Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Interesting Day

Wow, today I was put in a really interesting position. Our hotel that we are staying at is right across the street from a titty bar. My room mate wanted to take me over to it. I told him that I have never been to one before and am not interested in going. Well the subject was not really dropped all day, and the subject on the boat got to dealing with sex, pussy, and boobs. I like normal was real quiet why the others went back in forth sharing stories and stuff. After a while T. as we will call him in this story to protect the straight, lol. He mentioned that I was being really quiet and asked me if I liked pussy. After a moment of silence and anxiety from them awaiting my answer, I looked at T and told him that I have had enough experience to form my own opinion. He asked what my opinion was. I responded EWWWWWWW. For the most part they just laughed it off, but suddenly the subject went to talking about gays. I just sat backed and listened to the conversation, just as quiet as before about the subject. Eventually conversation got back to normal and the rest of the day went on without any problems.

After work tonight, again the titty bar issue came up. We got out of work early so I went and did a couple of geocaches, my room mate B. decided to go with me. He kept going on about the titty bar, and about sex, and when the last time I had sex was, and do I know what this position or style is. Finally I told him that I am happy with the way I am.

That was the last that was said.

I am so wanting to tell him the truth, and maybe even T. I know though that if I tell T. it will get back to the owner of the company and it might cause some other issues with peoples comfort level with me being around them on the boat and sharing a hotel room and stuff. So I think for now, I will try and avoid the subject as much as possible with work people. I just can't afford right now to have issues like this at work.

As always I am looking forward to comments, feedback, and advice. Please take the time to let me know that you have read my blog.

Kris

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Okay one step closer.

Well, I new my brother was going to tell his wife, and I waited impatiently for her to get onto Facebook to discuss it with her. She pretty much took it the same way my brother did. She wasn't surprised, and said it was cool.

I am happy she took it that well, I almost had to tell her the other day before I said anything to my brother because she was trying to set me up with one of the girls at her work. Luckily she didn't push it that hard, and I was able to skate around it until I was ready to tell her the truth.

Now that she knows I am sure she is going to try and set me up again, but with men now. I think she has pretty good taste, so you never know.

All is still well, nothing bad yet has come of my coming out experience.

Kris

Saturday, March 27, 2010

I told my older brother

Well I was talking to my brother on the phone today, he was driving through the mountains in Wyoming so he was in and out of signal. I lost his signal for a moment and so out of fun I shouted out, "I am gay". My cousin looked at me and we started laughing. He didn't hear me, but while I was waiting for him to call me back I was talking to my cousin. Turns out he already voiced his theory with my cousin long before I told my cousin. So when he called me back I told him.

He was cool with it, I am glad. I am glad that I am starting to come out to family, however he warned me that if I let my younger brother and his wife know, it will most certainly get back to my parents. I think the correct order in this case is to tell my parents first, then tell my younger brother. I think he already knows, but has not ever said anything due to lack of confirmation.

Well all is well, another person on my checklist of people to tell, and still no negative experience. Tomorrow my brother is going to tell his wife, so I am sure that I am going to get a call or a text tomorrow.

Kris

Friday, March 19, 2010

Side Note for "Why won't they just ask?"

After reading the last post I realized that it sounded like I had some anger built up. So not the case. I just wanted to let everyone know that most gay guys, even extremely in the closet men, speaking from experience, really want to tell people. They are just not offered the venue in which to do so.

Stop repressing your true feelings, turn on that rainbow bright light and shine for the whole world to see.

Kris

Why don't they just ask?

You know, I work with a bunch of guys at work, and almost every one of them makes jokes and comments all the time about me being gay. That is great, for the most part I really enjoy it. What i don't know, is what they are talking about behind my back. For those of you that don't work in a semi-tight nit work environment, the gossip is horrible.

I know that most of the people at my company think I am gay. But does anyone know how many of them have actually came up to me and asked? That's right, NONE. None, not a single person. I don't pretend to act any different then I normally am, but some times I think I work for a bunch of chickens, that are so affraid of knowing the truth that they mask it with jokes and gossip.

Okay I am laying this out there to anyone who runs across this post. From the mind of a gay guy. If you suspect that a co-worker is gay, and you are really interested in knowing, ASK! Ask me, I will tell you. If you don't ask me you won't know for sure.

I have made it a personal policy this year, kind of a New Years resolution if you will, that if someone in a semi private setting came up to me and asked, I would tell them the truth.

I will leave you all at that, and remember if you have a question ask. It is stupid and reckless to assume.

Kris

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Big Day Yesterday

Yesterday was one of the hardest persons to come out to so far. Not only because he is also one of my good friends, but also because I work with him. In the business I am in, I don't know how far being gay will take me.

So the other day at work he pretty much came up to me and told me it would be okay with him if I told him I was gay. So the next day I did. It went really well. I have not had a bad experience telling anyone so far, and hope it continues. I seem to only get myself involved with fairly open minded people, which really is a blessing.

I want to send a thanks out to my friend for understanding so well, may things not change between us. I don't think anything will change considering before he suspected I was Gay and now it is just confirmed.

I hope to be telling my family in the near future. Stay tuned to how that is going to go.

Kris

Monday, March 8, 2010

What a reaction

Wow what a reaction.

So I went to the Skillet and Toby Mac concert last night, boy was that fun. I bought this really cool T-Shirt, on the top of it says Skillet in a shiny print, and to top it off I got this awesome colorfull sweat shirt. I walked in and one of the guys blurted out, mind you that there was about 15 guys standing around, OMG you really are gay.

I laughed as hard as everyone else does, and I said "you like my new sweater".

LOL it was great. I really need to just come fully out to everyone, The guys at work will be so wigged out I probably would enjoy it. LOL

Okay,

Thanks again for reading my blog

Kris.

Saturday, March 6, 2010

I am back,

So the other day I was talking to someone, and really off the top of my head I can't remember who. But we were talking about the Iron Man Movie. I told him that I didn't really want to watch the movie, but I went with some friends that were really into Marvel stuff. So we are talking about the movie and he blurted out, you just liked it for the shots of the blue guys junk. I just laughed and smiled, anyone could of seen right through me.

But let me pose a question. How many other people were anticipating and hoping for a better shot of the blue guy in the movie?

Please leave your feed back and let me know.