Rage!!!

So the last couple of weeks have been extremely busy for me. I have been all over this area of the country doing mussel surveys and other projects. I think it is finally wearing on me. From the very moment I got up this morning till the time I pulled up into my driveway, I have been really irritable, and argumentative. Well of all days, I was catching a lot of extra shit from the crew I was working with. It just seamed like I was the main target for all the blame of anything that happened today, and to top it off, the supervisor kept rolling the Gay jokes. It seamed like it was one after another after another. Anyone who knows me knows that that kind of stuff just rolls off me, but it didn't today. It kept building and building, and I could feel the pressures of repression in my body. I needed a release, and I needed on bad.

I got back to the shop after that job, having to get ready for the next job. I was going over what we needed and found out that the other flow meter that was on another job two hours away was the one that we really needed for this job, so I did not hesitate to volunteer to drive up there to get it. It was just the release I was looking for. Jamming to my RuPaul the whole way up put me in a better mood. Thank you mother of all drag queens you are the inspiration I need to get through the day.

Well needless to say the trip did me good. I still feel some built up tension in my body. Hopefully it will be gone by tomorrow.

Well I will end this blog for now, I will try and post a more positive blog as soon as I can.

Kris

National Coming Out Day

Well today is the day for all the gay men and women out there to reminisce on their stories of coming out of the closet. For me, it happened just about a year ago, or at least that's when I told my family. Most of you know the story, so I won't get into to much details. I was up with my family for the Thanksgiving holiday, I went through the entire weekend stewing over how I was going to tell them, but I was ready to tell them. Over a series of the few days I was there, I decided I wasn't going to leave back home without telling my parents. I had two agendas for my timing on it. The first was I wanted to tell them before the Christmas Season, Christmas is very important to our family, and I didn't want that to ruin the holiday if for some reason my parents had a hard time dealing with it. The second was I was just about to leave to go home, and I had to tell them. My dad was at work, so I couldn't tell him face to face like I really wanted to, but I told my mom. After some tears and a long couple of weeks she seamed to have a hard time with it. Mostly about her concerns for my safety. My parents are the best and my worst fears of how they would react did not even come close to coming true. They couldn't have taken the shocking news any better. No my relationship with my parents is as strong as ever.

So today, I posted a note on my facebook page wishing everyone a happy coming out day. I have been posting notes and other random post that were gay related. So essentially, now is my coming out on facebook.

One of my good friends at work asked me today why October 11th. For that I didn't have an answer, but I did find an article when I got home from work tonight. http://www.huffingtonpost.com/jordan-roth/national-coming-out-day-2011_b_1003951.html It is a good article basically explaining that national coming out day is not for all of those that have yet to come out, but it is for all of those that have already come out. It is for sharing stories, and putting yourself out there so other closeted people know who you are, and that they can come to you with issues, questions, or concerns. I think that's a great way to treat this holiday.

Although as of yet, I am not sure of why the date is today, but what I am sure of is; If anyone reading my blog needs to talk about anything, I am here for you. Just E-mail me at kfrogger1@yahoo.com.

Kris

Nooner

Hello Everyone.

This is going to be a quick blog cause I am on my lunch hour, and have about 9 minutes until I have to head back to work.

Couple of good things going on right now. One my Sister in law is having a baby today. I am so excited to go up and see my new nephew and niece. Work is really busy right now, so I am not sure exactly when that will be. I hope it is soon.

There has been some concern about me signing up for the new app for my phone. So to set you all at ease, I am going to quite use of that application and cancel my account. I will just stick with the couple of dating websites I am already a member of, but I need to get myself out into the world a little more, and a little less on the net, and see what I can find out there.

Well that is about it for now. I will blog again soon.

Kris

I love October

So the start of the best month out of the year started with cooler weather, no more air conditioning and a wonderfully relaxing weekend. I really need it too. I was on vacation and then as soon as I got back I had to travel some more, so any opportunity I have to just relax and not do much for a day I am happy to take.

So I found this new app for my phone this weekend. It is called Guy Spy. It is a good idea, it will show you what guys are online, and where they are at via a map of the area. So I decided to sign up and see what it was all about. Well from day one I got a chat invite from some guy in my area. He seams like a pretty nice guy, but there is only one issue I am having, and it is the same issue I had with my last boyfriend, he is way too young. Now don't get me wrong, young guys are great on the eyes and great on the spirit, but I have a hard time bridging the generation gap. Superheros, and wrestling is okay, but not really my interest. Give me a guy that has been around for a little while, has some life experiences outside of the State of Kentucky and is in a place of stability. K if you are reading this I am not ruling you out, I still think at very least we can have a friendship.

I watched a movie this morning that was interesting to say the least, and I won't get into all the details of the movie, but I was watching that and realized the one thing I am truly missing is the love of a relationship. Now I just have to get to that point. Don't take this the wrong way, I am still happy, I just think there is more to me than I am currently showing.

Wow now I am getting all sappy and stuff. You all know me, I am not a sappy person. But I really need to find someone that is closer to my age that can understand me a little, and is still willing to get silly every once and a while. I am like peter pan I will never grow up, and I want someone that will never grow up with me.

Well that is all I have to say for now, I am sitting at the coffee shop sipping on some hot apple cider and eating a pumpkin cup muffin, what can be more perfect on a beautiful October day. Oh wait Candy Corn Thats what I need, I will have to indulge on that when I get home.

Have a happy October everyone, be sure to enjoy every minute of it that you can. Get outside, go to a haunted house, chase someone with a chainsaw, or at least jump out of a dark room (closet) at someone. Tis the season to be scared, so do it. Also remember that October 11th is National Coming Out Day so if you are gay and you haven't told someone you know, that is the day to do it, you will have the support of the whole LGBT community.

Love you all
Kris

Been A while

I know its been a while since I last blogged. For that I am sorry. So over the last couple of weeks my vacation was approved at work, I left last week for Atlanta and then for Florida.

Atlanta was awesome. I went to six flags for an event with a roller coaster review club, It was great. We got an hour and a half of ride time before the park opened, and 2 hours after the park closed. I must admit, there were a lot of cute guys in the roller coaster club. I had a really good time, rode Goliath 4 times in a row.

After Atlanta I flew to Fort Lauderdale for the day, and then on to Orlando to go to my Aunt and Uncles House. I really appreciate their hospitality. Although I love staying with my aunt and uncle, the I candy is not that great. After all 80 and 90 year old people aren't that appealing to a 34 year old man. I will admit though that I love the atmosphere and how happy the old people are down there. It makes me look forward to becoming the appropriate age to live down there.

When I got back yesterday from my trip I had to go to Mississippi for an inspection tomorrow on the Mississippi River. We got down here and their happened to be a casino right across the street. I decided to and play for a little while. I hopped on the shuttle over to the casino and played for a little while. started out with slots, not so good, then I moved to blackjack. Normally i do pretty good at it, but tonight I lost a little bit of money. The highlight though of the night was the guys sitting across from me at the table. They were pretty cute, probably in their mid 20's. The cutest one looked to be Pacific Islander in harritage or Asian in some way, not really sure. His friend was pretty cute too, getting funnier the more he drank. When i first sat down at the table I wasn't sure how fun the table was going to be. Everyone was really stiff and quiet. After a while everyone started to relax and we all had a pretty good time. The guys were from New Orleans and I had a good time with them sitting across the table.

Well that is the update for today, I hope you enjoyed.

Kris

Weddings

Well today was one of my friends weddings. I am so happy for him. Its kind of funny, I like hanging out with mike for all the guy things, like geocaching, UFC, Hanging out and having a beer, and just plane good conversation most of the time. The person he married is just as sweet and nice as anyone I have ever known. I like hanging out with her cause of all the non guy things. We talk about project runway, chick flicks, she likes board games. So the match is just perfect. I know this is going to sound a little greedy but they are the perfect couple for me to be a third wheel. I get great conversations from both end of the spectrum and we generally have a good time ever time we hang out. Congratulations you two, I hope you guys are happy together forever.

Now comes the typical social phobia type stuff. I was asked to help out in the wedding, which I was more than happy to do for them. After the rehearsal we went to the restaurant for dinner. After dinner mike and his buddies and most of his family decided to go to the bar and have some drinks. I didn't really know anyone and I didnt want to just hang around my friend all night cause I know he would want to talk with family and friends. So I opted out, I was almost begged to join by many of his friends and family, but I really am not one for just going to a bar and drinking. Instead I decided to go to the church and help his wife to be finish decorating the church. I had a good time doing that. Today after the wedding and the reception it was the same thing. They decided to go out to drink tonight, and I couldn't say no, I didn't want to ditch them two days in a row. Well as luck would have it I had a migraine tonight and it has been hurting me really bad. After the reception I drove home, took my meds for it and laid down for 20 min. before heading to the bar. The meds were working and I was having a good time, but the headache was still pounding. Finally I ducked out.

I had a really good time and kind of wish i didn't have a headache so I could of done some drinking. Most of his friends are great, and a lot of fun to hang out with. I also got an opportunity to meet his family, they are really great by the way, especially his grandma.

So what I am saying is, like always when I step out of my box, I have a good time. So M. and S. if you are reading this, I owe you a weekend with your friends and me at the apple for a night of drinking and letting my self go completely.

Kris

A boat full of Hunks

I was out on the river today. We were on our way back down the Green River after just finishing up our job. I was putting away the GPS system when I heard some obscure comment coming from one of my colleagues driving the boat. "Did you see that boat, not a single women on board" Just then I looked up to see what they were talking about. It was a boat full of hot ass built guys, about six of them just riding down the river. My coworker made a comment that they were saying something as I was driving buy. I said "Ya, it was probably cause I was bent over putting the GPS away with my ass straight up in the air." Then I said, "Turn around I want to hang out with them tonight. LOL

Well that is all I got for now.

Kris