fool of myself, and have to switch gas stations.
Kris
Okay,
I know I haven't posted in a while. Well to tell you the truth there hasn't been a whole lot going on in my life lately. I am feeling like I am just idling by. My apartment is a mess. I know its bad and really needs to be cleaned but I really don't want to put forth the effort to do anything about it. I used to be really into cars, but for some reason I have started to lose the desire to work on my car. Its not because I don't have time or don't like cars anymore, I just don't feel like doing anything when I get home from work. Sometimes I feel like work is draining the life out of me.
Sorry for the babbling I just needed to get this off my chest. I know this has nothing to do with me being in the closet or coming out, or gay, or anything like that.
Well my next post will be better, I promise.
I know I haven't posted in a while. Well to tell you the truth there hasn't been a whole lot going on in my life lately. I am feeling like I am just idling by. My apartment is a mess. I know its bad and really needs to be cleaned but I really don't want to put forth the effort to do anything about it. I used to be really into cars, but for some reason I have started to lose the desire to work on my car. Its not because I don't have time or don't like cars anymore, I just don't feel like doing anything when I get home from work. Sometimes I feel like work is draining the life out of me.
Sorry for the babbling I just needed to get this off my chest. I know this has nothing to do with me being in the closet or coming out, or gay, or anything like that.
Well my next post will be better, I promise.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
incomplete
So last week I ordered some pride jewellery. I ordered a necklace and a bracelet. I got those in just before the weekend. As soon as I was done with work for the week, I pulled them out of my glove box and put them on with pride. I wore it all weekend, everywhere I went, and proudly showed the colors around my neck.
I had no negative reactions, and in fact I felt more empowered per say. I was out of my shell telling the whole world... okay maybe all of spring hill that I was gay and I was proud of it.
Well when I got back into town Monday morning, I had to put my new pride gear away in the glove box. It is anticipating coming out and playing, calling me from the glove box. "Just put me on! its okay". I wish I had it in me to wear it around town, with the possibility of running into someone at work. Maybe some day soon. In face I live in a town of 15000 people, and there are only two people other than me that live inside the city of Murray, so really the odds of running into someone from work is only like 1 in 7500 right.
Well that is all I wanted to say tonight.
Leave me some feed back and let me know what you think.
Kris
I had no negative reactions, and in fact I felt more empowered per say. I was out of my shell telling the whole world... okay maybe all of spring hill that I was gay and I was proud of it.
Well when I got back into town Monday morning, I had to put my new pride gear away in the glove box. It is anticipating coming out and playing, calling me from the glove box. "Just put me on! its okay". I wish I had it in me to wear it around town, with the possibility of running into someone at work. Maybe some day soon. In face I live in a town of 15000 people, and there are only two people other than me that live inside the city of Murray, so really the odds of running into someone from work is only like 1 in 7500 right.
Well that is all I wanted to say tonight.
Leave me some feed back and let me know what you think.
Kris
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Who let the gay out?
So today was one of those days where I just wanted to tell the whole world that I was gay. Still haven't done it, but I am almost ready to just make that facebook post. LOL isn't it funny how facebook has been the key to informing the world of who you are and how you feel. Oh well, someday maybee.
I ordered today a very nice looking pride necklace, it is silver and it has the rainbow beads built into it. The other thing I ordered is one of those rubber bracelets that are really popular right now. I myself wear them all the time, and feel naked when i don't have one on. Well yesterday it broke on my, so it is time to get a new one. This one is a pride one.
Although I am excited to get them in, and I will wear them with pride, however I can't wear them to work yet. I am not out yet at work hardly at all, so until I a ready for the shock factor, the jewellery will stay on my computer desk till the weekend when I bring it out, and be myself again.
Well I hope u all have a good night.
Kris
I ordered today a very nice looking pride necklace, it is silver and it has the rainbow beads built into it. The other thing I ordered is one of those rubber bracelets that are really popular right now. I myself wear them all the time, and feel naked when i don't have one on. Well yesterday it broke on my, so it is time to get a new one. This one is a pride one.
Although I am excited to get them in, and I will wear them with pride, however I can't wear them to work yet. I am not out yet at work hardly at all, so until I a ready for the shock factor, the jewellery will stay on my computer desk till the weekend when I bring it out, and be myself again.
Well I hope u all have a good night.
Kris
Friday, April 16, 2010
Unicorns
Okay if you are reading this then you probably haven't read the one I posted just before this. Another subject came up that I wanted to talk about, so despite that fact that I have to get up in less than 6 hours to go to work, I am going to write another blog.
I saw another article, let me tell you I saw this guy first that was associated with the blog. I guess this hot muscular built guy was dressed up to look like a unicorn. Oh My Gosh, it was fabulous. I guess he was doing something or other with Lady GaGa for a show, but WOW.
So anyway, I will get to the point of what I just said in a sec, but starting this weekend is the beginning of Gay Pride season. The first big event is this Saturday in Miami, FL, Wish I could be there, I guess if any one of my readers has some extra plane tickets laying around to Miami for this weekend, let me know. LOL
So my point with this whole posting is the unicorn outfit. Wow if rainbows weren't already great, now we are adding unicorns in the mix. OKay, well this article was talking about seeing a theme of unicorns this year in the Pride Parades. Sounds like fun, and I intend on going to my first parade this year.
Have fun, and keep the Unicorns coming.
Kris
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Don't act so straight.
Okay, I know a few of you out there have been expecting this blog from me. Since I kind of promised it to some and haven't produced it yet. Although I am not sure it will be posted before midnight, so technically I didn't get it out when I promised that, so for that I am sorry.
Okay as I mentioned to a few of you this was going to be a semi serious topic. I was reading this article online the other day about discrimination and peoples attitudes. And before you start hating the homophobes out there, it isn't them. It is the Homo's out there that are self discriminating on people of the same orientation. Here's the deal. I guess there are some in the closet or discrete gay people out there that turn there noses to those that are out and extreme. You know who I am talking about. The Flamers, the Queens, the Kings, ect... Well that is where I thought other gay people had a hand up. Us gays are suppose to have a hand up in the discrimination aspect. We don't look at a straight couple, and insult them behind their back. We have all been bread as that being normal. Then when we find out we are not normal (which is totally awesome) we shouldn't discriminate against people that have the same feelings. This helps us break through the stereotypes not just with gays and straights but with all aspects of discrimination. We are gay, open, free and of course the reason they call us gay is we are always happy. LOL, well we try to be.
Okay I have had enough serious talk. I for the most part am a fairly masculine man that can with a little self control fit into a straight stereotype, but really their has to be a contrast. Without a contrast there would be no interest. I myself get a lot of pleasure at listening to a flamboyant person, or a drag queen. OMG I really like watching stuff with drag queens in it, they are so fascinating and so interesting, and hopefully I don't offend any one, but they make me laugh. I get happy and enjoy who I am.
I have another topic but I will save it for another blog.
Kris
Okay as I mentioned to a few of you this was going to be a semi serious topic. I was reading this article online the other day about discrimination and peoples attitudes. And before you start hating the homophobes out there, it isn't them. It is the Homo's out there that are self discriminating on people of the same orientation. Here's the deal. I guess there are some in the closet or discrete gay people out there that turn there noses to those that are out and extreme. You know who I am talking about. The Flamers, the Queens, the Kings, ect... Well that is where I thought other gay people had a hand up. Us gays are suppose to have a hand up in the discrimination aspect. We don't look at a straight couple, and insult them behind their back. We have all been bread as that being normal. Then when we find out we are not normal (which is totally awesome) we shouldn't discriminate against people that have the same feelings. This helps us break through the stereotypes not just with gays and straights but with all aspects of discrimination. We are gay, open, free and of course the reason they call us gay is we are always happy. LOL, well we try to be.
Okay I have had enough serious talk. I for the most part am a fairly masculine man that can with a little self control fit into a straight stereotype, but really their has to be a contrast. Without a contrast there would be no interest. I myself get a lot of pleasure at listening to a flamboyant person, or a drag queen. OMG I really like watching stuff with drag queens in it, they are so fascinating and so interesting, and hopefully I don't offend any one, but they make me laugh. I get happy and enjoy who I am.
I have another topic but I will save it for another blog.
Kris
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
I needed a beer
Well after a day like today I can really appreciate my friends and family. Work was going great until I walked into the door this morning. LOL. but that really is a story for my friends, and not really for a public forum that anyone, including my employer can read. But when I got out of work it was all about me time. If you all are reading this in a cold climate, then you might want to stop now.
The weather down here right now is just plain awesome. I got out of work, it was really warm out, but I needed to blow off some steam so I went to the bowling alley. After I got out, I decided to go to subway get a sandwich for this evening, and while waiting in line I was thinking that a nice cold beer would hit the spot. Anyone who knows me knows that I don't usually drink beer. I didn't want to go to the bar and drink, not a lot of fun alone. So I decided that I was going to drive to Tennessee and get some beer, since I can't get it in this county. The whole bible belt dry county thing.
I got home and one of my many sister in laws was on, So I got to talking to her, I am so glad I told her I was gay, so I can talk about it anytime with her. She just loves to talk, and I love talking to her. Especially since she is not shy, and will come out with whatever is on her mind. Sometimes I think she thinks she is going too far with some of her questions and stuff, but I really like it, and I really like to talk about my sexuality.
Well I am out of here for tonight, going to finish my beer, watch phidous and ferb and enjoy the rest of my evening.
Kris
P.S. If you see a red car driving around town with an R in the window, give me a toot, wave, or blow me a kiss. I might get as red as my car.
The weather down here right now is just plain awesome. I got out of work, it was really warm out, but I needed to blow off some steam so I went to the bowling alley. After I got out, I decided to go to subway get a sandwich for this evening, and while waiting in line I was thinking that a nice cold beer would hit the spot. Anyone who knows me knows that I don't usually drink beer. I didn't want to go to the bar and drink, not a lot of fun alone. So I decided that I was going to drive to Tennessee and get some beer, since I can't get it in this county. The whole bible belt dry county thing.
I got home and one of my many sister in laws was on, So I got to talking to her, I am so glad I told her I was gay, so I can talk about it anytime with her. She just loves to talk, and I love talking to her. Especially since she is not shy, and will come out with whatever is on her mind. Sometimes I think she thinks she is going too far with some of her questions and stuff, but I really like it, and I really like to talk about my sexuality.
Well I am out of here for tonight, going to finish my beer, watch phidous and ferb and enjoy the rest of my evening.
Kris
P.S. If you see a red car driving around town with an R in the window, give me a toot, wave, or blow me a kiss. I might get as red as my car.
Monday, April 12, 2010
Another friend in the loop
Well the other day I was doing laundry at the laundry mat. What an absent minded person I am, I washed my backpack, but completely forgot all about it until the next day. I went back and it was still there, I was pretty happy. :-) So anyway while I was at the laundry mat I was talking to one of my friends that I pretty much grew up with. To protect the Innocence of the non-gay folk, u know who you are. i will call him "D". Well D took it very well. All I got from him was, OKAY, and I will still be your friend. That is so freaking awesome. I should have done this a long time ago, but a little advice for someone not out yet. Wait till you are ready, trust me people seam more likely to accept you for who you are, if you are confident in who you are, yourself.
Well,
I will let you go,
Kris
P.S. I hope everyone has rainbow wishes and unicorn dreams. LOL, thats right I just made that up.
Well,
I will let you go,
Kris
P.S. I hope everyone has rainbow wishes and unicorn dreams. LOL, thats right I just made that up.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
back in High School
I think I have been acting gay for longer then I really remembered. I remember when I started in High School I ran the lighting and sound booth for all the plays and musicals. I really enjoyed this kind of stuff, but I remember one day it was after school got out for the day, there was about an hour or two gap until the play was going to start rehearsal. I was in the projection room getting stuff set up when I came across an old tape. I threw it in the tape player to listen to it. It was a techno remix of some classical music. Well I guess the music got my creative side going. I turned the auditorium lights down blasted the music on the auditorium speakers, and started playing with the stage lights, dancing the lights to the music. I got an awesome setup on stage, and couldn’t resist. I went down to the stage and started spinning and dancing to the music in the beautifully lit stage. After about 10 min. one of the faculty members came in. She was just curious what was going on in the auditorium, so I just explained that I was just killing time until rehearsal started.
Looking back on that day, I just have to laugh.
I hope you enjoyed this little look back into my past. Many, many moons ago
Kris
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Interesting Day
Wow, today I was put in a really interesting position. Our hotel that we are staying at is right across the street from a titty bar. My room mate wanted to take me over to it. I told him that I have never been to one before and am not interested in going. Well the subject was not really dropped all day, and the subject on the boat got to dealing with sex, pussy, and boobs. I like normal was real quiet why the others went back in forth sharing stories and stuff. After a while T. as we will call him in this story to protect the straight, lol. He mentioned that I was being really quiet and asked me if I liked pussy. After a moment of silence and anxiety from them awaiting my answer, I looked at T and told him that I have had enough experience to form my own opinion. He asked what my opinion was. I responded EWWWWWWW. For the most part they just laughed it off, but suddenly the subject went to talking about gays. I just sat backed and listened to the conversation, just as quiet as before about the subject. Eventually conversation got back to normal and the rest of the day went on without any problems.
After work tonight, again the titty bar issue came up. We got out of work early so I went and did a couple of geocaches, my room mate B. decided to go with me. He kept going on about the titty bar, and about sex, and when the last time I had sex was, and do I know what this position or style is. Finally I told him that I am happy with the way I am.
That was the last that was said.
I am so wanting to tell him the truth, and maybe even T. I know though that if I tell T. it will get back to the owner of the company and it might cause some other issues with peoples comfort level with me being around them on the boat and sharing a hotel room and stuff. So I think for now, I will try and avoid the subject as much as possible with work people. I just can't afford right now to have issues like this at work.
As always I am looking forward to comments, feedback, and advice. Please take the time to let me know that you have read my blog.
Kris
After work tonight, again the titty bar issue came up. We got out of work early so I went and did a couple of geocaches, my room mate B. decided to go with me. He kept going on about the titty bar, and about sex, and when the last time I had sex was, and do I know what this position or style is. Finally I told him that I am happy with the way I am.
That was the last that was said.
I am so wanting to tell him the truth, and maybe even T. I know though that if I tell T. it will get back to the owner of the company and it might cause some other issues with peoples comfort level with me being around them on the boat and sharing a hotel room and stuff. So I think for now, I will try and avoid the subject as much as possible with work people. I just can't afford right now to have issues like this at work.
As always I am looking forward to comments, feedback, and advice. Please take the time to let me know that you have read my blog.
Kris
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Okay one step closer.
Well, I new my brother was going to tell his wife, and I waited impatiently for her to get onto Facebook to discuss it with her. She pretty much took it the same way my brother did. She wasn't surprised, and said it was cool.
I am happy she took it that well, I almost had to tell her the other day before I said anything to my brother because she was trying to set me up with one of the girls at her work. Luckily she didn't push it that hard, and I was able to skate around it until I was ready to tell her the truth.
Now that she knows I am sure she is going to try and set me up again, but with men now. I think she has pretty good taste, so you never know.
All is still well, nothing bad yet has come of my coming out experience.
Kris
I am happy she took it that well, I almost had to tell her the other day before I said anything to my brother because she was trying to set me up with one of the girls at her work. Luckily she didn't push it that hard, and I was able to skate around it until I was ready to tell her the truth.
Now that she knows I am sure she is going to try and set me up again, but with men now. I think she has pretty good taste, so you never know.
All is still well, nothing bad yet has come of my coming out experience.
Kris
Saturday, March 27, 2010
I told my older brother
Well I was talking to my brother on the phone today, he was driving through the mountains in Wyoming so he was in and out of signal. I lost his signal for a moment and so out of fun I shouted out, "I am gay". My cousin looked at me and we started laughing. He didn't hear me, but while I was waiting for him to call me back I was talking to my cousin. Turns out he already voiced his theory with my cousin long before I told my cousin. So when he called me back I told him.
He was cool with it, I am glad. I am glad that I am starting to come out to family, however he warned me that if I let my younger brother and his wife know, it will most certainly get back to my parents. I think the correct order in this case is to tell my parents first, then tell my younger brother. I think he already knows, but has not ever said anything due to lack of confirmation.
Well all is well, another person on my checklist of people to tell, and still no negative experience. Tomorrow my brother is going to tell his wife, so I am sure that I am going to get a call or a text tomorrow.
Kris
He was cool with it, I am glad. I am glad that I am starting to come out to family, however he warned me that if I let my younger brother and his wife know, it will most certainly get back to my parents. I think the correct order in this case is to tell my parents first, then tell my younger brother. I think he already knows, but has not ever said anything due to lack of confirmation.
Well all is well, another person on my checklist of people to tell, and still no negative experience. Tomorrow my brother is going to tell his wife, so I am sure that I am going to get a call or a text tomorrow.
Kris
Friday, March 19, 2010
Side Note for "Why won't they just ask?"
After reading the last post I realized that it sounded like I had some anger built up. So not the case. I just wanted to let everyone know that most gay guys, even extremely in the closet men, speaking from experience, really want to tell people. They are just not offered the venue in which to do so.
Stop repressing your true feelings, turn on that rainbow bright light and shine for the whole world to see.
Kris
Stop repressing your true feelings, turn on that rainbow bright light and shine for the whole world to see.
Kris
Why don't they just ask?
You know, I work with a bunch of guys at work, and almost every one of them makes jokes and comments all the time about me being gay. That is great, for the most part I really enjoy it. What i don't know, is what they are talking about behind my back. For those of you that don't work in a semi-tight nit work environment, the gossip is horrible.
I know that most of the people at my company think I am gay. But does anyone know how many of them have actually came up to me and asked? That's right, NONE. None, not a single person. I don't pretend to act any different then I normally am, but some times I think I work for a bunch of chickens, that are so affraid of knowing the truth that they mask it with jokes and gossip.
Okay I am laying this out there to anyone who runs across this post. From the mind of a gay guy. If you suspect that a co-worker is gay, and you are really interested in knowing, ASK! Ask me, I will tell you. If you don't ask me you won't know for sure.
I have made it a personal policy this year, kind of a New Years resolution if you will, that if someone in a semi private setting came up to me and asked, I would tell them the truth.
I will leave you all at that, and remember if you have a question ask. It is stupid and reckless to assume.
Kris
I know that most of the people at my company think I am gay. But does anyone know how many of them have actually came up to me and asked? That's right, NONE. None, not a single person. I don't pretend to act any different then I normally am, but some times I think I work for a bunch of chickens, that are so affraid of knowing the truth that they mask it with jokes and gossip.
Okay I am laying this out there to anyone who runs across this post. From the mind of a gay guy. If you suspect that a co-worker is gay, and you are really interested in knowing, ASK! Ask me, I will tell you. If you don't ask me you won't know for sure.
I have made it a personal policy this year, kind of a New Years resolution if you will, that if someone in a semi private setting came up to me and asked, I would tell them the truth.
I will leave you all at that, and remember if you have a question ask. It is stupid and reckless to assume.
Kris
Sunday, March 14, 2010
Big Day Yesterday
Yesterday was one of the hardest persons to come out to so far. Not only because he is also one of my good friends, but also because I work with him. In the business I am in, I don't know how far being gay will take me.
So the other day at work he pretty much came up to me and told me it would be okay with him if I told him I was gay. So the next day I did. It went really well. I have not had a bad experience telling anyone so far, and hope it continues. I seem to only get myself involved with fairly open minded people, which really is a blessing.
I want to send a thanks out to my friend for understanding so well, may things not change between us. I don't think anything will change considering before he suspected I was Gay and now it is just confirmed.
I hope to be telling my family in the near future. Stay tuned to how that is going to go.
Kris
So the other day at work he pretty much came up to me and told me it would be okay with him if I told him I was gay. So the next day I did. It went really well. I have not had a bad experience telling anyone so far, and hope it continues. I seem to only get myself involved with fairly open minded people, which really is a blessing.
I want to send a thanks out to my friend for understanding so well, may things not change between us. I don't think anything will change considering before he suspected I was Gay and now it is just confirmed.
I hope to be telling my family in the near future. Stay tuned to how that is going to go.
Kris
Monday, March 8, 2010
What a reaction
Wow what a reaction.
So I went to the Skillet and Toby Mac concert last night, boy was that fun. I bought this really cool T-Shirt, on the top of it says Skillet in a shiny print, and to top it off I got this awesome colorfull sweat shirt. I walked in and one of the guys blurted out, mind you that there was about 15 guys standing around, OMG you really are gay.
I laughed as hard as everyone else does, and I said "you like my new sweater".
LOL it was great. I really need to just come fully out to everyone, The guys at work will be so wigged out I probably would enjoy it. LOL
Okay,
Thanks again for reading my blog
Kris.
So I went to the Skillet and Toby Mac concert last night, boy was that fun. I bought this really cool T-Shirt, on the top of it says Skillet in a shiny print, and to top it off I got this awesome colorfull sweat shirt. I walked in and one of the guys blurted out, mind you that there was about 15 guys standing around, OMG you really are gay.
I laughed as hard as everyone else does, and I said "you like my new sweater".
LOL it was great. I really need to just come fully out to everyone, The guys at work will be so wigged out I probably would enjoy it. LOL
Okay,
Thanks again for reading my blog
Kris.
Saturday, March 6, 2010
I am back,
So the other day I was talking to someone, and really off the top of my head I can't remember who. But we were talking about the Iron Man Movie. I told him that I didn't really want to watch the movie, but I went with some friends that were really into Marvel stuff. So we are talking about the movie and he blurted out, you just liked it for the shots of the blue guys junk. I just laughed and smiled, anyone could of seen right through me.
But let me pose a question. How many other people were anticipating and hoping for a better shot of the blue guy in the movie?
Please leave your feed back and let me know.
So the other day I was talking to someone, and really off the top of my head I can't remember who. But we were talking about the Iron Man Movie. I told him that I didn't really want to watch the movie, but I went with some friends that were really into Marvel stuff. So we are talking about the movie and he blurted out, you just liked it for the shots of the blue guys junk. I just laughed and smiled, anyone could of seen right through me.
But let me pose a question. How many other people were anticipating and hoping for a better shot of the blue guy in the movie?
Please leave your feed back and let me know.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Another friends girlfriend has me pegged.
So I was talking to another friend at lunch today, He told me that when his girlfriend met me at the Christmas party, she thought I was gay. I just laughed it off and said "oh really".
This brings me to a question that maybe someone else reading this could help me out with. If in the last couple of weeks, two separate friends have come up to me with a statement that their wife/girlfriend thinks I am gay, but not asking the question themselves directly to me. Do you think it is their way of trying to ask me if I am gay?
Please respond and let me know what you think.
This brings me to a question that maybe someone else reading this could help me out with. If in the last couple of weeks, two separate friends have come up to me with a statement that their wife/girlfriend thinks I am gay, but not asking the question themselves directly to me. Do you think it is their way of trying to ask me if I am gay?
Please respond and let me know what you think.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
My friends wife knows
Well, I went to lunch with my friend B. we were talking, during lunch. He was telling me that his wife thinks I am queer. I laughed, and asked why that was. He said his wife heard the message I left him on my birthday to invite him to dinner. The message went as follows; "B I would like to cor-dually invite you to dinner at Tumbleweeds tonight." I guess the way I said it it was really soft spoken. She asked B who it was and he told her it was the guy you met at McDonalds the other day. She said, "you mean the one that was so soft spoken" He said yes, and he likes wine. I guess she said something like he must be queer. B was doing his best to defend me by saying something about having all these women falling all over me. LOL.
After he told me this I looked at him and said, its not the first time someone has called me queer and it won't be the last time. That was that, I think he was uncomfortable talking about it, and changed the subject. I think he is going to be the next person I tell, if for no other reason then to make his wife appear right. LOL.
Well that is it for today, I will keep up on this blog as more adventures unfold with one foot out of the closet.
After he told me this I looked at him and said, its not the first time someone has called me queer and it won't be the last time. That was that, I think he was uncomfortable talking about it, and changed the subject. I think he is going to be the next person I tell, if for no other reason then to make his wife appear right. LOL.
Well that is it for today, I will keep up on this blog as more adventures unfold with one foot out of the closet.
My birthday
Wow, I am getting old. Well for my birthday one of my good friends decided to take me out and drink. I haven't had a good time hanging out with him in a very long time, ever since he got a girl friend outside of town. No big deal.
So we were sitting down on the bench seats waiting to be seated, being a small town the restaurants are really busy on Friday nights considering the lack of choices in this town. I am sitting there, listening to the conversation going on between my friends when J (we will just use initials for his sake) looked at me and said, "Whats on your mind?" I snapped out of my daze and said "noting". He asked me if I had finally found my Ted. I laughed, as I looked at him and said, you know the joke right.
Let me explain the joke. I was hanging out with a friend who no longer lives around here, but we were watching family guy. One of the skits, Bryan was singing "I know some day you are going to meet some body, who's pretty and funny, and his name is Ted". It was so funny, so that became a running joke between my group of friends at work.
I just laughed it off and we continued the conversation. I so wanted to tell him that I haven't found him yet. The rest of the night is kind of a blur after my fish bowl margarita and quite a few glasses of wine.
When I got home, one of my friends walked me up the steps and made sure I got into my apartment okay. When I got in, he started going through my DVD collection, he wanted to borrow a couple for the weekend to watch. I don't have a problem lending my dvds out to people I know are going to return them, especially my Pierce Brasnen movies. He then said something about borrowing some of my porn. I laughed and said, "you wouldn't like my porn". Wow last time I open my mouth drunk I thought after I said that, but nothing has been said about that. I think he has a good idea.
Well Bloggers, I hope I didn't bore you too much. If you don't like it leave me feedback. let me know.
So we were sitting down on the bench seats waiting to be seated, being a small town the restaurants are really busy on Friday nights considering the lack of choices in this town. I am sitting there, listening to the conversation going on between my friends when J (we will just use initials for his sake) looked at me and said, "Whats on your mind?" I snapped out of my daze and said "noting". He asked me if I had finally found my Ted. I laughed, as I looked at him and said, you know the joke right.
Let me explain the joke. I was hanging out with a friend who no longer lives around here, but we were watching family guy. One of the skits, Bryan was singing "I know some day you are going to meet some body, who's pretty and funny, and his name is Ted". It was so funny, so that became a running joke between my group of friends at work.
I just laughed it off and we continued the conversation. I so wanted to tell him that I haven't found him yet. The rest of the night is kind of a blur after my fish bowl margarita and quite a few glasses of wine.
When I got home, one of my friends walked me up the steps and made sure I got into my apartment okay. When I got in, he started going through my DVD collection, he wanted to borrow a couple for the weekend to watch. I don't have a problem lending my dvds out to people I know are going to return them, especially my Pierce Brasnen movies. He then said something about borrowing some of my porn. I laughed and said, "you wouldn't like my porn". Wow last time I open my mouth drunk I thought after I said that, but nothing has been said about that. I think he has a good idea.
Well Bloggers, I hope I didn't bore you too much. If you don't like it leave me feedback. let me know.
First Blog
Hello Bloggers,
As my first blog, I just wanted to introduce myself. I am a 33 year old Commercial Diver, living in a small town in Western Kentucky. I am into scuba diving, geocaching, bowling, disc golf, golf, and a whole lot more.
This blog is going to be dedicated to my adventures and journey as I start to come out of the closet. So far so good. Everyone I have told have been real supportive of me, and my relationships with those people have only gotten better.
I don't want people I tell to say okay, good for you, and kind of skate around it and never talk about it. I love who I am and I have no problems talking to anyone about myself.
Well there it is my first blog. Hope you enjoyed, and I hope you will come back and continue to share my adventure with me.
As my first blog, I just wanted to introduce myself. I am a 33 year old Commercial Diver, living in a small town in Western Kentucky. I am into scuba diving, geocaching, bowling, disc golf, golf, and a whole lot more.
This blog is going to be dedicated to my adventures and journey as I start to come out of the closet. So far so good. Everyone I have told have been real supportive of me, and my relationships with those people have only gotten better.
I don't want people I tell to say okay, good for you, and kind of skate around it and never talk about it. I love who I am and I have no problems talking to anyone about myself.
Well there it is my first blog. Hope you enjoyed, and I hope you will come back and continue to share my adventure with me.
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