Call for religion

Okay before I get into my topic for tonight, I wanted to let you all know about how my relationship is going.  Charlie is the love of my life.  I can say that with 100% confidence.  If anyone knows me, they know I don't throw that word around, and very few people outside of my immediate family have ever hear that from.  But I see charlie as a member of my immediate family.  He is the nicest kindest, and most gentle person I have ever been around.  I love to lay in bed and listen to him snore or cuddle my arms around him and fall asleep to his sweet serenade.  I have been away from him for a week now, and am missing him more and more with each passing minute.  I am on the way home now, and can't wait to see him again.

Okay that is enough mush for now.  I need to talk about a serious topic tonight. 

The topic of religion has come up again in the truck ride home.  Instead of bursting out with my opinion, i opted to sit back and listen to the banter of a couple of guys go back and forth about their believes.  I have pretty to much come to the conclusion that I am lost in my religion right now.  I have always been brought up as a christian,  first as Presbyterian, then as Methodist.  I will admit there are things I understand and don't understand from both perspectives.  But I am not sure what shoe box of a religion I fit in....if any.  

I have some core believes,  I believe in "God" or a higher power than us.  I believe in Jesus, the son of God. I understand his purpose and that he has died, paying the ultimate price for our sins.  I believe that there is more to life than that of our physical being.  I don't know if I believe that our souls resign in heaven/hell for the rest of eternity, or if we come back in another physical form to do it all over again.

I have had a crazy thought when I was younger that; maybe we are given a body to live and learn about Christ and to earn our way into Heaven to live eternally as a freed spirit,  free of the stresses of every day life, free of wondering what you have to do to make sure that you can always put food on the table.  But if for some reason you lived a great life, had all the fun you wanted.  followed your own rules, damn the consequences.  That life choice would win you another trip back to the beginning of life to do it again and see if you can get it right the second...third....5,000th time.

I don't really know where I am with my faith, but I am willing to hear people out.  I guess I am on a spiritual quest and looking for guidance.  

I welcome a Facebook discussion on this one.

Kris

The love of my life

Hello again bloggers.

Sorry it has been so long since I have made a post, it has been a busy life for me lately.

Charlie,  He is the good in my life....in fact he is the great in my life.  For everyone that has ever known me and for those that have ever dated me, Male of Female, you all know that I do not through the "L" word around at all.  I will only ever say it to someone that I really feel that way about.   Well after many years of being alone, I am no more.  Charlie is so wonderful and he is the one that I have given the love word to.  I love him so much and can't image how my life was so fulfilled without him.

He is only a few years younger than me.  He is very straight forward and honest about his feelings, likes and dislikes.  And to top it off he loves me too.  He is the greatest.  He loves my dog, and has two wonderful dogs of his own.  Of course if you ask him, his dogs are rotten, but they are not to me.

He has nick named my little apartment as the Tree House, so most of the time we spend together is at his place.

As far as everything else, it is going great.  My photography is going really really well,  I just won an award on Pixoto.com tonight for the top 10% for the year.  I got a raise at work, and soon I will be looking at a house to settle into.

Well I will let you go for now.  I hope you enjoy my blog.  I will try and keep my blog more current.

Kris

I am no longer single (Sorry Guys)

Dear Bloggers,

I have found someone special.  It was kinda cool how I met him.  When I first saw him it was on one of my gay single websites.  I thought his profile looked interesting, and I thought he was a very cute guy, so I decided to send him a message to say hi.  Shortly that day after sending him a message, I happen to stop by the store where he works.  I told my friend that I think that this is the guy I was just messaging on the internet.  She agreed that he was pretty cute.

A couple months later I finally got that reply from the message I sent him.  I almost forgot about me sending him a message until he sent me a message back.  We started talking, exchanged numbers, talked more, and we had our first date on November 19th.  He is the most precious guy,  he totally understands my work schedule and instead of regretting the time that we are apart, he totally appreciates the time that we have together.

I just had a discussion with him tonight telling him that he is the one that I have been waiting for the fill the voids in my life.  He does change me, he compliments who I am.  I am totally in love with him, and love every moment that we have together.

He has two wonderful dogs, which is great, because he likes my dog as well.  Zoi took a little time getting used to him, but has since softened up and seams to be building a good re pore with each other.

I have found someone that makes me happy and makes me feel good about myself all the time.  Thank you Charlie for being that special someone in my life.

I hope you enjoyed my blog, and there will be more to come as we develop our relationship to the awesome possibilities that they can be.

Kris

Some men are jerks

So, this last couple of weeks has been pretty active for me (relationship wise).  I have been actively looking on the internet, talking to friends, talking to friends of friends, basically trying to put myself out there as much as I can.  In the process I have talked to a lot of different types of guys.  Appearance aside, because anyone that knows me knows that that is not a deciding factor for me.  Most of the guys I just have a casual hi, like your profile... and on like that, then there are the really wonderful guys that the more you talk to the more you want to talk to them.  The guy I am talking about lives a far distance from me, but still hasn't detoured me from at least saying hi to him as much as I can.  We have been talking back and forth for the last couple of weeks, even though we were introduced before that.  I guess that's what happens when a couple of shy guys try and talk to each other.  It is way to early to say I have any feelings for him, but I do at least want to keep him around long enough that I hope to develop feelings for him.  I know I just said that he is far away, and that looks don't matter, but in reality he is far away, and for the record he is cute as a button.  I am loving the conversation time I am having with him, and I hope that the couple times a year that I will be in his area we can at least talk face to face.

Now I know, this is all gushy and stuff, but that is the nature of this particular post.  I know that the post is titled men are jerks.  That is what I am getting to know.  Okay so the other side of what I was talking about from above.  I have been talking  to a lot of other guys is the past few weeks, pretty much keeping my gay.com account open and active so people can message me.  I know lame, "that's putting yourself out there", but it is what it is.  I am the kind of person that will answer any post.  Well have been talking on and off to others, and some of them are nice, true guys, others are not.  I am not the kind of person to tell someone straight out that I am not interested in them (Fault).  I had an example of a jerk today.  He was talking to me, but his profile was really vague, so I started some small talk to get to know a little bit about him.  He was really short with his answer, and begged that I call him.  Kept going on and on about how horny he was, BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH.  So I finally got sick of it, thought I was going to have a decent conversation over lunch, instead I get this.  I finally had enough of it.  The following is what I sent to him, forgive the grammar it was on the cell phone,
"Sorry I not available to help u with that situation.  I understand that you don't seam to be into small talk.  And all you seam to want is a good wank.  That is not me.  So I won't waste anymore of your time.  Good day." 
Coincidentally that was the last I herd of him for the day.

For all the guys out there that are talking to me for a quick wank,  STOP now.  I have had enough of it.  I want to get to know you first.  I am a true believer that a relationship built on friendship is more likely to last than a relationship built on sex.

Kris

Hello bloggers.  Got a discussion topic for you all tonight.

So, some of you know that I have been in nowhere WV for just over a week now.  It has been great knowing that I am finally making more than my typical salary during this job.  It will help out greatly for a project I am working on involving a V8 in my Miata.  But that is not the real topic of discussion for tonight, more of a side note, and a little background for the discussion.

Yesterday we had a day off.  We did some shopping around and I did some geocaching, pretty much taking whatever opportunity we had to enjoy the little time we have had off in the past week.  When i got back to the hotel yesterday evening there was a new night manager at the front desk.  I didn't think much of it at first, but when i went to do laundry I had to get some change.  I got up to the desk and noticed his pride bracelet, along with pride ring on his finger.  I was happy to see someone else wearing one of the bracelets.  I kind of made no effort to hide my bracket, well...actually I made ever intention for him to see it.  I am sure that he did.

So here is the topic of discussion.  The reason that I wear the bracelet so proudly is that I am shy, and would love to be approached by a cute guy because he saw my bracelet.... Well I guess the only problem with that is, i think the guy at the desk was thinking the same way.  So ultimately we exchanged the necessary conversation to complete our required operations, I went about my own way.  This led me to think.  how does one shy guy approach  another shy guy.  It is obvious that wearing the pride jewellery he wants to be notice by other guys. but it doesn't help when neither one of us uses an opportunity that has presented itself.

What do you all think..... How do I become more bold and straight forward with guys...

Kris

Crush

Thought it was time to update my blog. It has been an exciting last couple of weeks. I saw my crush again the other day at the drag show. He wasn't a queen, he was assisting one of the queens as part of the act. When he came out of the back to open the second half of the drag show I was so excited. I almost went up there and tipped him rather than tipping the drag queen. He was wearing a sexy black shirt that wasn't buttoned up but tucked together at the bottom, offering a great view of his upper body. No the entire thing but enough to get your imagination going. As soon as he came out, so did my camera. Sure I was taking a picture of the man dressed like a women. It was a happy bonus that I got a great picture of a man dressed as a MAN!!! Yum is all I had to say. To top the whole thing off, instead of a belt he had a pair of handcuffs crossing the front of his shorts. Wow anyway, he know who he is, and maybe one day he will read this blog and get a good laugh over it. He is great to look at and he seams to have a good personality, the only hitch is that he is 16 years younger than me. Oh well maybe I will find a crush next time closer to my own age. So if you didn't guess by now, I went to a drag show the other day, which was put on by the Murray State Alliance. It was a wonderful show filled with entertainment, laughter and cute guys and um... girls. Now to those of you that know me know that I am not in to feminine males, but it is very entertaining, and the money raised for the event goes to awareness programs for Murray's LGBT community which is worth giving my money to anyway. This weekend I am going out with a bunch of friends to a club and going dancing. I am looking forward to it, and I never thought I would be saying that. I have started to learn to do the gangnam style and the wobble. I am going to hit the dance floor with confidence, or alcohol whichever one works faster. I will have to blog next weekend to let you all know how it goes. I heard the club can get rough sometimes, but for the most part its just a bunch of people having a good time. Well that is the update. Oh and if you wondered why I changed my facebook icon, it is to show my support in marriage equality. Kris

I don't know what to title this one, and I am not really sure how this one is going to go. I have been having a hard time lately, seams like nothing I am doing is barely good enough to maintain me at my current level in life. I am at a stall with my career, my bowling seams to have hit an impasse, and I seam to be stuck in a very routine rut. I have great friends and that is a great blessing in my life, but I have a hard time expressing how I really feel. I am hoping that this form of media will help me shout out to my friends and family that read my post. I am feeling like I am falling into a state of depression. I have been there before, however, this time it seams like it is stronger than I remember. I know that as one way to help get yourself out of it is to make sure you don't shut out your friends and family and let them know what you are feeling. So this is me telling my friends and family. I will get through this, as I always do, just don't let me shut any of you guys out. If you feel you need to discuss this with me, you are welcome to do so. I do intend on seeing a doctor about it when I get back from my trip next week. On a lighter side, i got talking to one of the guy friends I have been talking to in the past. He wants to get together sometime for lunch or dinner, and maybe we can get to know each other on a level other than the computer. I will be sure to keep all of you guys informed of what is happening with that, and everything else. Hope all of you guys have a wonderful day, and don't worry about me, I will make it through. Kris