Got to love the Boxee box. For all of those that don't know what it is. It is the most awesome media player in the world. It will pull streaming video off line and play it on your TV. over 9000 movies and 1000 tv shows to choose from.
Well I was flicking through my list of favorites, and came across the new History Channel Series "Only in America". I thought I would check that out and see what it is all about. well the first thing on the list was "Pray the Gay Way". I thought that was weird, but I wanted to check it out. Turns out the Boxee box put it in the wrong category and I was really watching an O W N network show. I had seen the commercial for it a few days back and wanted to watch it.
They had many different types of people there. Ones that are self proclaimed X-Gay. They claimed by prayer and believing in god that they have become X-Gay. They also had people that were in the process of becoming x-gay. I really felt bad for this kid. He acted so repressed with his feelings. He did use to drag, drink, do drugs, and have random sex with guys, but now that He has found god, and is trying to become x-gay, he doesn't do that anymore. So I will admit that some good has come out of that mentality, as far as the crazy destructive life style is concerned. But you could tell that this kid was so bottled up.
But then they had a segment on this other group of kids. They had this summer camp where Gay kids can go to and learn about god and be in a place that was accepting of their sexuality.
It was a really good show, and Opera gets two thumbs up for airing it. All is said and done, one of the ministers of the group that wanted to change gays to straight came out and said "Weather your gay or straight you will be beside me in heaven as long as you believe in Jesus as our savior.
With that I am done talking tonight. I feel a little more at ease now that I watched the show and saw other gay peoples perspectives on being Christan.
Kris
Friday, March 25, 2011
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Need to find me
Hi everyone, Well the two or three of you guys that read my blog.
Okay, I have said what I needed to say. The above text has been deleted, what I said was stuff I needed to say for the betterment of myself.
Now stuff that I want to say to everyone.
I am dealing with a lot of emotional things right now. Not sure where I fit in, Not sure where the future is going to take me, not sure of much right now. I feel as if I have been a drift on the sea of life for a while now, not really focused, just going where the current takes me. The problem is, I am stuck in an eddy. At times it looks like I am on the move, but wait a little while longer and I will be riding the current back to where I was. I need a sudden burst of wind to break me free of this eddy.
Wow, now I am getting really philosophical. Well hold on to your seats, its not over yet.
The other thing I am dealing with is God and Religion. Even though I always listen and love to listen to my Christan radio station. (WAY FM) little plug for them, they rock. I feel lost in my religion. I was brought up as a Presbyterian and still feel as if that is my denomination of choice. What I have a hard time with is, figure out where I fit in within a church setting. I really miss the fellowship of the church. I don't want to walk into a church "Hi its me aren't I fabulous", I don't think I need to disrupt things like that, but on the other hand I don't want keep myself closeted either. It is going to come out, I would rather people know from the start and get to know me for me, not for the guy that just came out. I know there are churches that present themselves as gay churches, but that is not what I really want. I don't want the focus on homosexuality, or even around it, but what I want is acceptance for the way I am, and given the right to worship the lord along side everyone else. After all we are all sinners in this world in one way or the other. (I know what I want to say in this space here, but I can't figure out how to put it into words right now. The rest of this thought is up to you guys.)
Well with all that being said, I will sign off.
Please post comments or thoughts about this posting.
Kris
P.S. I know there are a couple of my close family that read this blog, and are worried about me, please know that I will be okay. I just need to climb my way out of this valley, or blow my self out of this eddy. (anyone got a speed boat, that would help) I will be okay you guys.
Okay, I have said what I needed to say. The above text has been deleted, what I said was stuff I needed to say for the betterment of myself.
Now stuff that I want to say to everyone.
I am dealing with a lot of emotional things right now. Not sure where I fit in, Not sure where the future is going to take me, not sure of much right now. I feel as if I have been a drift on the sea of life for a while now, not really focused, just going where the current takes me. The problem is, I am stuck in an eddy. At times it looks like I am on the move, but wait a little while longer and I will be riding the current back to where I was. I need a sudden burst of wind to break me free of this eddy.
Wow, now I am getting really philosophical. Well hold on to your seats, its not over yet.
The other thing I am dealing with is God and Religion. Even though I always listen and love to listen to my Christan radio station. (WAY FM) little plug for them, they rock. I feel lost in my religion. I was brought up as a Presbyterian and still feel as if that is my denomination of choice. What I have a hard time with is, figure out where I fit in within a church setting. I really miss the fellowship of the church. I don't want to walk into a church "Hi its me aren't I fabulous", I don't think I need to disrupt things like that, but on the other hand I don't want keep myself closeted either. It is going to come out, I would rather people know from the start and get to know me for me, not for the guy that just came out. I know there are churches that present themselves as gay churches, but that is not what I really want. I don't want the focus on homosexuality, or even around it, but what I want is acceptance for the way I am, and given the right to worship the lord along side everyone else. After all we are all sinners in this world in one way or the other. (I know what I want to say in this space here, but I can't figure out how to put it into words right now. The rest of this thought is up to you guys.)
Well with all that being said, I will sign off.
Please post comments or thoughts about this posting.
Kris
P.S. I know there are a couple of my close family that read this blog, and are worried about me, please know that I will be okay. I just need to climb my way out of this valley, or blow my self out of this eddy. (anyone got a speed boat, that would help) I will be okay you guys.
Thursday, February 24, 2011
I am not sure I fit in anymore
I am not sure I fit in at work anymore. It has been a rather rough week for me this week dealing with people. On of the guys I work with he has had a bad attitude towards me since the first day he started working there. I never knew why until this week. He is scared of me I think. He calls me gay all the time and I never deny it. So he doesn't like me because I don't deny it. Will I guess our differences will never be worked out, cause weather he thinks I am gay, or I come out and tell him I am gay, his attitude is going to be the same. So be it. So B. The only thing I have to you is FU. Thats it.
Now comes the other part of the week. One of the office ladies came in to my coworkers office and mine this morning starting out with, do you know what Obama did? She explained that Obama won't defend the marriage law or something like that she started going on about gay this and gay that, and how she thought there is no way that people were born gay, it is against the bible. That is where I almost stopped her. I wanted to ask here when she knew she was straight.
Well anyway I have pretty much figured out that there is no way I can even entertain the notion of coming out at work, already knowing how people act about homosexuality even when they don't know how close it is to them.
Anyway enough of this negative blog. I don't like them myself but some times things just need to be said.
Kris
Now comes the other part of the week. One of the office ladies came in to my coworkers office and mine this morning starting out with, do you know what Obama did? She explained that Obama won't defend the marriage law or something like that she started going on about gay this and gay that, and how she thought there is no way that people were born gay, it is against the bible. That is where I almost stopped her. I wanted to ask here when she knew she was straight.
Well anyway I have pretty much figured out that there is no way I can even entertain the notion of coming out at work, already knowing how people act about homosexuality even when they don't know how close it is to them.
Anyway enough of this negative blog. I don't like them myself but some times things just need to be said.
Kris
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Vacation
Well as some of you know, and some of you don't I spent last week in sunny Florida, getting a taste of what its like down where people are happy to be where they are at. I must say I had a good time down in the Villages. Yes I know I said Villages, a retirement community. But really I was down there to visit my uncle which I have not been to his place since he moved in, and to play as much golf as I could squeeze in while I was down there.
The Villages is a really nice community, and there is a good chance that when it comes to me retiring, that is where I am going to end up. The older people in this area is like no other. They are the biggest group of people that have decided that when they are old, they are not going to stay inside the house all day and let death happen. The are taking advantage of everything this wonderful community has to offer.
For me, on the days that I didn't go golfing I went geocaching with my aunt. She was great to drive me all over the villages in her awesome electric golf cart. I had a blast, and found around 14 geocaches. There were a couple of great puzzle caches that ended up being a ton of fun.
When all was said and done, it was time to go home. I didn't really like the idea, but I knew I still had a job waiting for me when I got home. So I boarded the airplane and the first thing I saw was a cute flight attendant, can't for the life of me remember his name, but I was happy to see a male attendant. I got settled in my seat and it was time for the pre-flight announcements. This is when it got fun.
The flight attendant started the announcements, talking about turning off all electronic devices such as cell phones, computers, children. That got everyone that was paying the littlest of attention laughing. Then he continues talking about the drinks, coke, diet coke, water, alcohol, and energy drinks for your children. Again the plane was practically rolling on the floor. So towards the end of the safety portion of the speech he was talking about the oxygen mask. He said "even though the bag may not be inflated the alcohol is still flowing". Isn't that great. Oh and one other thing, he was talking about the vest. he said to put the toilet cover over you head and pull the handle when you get out of the plane. "for the over achiever you can inflate the vest manually using the tube".
So anyway enough about that. So the plane takes off, and what do you know, there are three male flight attendants and only one female flight attendants. and to top it off they are all pretty cute.
Well on the assent into the air we hear an announcement. "Please direct your attention to the center Isle, your in flight snack is being delivered". I was thinking what is going on. Then I hear "you better catch them, the drinks are next". All of a sudden peanuts go flying down the center isle, they were putting them on the floor and letting them slide towards the back due to our assent angle. It was so fun.
Well that was the highlight of my trip home.
Hope you enjoyed the story.
Kris
The Villages is a really nice community, and there is a good chance that when it comes to me retiring, that is where I am going to end up. The older people in this area is like no other. They are the biggest group of people that have decided that when they are old, they are not going to stay inside the house all day and let death happen. The are taking advantage of everything this wonderful community has to offer.
For me, on the days that I didn't go golfing I went geocaching with my aunt. She was great to drive me all over the villages in her awesome electric golf cart. I had a blast, and found around 14 geocaches. There were a couple of great puzzle caches that ended up being a ton of fun.
When all was said and done, it was time to go home. I didn't really like the idea, but I knew I still had a job waiting for me when I got home. So I boarded the airplane and the first thing I saw was a cute flight attendant, can't for the life of me remember his name, but I was happy to see a male attendant. I got settled in my seat and it was time for the pre-flight announcements. This is when it got fun.
The flight attendant started the announcements, talking about turning off all electronic devices such as cell phones, computers, children. That got everyone that was paying the littlest of attention laughing. Then he continues talking about the drinks, coke, diet coke, water, alcohol, and energy drinks for your children. Again the plane was practically rolling on the floor. So towards the end of the safety portion of the speech he was talking about the oxygen mask. He said "even though the bag may not be inflated the alcohol is still flowing". Isn't that great. Oh and one other thing, he was talking about the vest. he said to put the toilet cover over you head and pull the handle when you get out of the plane. "for the over achiever you can inflate the vest manually using the tube".
So anyway enough about that. So the plane takes off, and what do you know, there are three male flight attendants and only one female flight attendants. and to top it off they are all pretty cute.
Well on the assent into the air we hear an announcement. "Please direct your attention to the center Isle, your in flight snack is being delivered". I was thinking what is going on. Then I hear "you better catch them, the drinks are next". All of a sudden peanuts go flying down the center isle, they were putting them on the floor and letting them slide towards the back due to our assent angle. It was so fun.
Well that was the highlight of my trip home.
Hope you enjoyed the story.
Kris
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Random
Okay this is going to be a blog of random thoughts that pop into my head as I type.
So things have been pretty good for me lately. It has been a couple of months since I told my parents. They are starting to become more and more comfortable with it. Today I had a conversation about religion with my mom today, most of this came on because my cousin decided that it was time she let God back into her life. We went to a Church of Christ today, while it is not for me, I will support my cousin with whatever she wants to do. Well I got a little off topic, so my mom and I were talking about religion and she said gay at least three times. I love it that she can talk to me more openly about it.
On the home front end of my life, I have a couple of guys that I am thinking of pursuing and seeing what happens from there. So there is this one guy T. he was telling me that he is starting to have feelings for me, and although he seams to be a good person, and we have some good conversations, he claims to be Bi not Gay, and he lives in North Carolina.
Then there is this guy I just started talking to. There are a couple of really good pluses with him. He lives only 20 min from my house, He is cute as a button, and seams to have a great personality. So far I haven't had any time to find any negatives about him. Maybe I won't that would be great.
Then there is this other guy. He has a great personality and seams to be a very nice guy, we have many things in common such as cars, and he is interested in going geocaching with me. The negatives the big one it seams with most of my potential relationships is that he lives a few hours away.
If anyone has ever had a long distance relationship with someone, they will know how hard it is. When you come to visit a date turns into a weekend event. So it is not typical with the, lets go to dinner sometime attitude. That puts a lot of stress on the relationship right off the bat.
Well those are my thoughts so far. I am getting ready this week to take a well deserved vacation. It has been a long time since I have had an opportunity to get away from work and everyday life and go somewhere for a week to do nothing but enjoy myself. Maybe next time I go on vacation I will have someone to take with me and enjoy their company.
Well I am going to go for now. I hope everyone enjoys my blog, and if it is a while before I blog again, hit me in the head and tell me to write a blog.
Kris
So things have been pretty good for me lately. It has been a couple of months since I told my parents. They are starting to become more and more comfortable with it. Today I had a conversation about religion with my mom today, most of this came on because my cousin decided that it was time she let God back into her life. We went to a Church of Christ today, while it is not for me, I will support my cousin with whatever she wants to do. Well I got a little off topic, so my mom and I were talking about religion and she said gay at least three times. I love it that she can talk to me more openly about it.
On the home front end of my life, I have a couple of guys that I am thinking of pursuing and seeing what happens from there. So there is this one guy T. he was telling me that he is starting to have feelings for me, and although he seams to be a good person, and we have some good conversations, he claims to be Bi not Gay, and he lives in North Carolina.
Then there is this guy I just started talking to. There are a couple of really good pluses with him. He lives only 20 min from my house, He is cute as a button, and seams to have a great personality. So far I haven't had any time to find any negatives about him. Maybe I won't that would be great.
Then there is this other guy. He has a great personality and seams to be a very nice guy, we have many things in common such as cars, and he is interested in going geocaching with me. The negatives the big one it seams with most of my potential relationships is that he lives a few hours away.
If anyone has ever had a long distance relationship with someone, they will know how hard it is. When you come to visit a date turns into a weekend event. So it is not typical with the, lets go to dinner sometime attitude. That puts a lot of stress on the relationship right off the bat.
Well those are my thoughts so far. I am getting ready this week to take a well deserved vacation. It has been a long time since I have had an opportunity to get away from work and everyday life and go somewhere for a week to do nothing but enjoy myself. Maybe next time I go on vacation I will have someone to take with me and enjoy their company.
Well I am going to go for now. I hope everyone enjoys my blog, and if it is a while before I blog again, hit me in the head and tell me to write a blog.
Kris
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Need caching buddy
So I spent Christmas break with my family in Michigan, and I must say that I had a good time, almost makes me homesick. I got to spend a lot of time geocaching with my brother, nephew and niece.
When I returned home and went out geocaching, while it was fun, it just wasn't the same. What I want is someone to share that experience with. My sister called me at an absurd hour for geocaching, but I went to do it anyway. The only thing I was missing was someone I can call on to enjoy the pleasure with.
Here is a call out, I want a geocaching buddy that I can also spend the rest of my life with. Is that really too much to ask.
Kris
When I returned home and went out geocaching, while it was fun, it just wasn't the same. What I want is someone to share that experience with. My sister called me at an absurd hour for geocaching, but I went to do it anyway. The only thing I was missing was someone I can call on to enjoy the pleasure with.
Here is a call out, I want a geocaching buddy that I can also spend the rest of my life with. Is that really too much to ask.
Kris
Sunday, December 19, 2010
After Math and More
So the last time I posted a blog was just after Thanksgiving when I came out to my parents. Since then things have been up and down, but now after about three weeks or so I can say that it is mostly up. My mom said she was okay with it at first, but it seamed to change after I left. I guess she started crying for a couple of days after. That was one thing I really did not want to do, but sometimes you have to do what you have to do. It wasn't going to be any easier on my mom if I told her last year, or this year, or even next year. I personally am doing well with it now. Now that my mom and dad and sister know, and soon after my mom found out, all of the family everywhere knew, so I don't have to hide any part of myself any more.... at least when it comes to my personal life. Work on the other hand still is for the most part in the dark.
I am actually writing this blog in the work truck on the way to a job. The group of people I am working with this week all pretty much know, and they have expressed that many times. Most in a fun and positive way.
So yesterday I was walking through walmart looking for digital cameras for the family. I was walking by the from registers when I saw the bosses son. Luckily I saw them first and had an opportunity to quickly tuck my necklace under my teeshirt. I don't know why I am so afraid of working finding out, but I fear it will have adverse effects on my career there.
Other then that things have been going good. Still don't have anyone that I can consider a boyfriend, but now that I am out to everyone there is no reason why I can't meet someone and be able to share my experiences with the ones that are closest to me.
Thanks for listening,
Kris
I am actually writing this blog in the work truck on the way to a job. The group of people I am working with this week all pretty much know, and they have expressed that many times. Most in a fun and positive way.
So yesterday I was walking through walmart looking for digital cameras for the family. I was walking by the from registers when I saw the bosses son. Luckily I saw them first and had an opportunity to quickly tuck my necklace under my teeshirt. I don't know why I am so afraid of working finding out, but I fear it will have adverse effects on my career there.
Other then that things have been going good. Still don't have anyone that I can consider a boyfriend, but now that I am out to everyone there is no reason why I can't meet someone and be able to share my experiences with the ones that are closest to me.
Thanks for listening,
Kris
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