I don't know what to title this one, and I am not really sure how this one is going to go. I have been having a hard time lately, seams like nothing I am doing is barely good enough to maintain me at my current level in life. I am at a stall with my career, my bowling seams to have hit an impasse, and I seam to be stuck in a very routine rut. I have great friends and that is a great blessing in my life, but I have a hard time expressing how I really feel. I am hoping that this form of media will help me shout out to my friends and family that read my post. I am feeling like I am falling into a state of depression. I have been there before, however, this time it seams like it is stronger than I remember. I know that as one way to help get yourself out of it is to make sure you don't shut out your friends and family and let them know what you are feeling. So this is me telling my friends and family. I will get through this, as I always do, just don't let me shut any of you guys out. If you feel you need to discuss this with me, you are welcome to do so. I do intend on seeing a doctor about it when I get back from my trip next week. On a lighter side, i got talking to one of the guy friends I have been talking to in the past. He wants to get together sometime for lunch or dinner, and maybe we can get to know each other on a level other than the computer. I will be sure to keep all of you guys informed of what is happening with that, and everything else. Hope all of you guys have a wonderful day, and don't worry about me, I will make it through. Kris

Where have I been

Well it has been brought to my attention that for the last few months I have been absent from the bogasphere. For that I am truly sorry, I know and understand that I have four followers that really like to read my blog. So I had an excellent holiday season this year, got to spend both Thanksgiving and Christmas with my family in Michigan. Everyone up there is doing great. I won't get into it with too much detail since almost everyone that reads my blog was there for those days. I don't really have any thing going on in the department of relationships right now. Unfortunately I keep myself so busy all the time that it distracts me from trying to approach the subject of relationships. I don't know why I do it. I don't think I am afraid of being in a relationship, I guess I still don't know how to approach it. I am getting better though, I am introducing myself an trying to say HI and have more conversations online. I met this really nice guy (or so I thought) I one of my dating websites. He is only about 20 minutes away, so our conversations online quickly progressed to trying to meet up with each other. I got his phone number, we text back and forth a few times, and every attempt I made to meet up something came up. Not on my end, it was on his end, he had school, or work or something, I don't know, finally he stopped texting me. Too bad, he was cute and into photography. The funny thing was that on his online profile, he put in his headline "No Bullshit, No Lies". Oh well, I will keep plugging away, attempting to make more contacts. They say that a lot of relationships develop with co-workers, but the field of work I am in, probably wouldn't have anything develop. This next week is going to be exciting, so keep facebook on the ready. I am travelling down to Florida on Wednesday night and Thursday to go to a Professional Bowling Tournament. I am going to be able to stay with my Aunt and Uncle down in the Villages, and have decided to make a little vacation of it. I am going to bowl on Friday, Saturday, and hopefully Sunday. Then I am going to spend Monday and Tuesday down there with my Aunt and Uncle, then I will have to travel back on Wednesday. So I will keep everyone up to date on how my bowling adventure is going. This is a tournament of Non-Champions, so there won't be any huge names there, and anyone that has had a title in the last year, is not eligible. Well that is about all for now, it is well after midnight and I do have to work in the morning. Goodnight, Kris

The downside of being out

Okay to start, if you read my last blog, I don't know what happened to my date. Got all ready to go on the date, asked him out, and he never got back with me. WTF, I just understand men. O well that is just water under the bridge now. So I have discovered, so far, the only downside to being out of the closet. The problem is the influx of friends that you make, when you are more confident about yourself. I used to be an introverted personality, where I would come home from work, watch tv until I fell asleep and do it again. Now I am out, and more confident with myself, and as a result I have created a few new and really close friends. Now this may not seem like such a bad thing, but the downside is that I have a hard time budgeting the little free time I have with all of my friends. There is my wonderful friends at the bowling ally in town, a couple of good friends that I work with, and then there is my cousin down in Nashville. The problem is that if I want to hang out with one of them, or do something, then I feel as if I am letting down my other friends. There just isn't enough of me to go around. I think I need to make sure I have a boyfriend that can get along with all my friends, so even when I do find that someone special that I can still spend my fill of time with my wonderful friends, that are always there when I need them, and even when I don't. I hope all of your problems are as lame as mine. Kris

A Date Coming UP

So it is almost one in the morning. I have been up and down all night long. I did get about a half hour of good sleep tonight, so I guess I am doing well. I figured since I am up, I might as well make good use of the time and write a little on my Blog. So this last couple of weeks have been pretty interesting for me. I met this guy on gay.com and started chatting with him. We have exchanged phone numbers and have been texting back and forth for the last week or so. He is a pretty cute guy, just a couple years younger than me, which is a lot better than I have tried dating so far. Most of the guys I talk to, are really young, and of course we all know how that worked out. I am still single if you didn't already know. So this guy lives in Paris Tennessee which is just a short half hour from here. The main thing that interested me about him was that fact that he liked photography and being out doors, so I am hoping we can go out shooting together and maybe some geocaching. I don't yet know if he knows what that is, but if he doesn't he is going to soon. Well anyway we are planning on going out next week. The only day I really had available this week was tonight, but he class tonight. Oh did I mention his name was Chris. I will let you all know how that goes. Last weekend I bowled in my 4th bowling tournament as a professional bowler. Although I didn't place very well, I think I did okay for the type of oil conditions. I averaged 185, and the cutoff average to the second day was 201. I did get to meet Pete Webber though, which was kind of cool. Definitely does not live up his reputation of being a jerk, from what I saw, he was a great guy, and willing to chat and sign autographs without any disapproval, even from another pro bowler asking. LOL. This weekend is going to be equally exciting. It is Octoberfest at the racetrack, and I haven't been able to race hardly at all this year. I have but one of four objectives for this weekend. 1. Hit a lot of cones 2. Accidentally drive my car off the track because I am pushing it to hard. 3. Break my car from running it to hard (I am just looking for an excuse to work on my car). and 4. All of the above. Picture me turning into a corner too hard, hitting a cone, getting the car loose, doing a 180 as I am leaving the track, and tearing up something on the car as I bounce through the infield. Well that is about all I have to say tonight. I am going to lay down and make another attempt at sleep. Night. Kris

The Hookup

So one of my friends wife has been trying to hook me up with this guy at Lowe's for ever, okay maybe not for ever, but for 4 months or so. Finally I have build up enough courage to go and meet him (i know for months, how pathetic). Well I went to go meet him on Wednesday only to find out that he is on vacation. So I decided to go up there on Friday to introduce myself. So I met my friends wife in her department and she was going to introduce us. After making a couple of calls we found out that he left a few hours before that. She found out when he worked next, which was today, so I decided to head back up there this afternoon to meet him. At long last, not know what he looked like, I got my first look at him today. I think he is pretty cute and I can't wait to actually meet him (if you are following along you just realized that I didn't meet him again today). I walked up there to say hi, but he was with a customer, so I just continued on my way, went and looked at some garage storage stuff, built up the courage to go say hi again, walked over there, and he was with another customer. I went off and did something else for a few minutes and came back, but he was still with the same customer. So I decided instead of looking like a stalker I would come back again another time. I think I need my friends wife to introduce us, that would make the whole introduction thing a little less awkward, and everyone that knows me knows that once I meet someone, I am not usually that shy. Well that is all I have to say for today, hopefully I will have more to share in the very near future. Oh and btw I am thinking of starting a new blog, it is going to be interactive, and about cars. Kris

New member to the family.

Well I have had her for a while, but I haven't blogged in a while. I got a cute new dog, her name is Zoi and she is about 1 years old

Isn't she cute. She is really the highlight of my day, even though I have to get up earlier in the day, rush home on lunch to let her out, and make sure I go home at night. But with all that, when you have a day like today, it is great to come home to someone that will love you just for who you are, not who other want you to be. Ever have one of those days where you want to just come home and get a hug from someone you love. Ya today was one of those days, even though I had an excited dog to come home to, it sure would have been nice to come in the door and have someone there to hug me and tell me that you are great the way you are. There is a song by Owl City that today reminds me "Honey and the Bee". It starts talking about feeling like a bug on a windshield. Ya, well... Okay enough gushy stuff, needed to get it off my chest. This last weekend I had my third bowling tournament in Coldwater Ohio. The house was great, mad props to them for the awesome facility. Now on a not so good not, but not a bad note. I came in second to last. Too bad too, it was the perfect set up, wood approach, wood lanes, brand new pins, and a couple of huge name bowlers, it couldn't of been a better time. I was able to take a bunch of pictures on my way home Sunday, and I even got some geocaching done while I was there. Tonight I went bowling just to make sure I still know how to bowl after my wonderful bowling this weekend, and was able to average 233 for 5 games, so I guess I still got it. Well anyway, I am going to go to bed now, Have to be to work in a few hours. Kris

Chick-fil-a

Okay right now there is a lot of hype in the gayverse about Chick-fil-a. In case you hadn't heard about it (where have you been), but they have strict religious views, not necessarily strictly Christian, but religious all the same. As part of that they are not open on Sundays, they cater to Christian radio by sponsoring concerts and events, most of the time for free or very little costs. Overall they have a strong mission statement and a strong way of thinking. What they do not like, nor believe in is a gay relationships, or gay marriage. Okay so lets think about it. There is a hugely successful company that was founded, created and operated with a strong believe system. That is amazing and great that a company can stick by its mission and become successful under its own policies, not by the policies that a society calls "politically correct". In case you didn't know, there is a gay boycott on Chick-fil-a, but really is that going to change the way they operate their business? Are they going to try and make themselves politically correct enough to cater to all types of people, even though they have been thriving for years on the same backbone believes? No they are not. They are not going around saying that they hate gays, and they refuse to serve us, what they are saying is they don't believe in our life style, and don't choose to accept it within teir organization. Thats great Chick-fil-a, keep doing what your doing, keep strong, and keep the company running the same way it has been proven to be successful even without your VP of public relations. To all my gay friends out there. If you choose to boycott a company, you have every right. Sometimes it is for good, sometimes it is not so good, but the reality of it all is that not everyone in this world is going to have the same believes and outlook. There are always going to be groups and organizations that hate gays, blacks, whites, Muslim or any other type of group. The solution is simple.... If you don't like the believes of a company or an individual, you have the right to not do business with them. If you don't like Chick-fil-a because they don't like gays, then don't eat there. There are plenty of other places down the street where a gay guy can get a chicken fix. Kris