Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Superman, or Clark Kent

I have found my inner superman. I spend all day at work as boring Kris, not the Kris everyone knows and loves, that Kris is long gone at work. I realized today that I use to play pranks on my bosses, joke around and having a good time. Its who I am, and really its my personality. But for some reason I have slipped into a blend within the company, but that all changes when I come home.

I didn't get home from work tonight till almost 9:30, tired, ready to go to bed, sit down on my computer and feel that something is missing. Oh yes, I know what it is, It is the big S on my chest. Okay Okay Okay, I don't have an S on my chest, but I got up put on my necklace and I feel like me again. Even though I am not going anywhere tonight and not going out, I just feel right with this necklace on. I wear it all the time now, it used to be a weekend thing but now it is a nightly thing. I where it everywhere I go when I am not at work.

I was at work, feeling like boring Clark Kent, reached up the scratch my neck, thought about my necklace and it brought a big smile to my face.

Well that is my inner superman story,
Does anyone else have an inner superman, something that reminds them to let go of your inhibitions and enjoy your life?

Well I hope you enjoyed, Leave some feedback let me know about your inner superman.

Kris

Monday, May 24, 2010

Another one on my list down.

Well I told another friend that I used to work with yesterday. He was cool with it, and although he really didn't know for sure, he always suspected. I am so happy to be on the way out, it just makes me feel more liberated and more confident in myself.

There is only one person right now in my life that is destroying my self confidence and I hope someday real soon to take care of that issue.

So today is a hard day for me though, One of my friends J. decided that he has had enough with the company I work for and decided to leave. He let me know of his plans early this morning, so needless to say, it has been a really hard day for me so far. I hate it when I take the time to develop a strong relationship, and they move. Although I don't blame them for moving, and every one of my friends have invited me along on their adventure, I just don't have to balls to do it.

Well I have to get back to work.

I hope the rest of you have a good day.

Kris

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Great Couple of Days

Well Friday night, I went to one of my friends house. Haven't spent a lot of time hanging out with him lately, and it was kind of nice. I wore my beloved pride necklace, which he thought looked good. So I had a good night Friday night and stayed up till about 3 in the morning. After a few hours crashing on the couch, I got up for a day of Geocaching.

I went Geocaching with another friend. M. I told M. that I was bi back a long time ago before I really decided to come out. My biggest contemplation of the morning was to wear the necklace or not. I decided to anyway. I wore a shirt with a fairly tight neck, so my plan was to keep the necklace under the shirt, and if it popped out during the day, well then it does. We got done with 10 long geocaches, and I realized my necklace was on the outside of my shirt. I don't know how long it was out, but M. didn't say anything. I am pretty sure he would have noticed though, so I guess I kind of told him without telling him.

Kris

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Update

I know its been a while since my last blog, so its time to update it.

Well since my last post I have started to wear my pride necklace around town, proudly showing it wherever I go. But the one person I wanted to see it, u know the guy I was talking about, all of a sudden isn't working up at the gas station anymore. Have know idea what happened to him. Oh well another cute one gone.

So in case any of you didn't know. There is a little town in Michigan called Saugatuck It is located on the west side of Michigan right on the lake. Well it is one of the top 10 gay tourist spots in the country. I think I am going to take a week vacation this summer and spend it up there and check it out for myself.

Oh, and I don't quite know how to take this, but someone at work said something about how gay I was, and C. one of my supervisors said, "he may be a fruit, but he is a nice guy." I think coming from him that is a compliment. LOL I think every one at works already has an idea, and I am sure everyone talks behind my back, but the funny thing is, between all the guys there, no one has enough balls to come up to me and ask. LOL

O well.

That is my update I hope you enjoy.

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Is he gay?

Well there is this guy.

I know now everyone who knows me can stop screeching now, and continue reading.

For the past few months there is this guy that right now works up at the gas station. He is always working every night after I get out of work, so I make it a point to stop buy and buy a couple pops, just so I can see him again. He seams to have a good personality, and through idle conversations over the last few months I found out that he has a degree in geology. So on top of being cute, Oh, i forgot to mention that, he is smart. I get this vibe from him when I ma in there, but I am not 100% sure, and wouldn't want to make a pass on him if he wasn't. I have considered slapping on my pride necklace and seeing what happened.

Anyone know a good way to tell for sure so I don't make a complete fool of myself, and have to switch gas stations.

Kris
Okay,
I know I haven't posted in a while. Well to tell you the truth there hasn't been a whole lot going on in my life lately. I am feeling like I am just idling by. My apartment is a mess. I know its bad and really needs to be cleaned but I really don't want to put forth the effort to do anything about it. I used to be really into cars, but for some reason I have started to lose the desire to work on my car. Its not because I don't have time or don't like cars anymore, I just don't feel like doing anything when I get home from work. Sometimes I feel like work is draining the life out of me.

Sorry for the babbling I just needed to get this off my chest. I know this has nothing to do with me being in the closet or coming out, or gay, or anything like that.

Well my next post will be better, I promise.